Hafiy, Aeroplane & KL

if its not because of the yearly sponsored air ticket by the company, we won't have any air travel from KB to KL. [kudos to the company, at least we didn't have to worry about the flood & landslide].

we flew a day after Aidiladha, at 8.30pm. i really didn't have any idea of flying with a baby. however, i plan to bring you along if i have to do business trip (to anyplace i could find somebody to look after you) since domestic charge for under 2YO baby is only 10% of the full price. so cheapy....

we went out 2 hours before the flight, cos i want to choose our seat next to the window so that it become easier to me to breastfeed you. however, it was a teruk traffic jam. more than 1 hour on the road for a usually-not-more-than-30minutes journey. oh my... however we still managed to get the seat, even tho it was at the 24th row.

it wasn't something comfortable to me, the seat is too narrow and limited spaced. however, with the keprihatinan of the air crew thanks a lot!, it became more pleasantable. my biggest fear was, how if you COL (cry out loud) along the 55minutes journey... oh i would die... the soother is take you for a walk... how could i do that in a boeing 737? alhamdulillah, you so well-behaved! you just merengek mintak susu & then you was preoccupied by the plane's light outside. good boy!

we didn't have any problem, or maybe because the journey is a short one? oh, i'm thinking about 2-and-half-hour flight to Miri! oh dear boy please be a good boy OK?

nevertheless, i still prepared some little things for the flight:-
1. sweater (thank to Mak Siti. jauh import from Cambodia =))
2. feed you during taking-off and landing to balance pressure inside your ears (however, you didn't accept this. you know how to balance it yourself eh)
3. pant type diapers (bcos of limited space for nappy change)
4. a very supportive husband ;) (my hands were fully occupied, Abiy helped me having my favourite orange juice)

walking in the airport was very tiring. plus, i wore heels. oh my, without stroller nor baby carrier, i hold you all the way while Abiy pushing the trolley. my back ache! i should buy a new pair... not a heely ones... phew~ fortunately, Tok Ma, Tok Pa & Pak Su Muhd went to China in the morning, so they left a car for us. so we could have Abiy's favourite satay Kajang at Dengkil R&R. yummy!

our first nite at Saujana Damansara was a terrible one. you cried all nite long! Mommy & Abiy were soooo tired, and i tot sometimes i just let you cry while i was sleeping cos i had no more energy to cradle you. poor boy... i told Tok Ayah bout that and he said 'baby beralih tempat'. i guess, yes. for 2 and half month you slept on our bed at Anjung Nenek, now everything had changed. i tot you need some time to adjust yourself to this new environment. i hope you won't take long cos we'll be here for not more than 10 days.

the first thing Mommy did was finding the timbang berat. i'm 46kg! wow2! 1kg more to go to my targeted weight! (my weight before got pregnant was 47kg anyway & targeted weight is 45kg) and our weight alltogether is 53kg. so you're 7kg now! beratnyer..

and this morning, we had our very first family photo session with Uncle WakJue (together with Adam Mikhael & family at Putrajaya) ... Mommy gonna tell you the story later with some piccas of today's activity :) so notty la you... tak suka tau buat perangai macam tu.

Contraception?

we went to see Dr Awang for my pap smear test & family planning consultation.

[this info i got totally from that almost-20-years experience gynae and not referring to other sources.]

he didn't suggest me to get pregnant again unless after Hafiy reaches 6 month old. there's several contraception methods (i start with the most-not-recommended-for-me one):

1. natural methods
2. IUD
3. implant
4. birth control pill
5. injection

natural mtds including condom, withdrawal & 'waktu selamat', Dr. Awang didn't recommend to us since the percentage of being 'accidentally' pregnant is high.

the IUD & implant are also not recommended for us coz we're the parents of one, he said he'll recommend this one if we already have several kids, and don't mind if we won't have more kids. it's because of the risk of 'tersangkut di daging & bernanah' of the IUD that might cause of permanently infertile & high cost of implant if we finally decide to conceive before its 'expiry date', which is between 3-5 years.

several birth control pills may affect milk production, especially the new one in the market, because it's still not proven. he recommended mercilon, the on that has been in the market since last 30 years, and may not affect milk production.

he suggested to take depo-provera injection. the advantage is, it is 3-monthly injection, may stop at anytime and will increase milk production. however,the hormone may 'disturb' my normal body system, i might have very irregular menstruation (say, 3 times period in a month) for the first few months, and i might not have my period after 1-2 year. and it's also will increase my body weight. and it have 'compounded effect', may take time to conceive even if after stopping the injection. and if it's happen, fertilization pill may be given.

however, because i am breastfeeding, the effect of it for the first 4 months is same as taking birth controll pill, where i have 1:1000 chance of being pregnant. so he didn't put anything on me until Hafiy is 4 month old.

we still don't decide about it. however, if it's not by natural method, we might consider depo-provera injection (the INCRESING MILK PRODUCTION attracts me).

pap smear? owh, the test to detect cervical cancer is very2 disturbing! it's a bit hurt, and cos blood stain on my pant*es.... thing he used to 'open' me is SOOO big ok!

I Am A New Mom

to become a mommy is the largest dream of most women. once i married in august, i expected myself to conceive as soon as possible. but it just happened after 5 months of my marriage.

but now, for the next one, i'm gonna go for family planning.

i just get this awareness as soon as i had my own child. at least for me, to be a parent is not as easy as having a child. unmarried couples also able to have babies, but most of them never become parents to the children they deliver. parenting, in my opinion previously, is only a common sense. however, with the arrival of Mr. Hafiy, my perspective changed drastically. to me, it is not about to grow a child up, but to nurture him, to become a person with high quality, at least better than us. i read about an ancient civilization (can't remember which), in their social hierarchy, a son should be better than his father, in term of job they occupied. example, if the father is a pemotong kayu, the child could be a carpenter. thus, the next generation would be more pakar than the previous ones.

all this while, i ONLY read about childcare e.g. how to bathe a baby, how to clean a baby, how to feed a baby, etc. but i almost forgot about non-physical care i.e. educating & nourishing young brain, etc. i heard about 'one is parenting the way she is parented'. i guess, yes. even before i have my own child, i used the same approach my mom did to me, when dealing with my younger brother. school holiday with me never be a pleasant one, he have to do revision, & start to study for the next year's subjects. this called parenting autopilot. cos it is driven without my preparation, even without my consciousness.

for my son, i try to control my parenting autopilot. i want to be as conscious as possible, so that i'll able to watch him and chart his development, and most importantly, i would know what i do for him, and that is what i want to do, not what i'm accidentally did. and this one, i have to start as soon as possible, because i don't know when his brain starts to process what he sees, and i take it as 'since birth, he sees me'.

some key points that i put on practice. (i guess i wanna share it with all mommies, for their personal opinion & share their personal practice)

1. watch our word
as a ex-teenager who have friends from all species, i am really into an easy-going kind of life. sometimes i used the words like "d*mn", "cr*p", "oh, sh*t", etc. to express my unsatisfactory. now i don't want my kids to use those words. then i stop using those, instead put "astaghfirullahal'aziem" in all situation.

i also noticed that, everytime i mention bad things about my son, it'll happen eventually, immediately. say, i babble to someone about his perangai nangis tak berenti sampai tak tido malam, that coming nite he'll be exactly like what i babbled before. yes, now i admit that, everyword from a mother need to be filtered, especially bad things.

so? instead of babbling around, i 'convert' it into prayer, may our sleep tonite is a good & quality one.

2. watch our action
a little kid's mind may have tendency to copy his parents' act. thus, we cut our not-so-good habits and replace them with the better ones, especially in stress management. when a little child sees how we manage our stress, he'll make copy. and don't be surprise if a child likes to scold and make a mess, if it's the way how you manage your stress.

during the early days especially during confinement, i was so fail in handling stress. especially when involving my cry-all-the-time boy. sometimes i channel it to him. poor boy. but recently, when he cries unstoppable in the middle of the nite, i take it positively and enjoy it as much as possible. i can read books (if i'm not that sleepy) & watch TV while cradling him.

3. appreciate his feelings
as young infant, the only way he can express his feelings is thru signals. and the most popular signal of his is by crying. previously, his crying could drive me mad, and of course i release my anger on him. but recently i learned that, he has right to cry. he has right to feel discontented. he has right to feel unhappy. and he has right to get what he wants. everytime he frown his face (as a sign before he starts scream), i would say "oh honey, you'll look better if you smile". sometimes it works if he wants to cry because of boredom. but it doesn't work for other reasons like wet diaper, tiredness, or he's sleepy.

sometimes he cries for no reason. already fed, diaper changed, etc. but i don't simply get mad or say "stop crying!". instead, i take him for a light walk and talk to him. some elders complaint about this "jgn ajar anak berdukung, nanti susah nak tinggal2". but for me, it is the way to soothe my son, and the way i appreciate him. he might want to has a walk, exploring things around him (as his sight becomes better recently). i can make him sleep by putting him inside his cradle, but at the same time i ignore his feeling, and i break his self-esteem.

4. encourage him
my son starts to make some sounds. definitely i don't understand what he says. but i talk to him like he understand me & i understand him. when i talk to him, then he says "oh", "ah", "eek", i'll repeat it into words, e.g. Me: so you wanna go back to our Miri house? Him: ah Me: oh, you can't wait to be in our house... good boy Him: eh Me: oh you want to fly there as soon as possible.. yada yada yada.

i can't say whether this may encourage him to talk early, but at least for his age, i intro him to a conversation tat he will explore later by himself.

5. involve him in daily activities
he's still small, so i just involve him in activities those i can hold him e.g. do my work on pc while breastfeeding him, put him on my lap while reading book, etc. i believe that, when he sees what his parents do since his early age, he'll become familiar to and i hope it will be easier to intro him to books and computer later.

6. involve him in daily devotion
however, i'm still not taking him with me when i perform solat. i tried several times but he cried. maybe he's too young and wonder 'what my Mommy's doing? why she puts me down here? why don't she carry me?...'

instead, i do on other things, like recite al-matsurat to him every morning & evening, doa sebelum makan before breastfeed him & doa selepas makan after filling his up, use zikir as lullaby, etc.

7. telling him "why" & provide solution
my son likes to suck his mitten/fingers. instead of pulling his hand down and say "tak boleh, tak boleh", i pull his hand down and say "no, you can't suck your mitten, got germs. if you like, you can do it on Mommy's nenen, got milk". yes, he doesn't understand but as the time flies, he knows why i prohibit him from sucking his fingers.

a total "tak boleh" will leave him a question mark. 'what is tak boleh? tak boleh suck mitten, or tak boleh suck, or tak boleh put my hand in my mouth or tak boleh move my hand or..?'. it might retard his interest to explore more things.

8. don't push him & don't compare
my friend's son started to turn in his 2 month old of age. my son shows no slight development in his physical ability. he is just he same boy i knew a month ago. however, my boy is my boy. every child has its own developmental curve. i don't mind if my boy is a bit late compared to other children in his age, as long as it is normal for an infant. unless, he doesn't show any development after 4-5 months, i might have to check with his paed.

i celebrate him, everytime i notice he makes new things. especially when he looks at me and make new sounds. it doesn't matter if he is a bit late, walking or talking, as long as he grows up as an excellent boy, from what i nourish him. cos what will be in his resume is his exam result, experience and activities, not when he started to talk or walk.

9. pray for him
this should be put at the point no 1 but i just wanna put it here. everytime after solat, i pray for him, and also for me so that i'm gonna be a good mom for him. as i said, every bad thing i mention about him, will be 'blessed', so i pray all the good things and stop mentioning bad things about my son. i notice that, for good things, i have to put all my attention but for bad things, even if while joking, it'll still happen. how masin mulut Mommy...

it's not easy for me to be a parent. as i was encouraged to read and learn about pregnancy even before i got pregnant, i guess, everybody should read and learn about parenting even before becoming a parent.

oh, it's be never too late.

as for me, i..
- read more books and worldwideweb.
- get experts' advice (experienced parents those can be role models).
- getting more organized to balance between work, friendship, husband & child.
- berlapang dada with others. there's many school of tots & we know what's the best for us & our kids.

is there any mom who would like to share with me?

abiy... meh tgk gamba afy....

2 Month Check Up & Mommy's Regret

at 2 month old you...

weighted 6.3kg. [last month 5kg]
height 58 cm. [last month 56 cm]

we went to the paed for your 2nd month injection. the hospital followed new schedule for injection. it was catdog rain since 1-2 days and you looked unwell. i dont know why you can't tolerate with heavy rain, your voice become harsh in a sudden.you was in a windy mood the whole day. at dr mazidah's clinic, you didn't behave well. menangis merengek even before the jab. ms timbang pun merengek2. when the dr put you on tummy time, you didn't even move your head. the dr said "eh, tak bole angkat kepala lagi ke? takpelah, baru 2 bulan" huhu. she should know my son is already merayap. time jab lagilah... apela.. tak macho sungguh.

Dr Mazidah tgh check Hafiy. big thigh, kata dia.


tak kene cucuk lg dah melalak.



tempat kene jab...



wajah2 ceria anak Mommy lepas kena jab.

the dr didn't provide us any ubat demam, Mami pun lupa nak tanya. at home, i told my dad that i want to tuam tempat inject so that you won't demam. but my dad said no. he asked me to let you demam2 dulu. he said "inject tu mmg purpose ia nak suh demam, jgn wat apa2, nanti antibodi tu tak jalan pulak" your body warm, but i'm not sure because of the jab or because of the wheather. i just put koolfever on your forehead, nak lap badan dgn air Mommy takut sejuk sgt pulak hujan2.

alhamdulillah the light fever was only for a night. however the following day you looked very weak. letih ek anak Mommy.... shian dia...

shian anak Mommy... tak bermaya je.

today? heh, like nothing has happened.

Lip lap lip lap... anok Mami!

Mommy's regret
[i promied myself that this will never happen again]

our life sailed very smooth, even if with a fussy you but Mommy still can manage . however, everything has changed when a makcik came to our place. she gave me a so-called advice and i was a total fool for accepting it just because she is a makcik, older, terrer & breastfeeding her children (not sure until when)! oh my God... i was shocked then, when she critize hat i've done, this and that. and told me 'the right thing' to do. as a new mom, i cringed. suddenly i changed my schedule and plans on you.

it was so awkward on me, but didn't want to be called 'bodoh sombong' or 'degil xmo dgr ckp org tua yg expert' i took it as 'a familiarization phase'. but yesterday, i came to my limit. for the first time, i called Abiy to tell him that i am depress. enough of it.

now my regret, for letting someone else decided for me but i really couldn't follow. how fool.... i should not give away my stand then. now when i get back to her, telling that i'm facing big problem with her advice, she was like "soo...?" or "i have nothing to do with this". grrrr!!!!!

it wasn't simple on me. i took a week to think before i followed her advice (a critic actually, she critic everything i did, it was like i wanted to kill my son, like i didn't love my son, etc.). that particular time, i felt guilty coz what i did that while 'distressing my son' (according to that soo terrer makcik). so i decided to follow. now????? even i am MORE DISTRESS than him! grrr!!!

that makcik may not read this blog, and i have no courage to say this to her:
"terima kasih atas kritikan makcik yg tak membina langsung tu. sekarang hidup saya makin sengsara sebab idea teruk makcik tu. kot ye pun nak tegur/marah saya, tengok la dulu, anak saya tak macam anak makcik. anak makcik tak fussy, tak baran, tak 10km, etc. skg ni, dah nak lepas tangan pulak. saya pun tak macam makcik. saya kerja, & saya ada byk benda nak dibuat. kalo makcik terer sangat, makcik jadila motivator ke, tulis buku ke, jadi pensyarah ke. geram saya ngan makcik ni tau. skg ni mak saya plak yg marahkan saya sbb anak saya jadi macam ni (samting yg saya tak hingin dia jadi sblum ni). geramnya geramnya! blah la makcik!"

lesson i've learned: IF WE ALREADY HAVE OUR STRONG STAND AND PLAN, JUST FOLLOW IT & DONT EVER LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO IS NOT BEING IN THE SAME SHOE WITH US, ESPECIALLY PAKAR TAK BERTAULIAH.

benci la! now i have to start over, all over again. bodohnye bodohnye!

dokong ngan PakSu

Happy 2 Month & Mommy's Dream

then


now

happy 2 month old sayang Mami!

Mommy just wanna jot a quick update about your 2 month's celebration:
- you slept at 2am.
- you cried when i asked you to sleep but you laugh everytime Mak Tok said "ni ape kuweh-kuweh mlm2 ni? nak jual kuih ke?" tak fahamla Mami. if only i could snap a picture...
- you didn't wake up throughout the nite. unless a big scream at 3.25am. but went back to sleep after i pat your butt. mengigau?

kepala sapa paling besar?

however, at 2 month you:
- recognize people around you. you start to mengada2 everytime Mak Tok & Tok Ayah are home. wanna talk to Tok Ayah & want Mak Tok to dodoi2. you cry if you don't get. ape dah...
- able to 'creep' [should i say menggelungsur] from Mommy's body everytime i put you on my chest and lay your body beside me. without assistance!
- able to seek for Mommy's tits. now Mommy don't have to put the nip into your mouth during latching on. you know how and where to find.
- confidently know what you want especially feeding. you'll scream if Mommy offer you food, you rather ask it by yourself. tgh2 lapa pn xaccept offer, nk mintak sdr jugak.
- sleep soundly in AC. everytime i switch the AC off, you'll scream. aduila... umah Miri manader ekonla sayang....
- can stay alone. you don't cry if i leave you alone. erk, sometimes...
- like to play with Mommy's nip. lick, suck and leave. lick, suck and leave...
- need new clothes..
- still the cutest! oh this is undeniable.

kurus tak Mami? kurus kan? ehehe..

Mommy's dream:
if only i serve the government, i might take the 5-years-unpaid leave for that purpose. but it's unfortunate, i am not a government servant, and i can't take the leave longer than what i'd apply, cos i am the one who is responsible to run a big project in our region, and i have to go back ASAP to continue it (now it's handed over to my Section Head).

i guess everymom (or should i say, every working mom?) when given option, whether to work or stay at home, may choose the second one. so do i. but i have two biggest reasons why i can't. first, i have another 8 years to complete my 10-years scholarship bonding with the company. second, i have to help Abiy in complementing our family's income. as an office-based staff, he doesn't get extra allowance. we can live, but without any saving if i don't work. our company doesn't give us any big salary as what people usually think. even our GM gets the lowest amongst other companies' GM (right, ibu emir? :P).

i feel jealous sometimes, to any mommy who ables to stop working and stay at home. and i feel hard to struggly working, because i NEED to work, not i WANT to work. now, even if i don't like my position or whatnot, i still have to do my job, to be unconditionally happy and put the highest target in my career. and i have to struggly maintain my reputation even if i'm not happy with that. and i can't lose the job, because of reasons i mentioned above.

but, on top of that, i put a target to retreat from this struggle office work at my 35, which is 10 years from now. doesn't mean that i wanna quit job but i don't wanna struggle just because of my 'rice pot' is there. i wanna be happily working, without stress and risk of being fired (fire by laser) by 'discontented' bosses. to get there, needs lots of hard work and sacrifice. dare to take the challenge?

by the way, we'll soon have a maid. the drastic decision came when our most precious auntie refused to follow us and we failed to find any babysitter who lives near to our office or at least on our way from home to the office. i want you to stay as close to me as possible coz i wanna breastfeed you during lunch hour, everyweekday. then i come out with so-called breastfeeding schedule once i go back to work (other than your own demand):-

first feeding - 4.am - when we wake up for Subuh.
(in between if you request).
7.am - before go to work.
12.pm - lunch hour.
4.30pm - after come back from office.
(in between depend on your demand).
last feeding - 12.am - before go to bed.

i hope:-
-our maid is a good one.
-my boss ain't fussy and understand needs of a bf mom.
-you love ebm as you love direct feeding.
-i have time to prepare and achieve my target when we're home and i start working.
-i can go back to structural engineering line.
-everything works as planned.

and....

Almost 2 Month

pipi merah kene geget nyamuk

phew, i hope this new phase (2 MO) will end the agony endured by the blackside of my mental, punched by your unstoppable-cry-as-long-as-i-don't-put-you-in-my-arm. but owh, at the whiteside (which is a lot greater!) i really don't mind (cos i'm the one who called you to come to the world as my son, it's not your decision at the first place). but bear in mind that we'd been quarantined since you cried non-stop in public made nobody want to hold you. by default i am the one who has to bring you away :)

you're gonna have your 2nd follow up and jabs next week. i can't wait to witness how much weight you gain after a month :) i don't know bout other mothers but i am really obsess about your weight gain. it's a pleasure and i take it as a compliment (perasan) when somebody says that you're bigger than your age :D and you know, because of that, i have a close-end answer when anyone asks about "xkasik makan ke? nasi ke nestum ke, pisang ke?". my answer would be "minum susu mak dia pun dah besar ni, xpayahla bagi2 makan kang xlarat nak kendong" :D soooo niceee!!! actually, i don't wanna give them a free lecture about feeding an exclusively breastfeed baby. and if you are thinner, they might think that you got not enough food and paksa me to give you solids. as for me, i wanna breastfeed you exclusively, at least for 6 month and if i could do more than that, i would :)

Pak Uda panggil saya 'Budak Gemuk'. mana ada saya gemuk, saya cuma tough aje!

i guess so, your first month was the most unstable part, for both you and i. with a new you who didn't know me much, and this old young Mommy who still learned to know her son, there's lots of things left unsolved. however, after that phase passed, i feel so relieved. you now recognize me as your Mommy and you started to learn about persons around you. you smile to them when they call you and you smile to Mommy too! but only if i speak English with you.

this one i really don't understand OK! all this while i talk to you in Kelantanese, i called you to smile but you didn't smile, and look blur everytime i talk to you (ignore the natural blurness of a 1-month old baby). but the other night i talk to you in English. know what.. you responded! and you talk to me back in your language! oh God... what had happen to my son. then i started to talk to you in English.. phew~ and you like the song 'eternal flame', that i sing everynite before sleep. you can sleep with the song! bertuah betul!

you really like bathing time with Mommy. even if you're crying out so loud but when i'm putting you in your tub (not a tub actually, it's Mak Tok's small round basin. we bought you a tab and left it at our Miri house), you'll suddenly calm. and smile. hehe. tp tak laratla everytime nangeh nak kene mandikan pulak. plus, your mandi process is not simple. i have to boil the water since we dont have heater and you don't like cool water! have to add the water with 'air tawar', lime and lactacyd. then only you can have your kebush2 session. i did everything myself since you were 2 weeks old :)

bestnya mandi dengan Mommy... alamak sexynye nampak pushat!

brr... sejuuukkkk

and at this age, i like to put you on your tummy and laugh out loud to see your cute actions. you can move your body forward 2-3 inches. hehe. tummy timeee!!! thing you don't like the most :D

warm up sebelum tummy time.

sayaa sediaaaa....!!!

alamak, apsal tak begerak pon!

tension!!!

fuhh.. akhirnya. berjaya juga sampai ke garis penamat!

the maternity leave has come to the end. consume up my annual leave & put my unpaid leave application on my boss's table (Abiy did actually). hopefully he has a heart to approve my leave, or i'll go to work carrying my baby!

8 Fakta Rawak Tentang Hafiy

Mami ni nak menjawab tag Auntie Nora. dah berkurun ni hehe. cerita pasal Hafiy la.

1. Hafiy kuar genap seminggu before edd, tepat jam 12.01am.
mami amik masa lama jugak nak terima hakikat ni pasal Mami nak Hafiy lahir 13hb. huhu. takpela, yg penting Hafiy sihat, bijak lagi hensem :)

tak clear la....

sebab tu org cakap Hafiy suka berjaga malam, tido siang. hmm.. kadang2 la... tp bab2 tido ni Mami rasa Hafiy terbawak2 lagi perangai masa dalam perut Mami. ada sehari Hafiy tido 90% je, ada sehari Hafiy bangun 90%. (malam td Hafiy bgn dr kol 12 sampai dkt kol 5 baru tido). bawak2 la tido time malam nak oii...

2. Hafiy dah berak dalam perut Mami sebelum Hafiy keluar.
masa ketuban Mami pecah atas katil kat labor room tu, misi cakap air kaler kuning2 sket, light meconium, maknanya Hafiy dah berak dah. meconium tu taik Hafiy yg dah ada masa dalam perut Mami lagi. masa tu tau, Mami rasa kalo la Dr cakap nak c-sec, Mami nak setuju je.. tak tahan sakit!

kalo baby berak dalam perut ni, high risk kot2 baby tertelan taik sendiri. bole menyebabkan kerosakan otak. uuuuu~ pakcik Hafiy, Adam Danish tu pun dlu berak dalam perut, terus Mama dia kena emegency c-sec takut Adam termakan taik sendiri. alhamdulillah, dah besar pun mamat tu skg. alhamdulillah, Mami bole deliver Hafiy normally.

3. Tok Chik, Mak Tok & Nye bersama Mami dalam labor room.
Abiy takde, so Tok Chik ngan Mak Tok temankan Mami. Nye pun ada tp dia duk kat kerusi jauh sket dari katil. Tok Chik & Mak Tok yg pegang tgn Mami, kasik Mami gentle massage & tenangkan Mami masa tu. Mami dah tak piki dah Abiy takde ke apa ke, duk ingat sakit sangat, nak kasik Hafiy kuar je cepat2. soklan yg salu Mami tanye "lambat lagi ke ni?" huhuhu.

time Mami duk merungut2 sakit tu, Tok Chik la duk pesan2 kat Mami sabar la.. igt Allah, mengucap pe sumer. mulut Mami tak henti2 mengucap, baca doa Nabi Yunus, tahlil tahmid tasbih semua ada la.

4. Doktor sambut Hafiy dengan azan & suck Hafiy atas dada Mami.
bila kepala Hafiy kuar je, Dr. Awang terus azankan Hafiy. alhamdulillah, kalimah pertama anak Mami dengar di muka bumi ni. mula2 kuar Hafiy diam je. Mami tanye nruse, naper baby saya tak nangis? huhu. nurse wat xtau je. pastu nurse letak Hafiy atas dada Mami sambil derang suck air dalam idung & mulut Hafiy. pastu la baru Hafiy menunjukkan belang. satu level tu bingit ngan teriak Hafiy je.

mula2 Mami tengok rambut Hafiy, lebat :) Hafiy biru sangat, oksigen lom sampai lagi ke seluruh anggota badan Hafiy. Mami letak jari Mami kat jari2 Hafiy, Hafiy genggam tangan Mami :) melekat abis darah2 kat tangan Mami.

sayangnya xde gambar utk abadikan detik2 tu. Abiy takde, takde orang nak jadi jurugambarnye. huhu.

5. Tok Ayah azan & qamatkan Hafiy.
sian Abiy, terlepas chance nak azan & qamatkan anak sulung dia..

6. Hafiy angkat kepala masa umur 2 hari.
time tu Tok Ma tgh riba Hafiy. tiba2 Hafiy angkat kepala. Tok Ma kata budak zaman dulu seminggu dua, apa pun tak tau lagi. Hafiy budak zaman moden, bukan budak zaman dulu kan hehe.

skg ni Hafiy dah bole angkat dada kalo tummy time.

7. Hafiy diakikahkan masa umur 14 hari.

CW: Abiy, TokSu Manaf, Tok Bah, Pakcik Ih & Ayah Chik tengah menodai mengerjakan kambing akikah Hafiy.

Hafiy tido je masa kepala Hafiy dibalun oleh atok2.

Mami ngan Abiy memang nak selesaikan urusan akikah Hafiy cepat2. nak buat within the first 7 days, bulan puasa, hari ke-7, raya plak. so kitorang decide utk akikahkan Hafiy pada hari ke-14. tp cukur jambul & belah mulut Hafiy dah buat masa hari ke-6. Abiy, Tok Ayah & Mak Tok bawak Hafiy pegi masjid utk disetelkan oleh Pak Imam.

before akikah tu Abiy risau kot lauk tak habis, pasal 2 ekor kambing kan. Mami kata.. 'ala Abiy ini kampung la. konfem habisnye... tah2 tak cukup'. hehe, betul pun cakap Mami, sampai kene topap ngan ayam pulak. biasala kat kampung kan.. belanja pun murah. masak sendiri kan. dengan kambings ngan kenduri Mami belanja dalam rm1,500.00 je.

kitorang akikah simple je kat Kelantan ni. orang2 laki buat keliling, selawat, bawak Hafiy keliling orang2 tu utk kasik derang sentuh kepala, org tua cakap kasik berkat kat baby. pastu makan.

8. Hafiy budak ditrain yg gain maximum weight.
Mami ada baca satu artikel, katanya baby yg ditrain minum masa lapar je akan mengalami pertumbuhan fizikal yg terbantut berbanding baby yang selalu dioffer susu. macam tak leh pakai la teori tu. Mami train Hafiy minum time lapar je, tapi naik 1.7kg utk 1st month. dari 3.3kg jadi 5kg.. terbantut lagi ke camtu? kalo tak terbantut xtaula besar mana anak Mami ni. hwa3x.

tp skg ni Mami ada jugak offer, kadang2 paksa minum (tp Hafiy xmo la kalo dah kenyang) pasal nak tembamkan Hafiy lagi. huhu. naper ek, Mami salu rasa Hafiy xnaik2 je beratnya. teruk la saiko Mami ni. jgn obese sudah anakku!

nak tag sapa ya? sapa2 je la yg rasa belum wat lagi & nak buat ek :)

Be A Good Boy

Mami write ni supaya bila Hafiy besar esok & ada anak, if anak Hafiy peel comel (kata org Kelate) Hafiy paham2 sendiri la yek...

selama sebulan setengah ni... Hafiy bole dikatakan tiap2 minggu or 2-3 hari sekali berubah perangai. bila orang tanye Mami "Hafiy cemana hari ni?" katala Mami cakap "ntahla, kurang tido pulak" mesti derang cakap "nak beralih bulan le tu.." hehehe. dulu Mami ingat beralih bulan tu bila nak masuk sebulan, nak masuk 2 bulan... baby akan wat perangai. tp Hafiy.. takkan tiap2 hari beralih bulan kot. baru sebulan je yg dialih, ni macam beralih hari je pulak. ke, Mami yg xfaham term beralih bulan?

masa Hafiy newborn, ramai orang datang visit Hafiy. masa tu musim raya, ramaila kawan2 Mami balik kampung. bole kata hari2 ada je org dtg tengok Hafiy. yg bestnya Hafiy ni, time orang ramai ada, Hafiy tidooo je. kalo orang ramai tu duk dari pagi sampai ke petang, selama itu la Hafiy tido xbangun2. tapi.. bila je orang ramai2 tu say good-bye.. hehehe. habisla sumer perasaan dilepaskan. pelik betul la. macam tau je ada orang ke xde orang ke.

bila Hafiy dah besar sikit pun macam tu. cuma kadang2 Hafiy tak tido. tp Hafiy duk diam2 je, main sorang2. sumorang cakap "baiknye budak ni..." hehehe. turun je derang tu... adeh, ilang macho selama ni.

bila Hafiy asik duk melalak je, riso jugak Mami dan atok2 Hafiy. ye la, kot2 sakit ke, kene gigit semut ke, apa ke. tp bila Mami angkat je Hafiy diam. Nye cakap, kalo budak sakit, angkat pun dia nangis, ni, angkat je diam... bukan sakit ni tapi 'peel comel'. huhu. pastu pandai pulak.. dah angkat tu kene hayun2 pulak. pastu kena jalan2 pulak. phew~ mujurla masa kecik2 dulu Abiy ada. Mami pesan kat Hafiy, pas ni jgn macam ni dah tau, Abiy balik Miri xde orang dah nak layan Hafiy mcm tu. tapi... hehehe.

Mami tak tau la, adakah ini reflection daripada Mami kecik (bila Mami komen kat makcik2 Mami pasal Hafiy suka melalak, derang cakap "kami dulu lg dasat, ini kire dah OK dah" huhu) ataupun apa sebenarnya... dari dalam pantang sampai la sekarang, Hafiy macam tu jugak. orang tua cakap, lepas upacara 'pelepas' tu, baby dah tak buat perangai dah. hehe, nampak macam xde kesan pun.

Mami tak tau la samada Mami yg manja sgt atau Mami tak reti handle baby atau tak reti manage masa atau apa atau apa. kadang2 bila Mami citer kat kawan2 Mami yg ada baby jugak pasal Mami xsempat nak mandipun bila tinggal berdua ngan Hafiy, derang macam cynical sket. kecik jugak ati Mami. tp Mami respek sgt la kawan2 Mami yg bleh handle baby yg meragam dari dalam pantang secara berseorangan (without hubby, mom, sibling, helper, etc) & bole wat segala kerja rumah, sedangkan Mami nak mandi, nak minum, nak makan pun terkejar2. ni Mami online pun sebelah tangan sambil hayun buai Hafiy.

Mami tak tau la kenapa Mami tak bole langsung nak tinggal Hafiy. tengah tido pun kalo Mami tinggal, mesti melalak2. itu yg Mami mandi pun, buai mesti duk depan pintu bilik air. makan pun, sambil hayun buai, itu yg Mami kadang belasah je makan apa yg ada. kalo Mak Tok tak sempat masak utk Mami, Mami sempat masak nasi je la pakai rice cooker, lauk2 sumer mmg jgn harapla. nak solat apetah lagi, Mami plak tak reti nak solat sambil dokong Hafiy... jadinye nak cepat2 aje la. Mami ada beli carrier utk Mami usung Hafiy sekali kalo nk masak ke makan ke tp sebab xtry masa beli tu, langsung tak bole pakai. maka terpaksalah Mami berlari2 even if dalam pantang pun masa tu. Mami try gak letak kain kat Hafiy tp xjadi pun. hehe. tau ek bukan Mami tu...

nak tau tak, komen orang2 tua pasal Hafiy? ehehe...

"ni yg jaganya nak kencing pun tak sempat ni"
"kena beli buai yg letrik tu"
"maunye babysitter mintak extra charge ni jaga budak ni"
"orangnye garang..."
"bdk ni takde keje lain la.. ukk ekk ukk ekk aje kejenye"
dan lain2.

hehe. cukuplah setakat itu.

tp yg wat Mami bangga, senang nak train Hafiy. cuma bab suka melalak & tak bole duk sorang2 tu belum pass lagi la. bab nyonyot, Mami bole kasi A la. Hafiy skg tak nyonyot2, kenyang je, alhamdulillah... kecuali time nak tido, mmg Mami kasik Hafiy nyonyot sampai penat, pastu bole tido ngan mudah. Hafiy pun even if duk dalam buai tp dah bole tido kalo tak berbuai walaupun not all the time. tp OKla, nama pun training kan. yg paling best, Hafiy tak melalak kalo lapar, unless kalo Mami lambat sangat. mcm2 dulu2 la.. kalo lapa Hafiy masukkan tgn dalam mulut or muncung2kan mulut ke kiri kanan. and ada satu bunyi yg indicate Hafiy tgh lapa. hehe. cute sgt bunyi tu. ah..ah...ah... cemana ntah. hehe.

tp serius, sikit pun Mami tak rasa susah. walaupun orang lain lenguh tangan duk dokong Hafiy tp Mami tak rasa pun. semuanya sebab Mami sayaaaaang sangat kat Hafiy. saban waktu solat, Mami selalu doa "Ya Allah, kalaulah perangai melalak2 ni memberi kebaikan kepada Hafiy, jadikanlah diriku tabah & redha dengan keadaannya". ntahla, Mami segan nak mintak supaya Allah stopkan perangai Hafiy tu. Mami anggap tu anugerah Allah utk Mami. yela, sebelum ni Mami liat benar nk bgn solat malam, skg ni tiap2 malam Mami bangun dgn Hafiy. bukankah ibu yg berjaga malam menjaga anak tu besar pahalanya. cuma kadang2 bila Mami penat sgt, lepas Isyak Mami doa supaya Allah berikan Hafiy tido yg lena malam tu & before tido Mami pesan kat Hafiy tido lena2 ye sebab Mami penat sangat. Hafiy bgn malam bukan setakat nak susu, nak kena dokong, nak kena hayun...

skg ni Pak Su cuti sekolah, bole la Mami mandi lama2. siap pakai lulur tu. hahak. ye la, sebulan Mami mandi sabun gitu2 je tau. kadang tak sempat sabun pun! Mami harap, dah nak masuk 2 bulan ni, Hafiy kurangkan sikitlah kemanjaan Hafiy yg agak terlebih tu ye. nanti Mami nak bawak Hafiy jalan2, nak jumpe Aunty Babe, Aunty Leeds, etc... tak machola melalak2 je, tau. hehe.

ha... pastu kalo besok2 anak Hafiy pun suka melalak, jgn plak rasa tertekan ke apa ke. hehe. ke mana tumpahnye kuah....

ala..ala..ala.. shayang Mami.. shayang Mami...

Thank You Allah

budak merah yg sgt kecik dan fragile kat atas tu skg dah jadi tembam macam kat bawah. tak sangka sungguh, cepatnya masa berlalu. rindu lagi nak tengok Hafiy masa kecik2 dulu. sekarang Hafiy dah besar dan berat! minum susu Mami ya...!

didn't Mommy tell you that i was on a high pethadine dosage during labor & birth? i was 9 cm that time but the doctor add the drug dosage with an intention to make me fall asleep while waiting for 10 cm, which he suspected to be early in the morning (it was almost 11pm). oh my English is crap! maka disebabkan itu Mami hanya sedar masa struggle nak keluarkan Hafiy & i wasn't concious masa placenta keluar, masa doctor bersihkan darah beku, masa jahit or whatever. sedar2 je dah ditinggalkan seorang diri dalam labor room, about 4am.

Mami sedih sebab Mami xdapat susukan Hafiy masa the first 30minutes. Mami teringat kata kawan2 Mami, kalo tak susukan baby masa 30 minit awal tu mmg akan gagal utk fully breastfeed. sedih OK! punya la Mami berazam nak breastfeed full sampai 2 tahun, tiba2 fail macam tu je sebab Mami pengsan. sia2 je la Mami cari baby friendly hospital kononnya... novice sungguh kan Mami.

bila nurse bawa Hafiy jumpa Mami, Hafiy taknak nyusu ngan Mami. ye la... dah kenyang kene jamu. sekali lagi Mami jadi takut, sebab nurse2 tu jamu Hafiy dengan botol. kawan2 Mami kata kalo awal2 dah pekena teat plastik tu susah la nak enjoy teat ori. aduh masa tu rasa nak ketuk2 je nurse tu. dahla derang tak ajar pun Mami cara2 nak breastfeed, padahal Mami dah request.

hehe. itulah pengalaman pertama Mami yg novis.

balik rumah, after 18 hours baru Mami dapat menyusu Hafiy. lama gila! masa tu macam2 la ketakutan Mami, takut supply tak ada la, takut Hafiy kuning la, takut Hafiy tak pandai isap la, takut Hafiy ketagih teat plastik la.. etc. tp Mami try positif je la. Mami bgtau Hafiy "kita xde susu lain ni, ada susu Mami je tau". suprisingly, Hafiy sangat pandai suck! alhamdulillah... Hafiy pun takde meragam2 sepanjang 2-3 hari tu. lega hati Mami. bukan ape, dr experience org lain, takut ada je nanti yg pandai2 suh Mami kasik susu tin. dan hari ke-4, susu Mami mula bengkak..

akhirnya selepas sebulan setengah Hafiy lahir, makanan Hafiy hanyalah susu Mami (abaikan susu formula yg nurse suap masa awal2 Hafiy lahir tu). alhamdulillah Hafiy tak jaundice walaupun lambat dapat susu Mami & asik tidoooo je. org sumer pakat risau Hafiy jaundis sal asik tido sampai suh Mami kejut Hafiy bgn minum tp Hafiy takmo. bagus anak Mami ni. =)

Mami rasa, yang paling utama utk menyusu, adalah keinginan dan keazaman. walaupun dpt susukan for the first 30minutes tp kalau takde keazaman, tentu jarang yg dpt teruskan fully breastfeed. & Hafiy cuma dpt menyusu Mami dalam masa 1st 18hours je tp alhamdulillah, so far kita tak ada problem & Mami harap everything akan goes smooth utk tempoh 2 tahun lagi. ameen.

baby friendly hospital itu cuma option. kalo tak dapat bersalin kat baby friendly hospital pun takde masalah utk breastfeeding. insya-Allah.

Post-Natal

sekadar gambar hiasan

aduh, Mami punya sepear kederaer tu dah kena buang la. xsempat amik gambarnya, igt nak tunjuk kat aunty2 Hafiy ni. rasanya dalam bahasa standard dipanggil SEPANG KEDERANG. Tok Ayah beli kat kedai herba cina. ia adalah 2 jenis kayu, kayu sepang & kayu kederang. rasanya dia punya batang sebesar batang anak pokok, dibelah pastu diresbus dalam air bersama buah manjakani. sepang kederang tu utk pulihkan luka dalam. hehe, baru tau ni. menjakani tuk utk ketatkan mana2 yg longgar. rasa airnya kelat sikit. biasa Mami minum sehari 1.5liter, sebotol air mineral besar tu.

selain dari air rebusan sepang kederang+manjakani tu Mami x amik apa2 ubat herba/ubat tradisional. Mami ada beli ubat periuk tp minum sekali je. Mami malas nak rebus. hehehe. set bersalin pun Mami tak amik apa2. Mami ada beli satu tapi wat pameran je.

utk post-natal Mami just continue makan supplement yg Mami amik masa preggy macam:

B-complex : utk tukarkan gula kepada energy.
Vitamin C : utk pulihkan kesegahan sel.
Kalsium : utk kekuatan & tumbesaran tulang.
Iron : utk tambah darah.
DHA&EPA : utk pekembangan otak.

lagi, Mami tambah beberapa supplement utk post-natal ni:

Vitamin E : utk pulihkan luka2 dalam & luar.
Alfalfa : utk pulihkan urat.
Zinc : utk elakkan infection & pulihkan luka.

yg paling best bila Mami kena paksa telan anak ikan haruan hidup2. yuck! kecik2 je sebesar bijik selasih & bergerak2! mcm berudu kecik! geli sangat. Mami suruh Mak Tok, Tok Ayah & Pak Su minum dulu air yg berisi anak2 ikan tu, lepas tu baru turn Mami. Mami telan sambil pejam mata. hehe. lepas tu, sehari Mami rasa ada benda begerak2 dalam perut Mami (saiko sungguh). gelinya! tak sanggup dah nak telan lagi.

Mami tak amik set2 bersalin tu sebab Mami takut effect kat susu Mami pulak. even tho orang kata tak apa tp since Mami rasa supplement yg Mami amik tu dah OK, Mami yakin dgn tu je. utk pemulihan lain mcm pengetatan ke apa2 tu Mami rasa lepas ni la kot. buat masa ni yg penting ialah kesihatan Hafiy sebab sistem badan Hafiy pun belum matang lagi. bg Mami yg penting, balance diet.

Mami baru beli bengkung baru, murah punya kat Myd*n. hehe. malas la beli mahal2. tgk nanti cemana. kalo xkurang jugak kemuncetan perut Mami ni baru Mami cari yang branded lagi mahal sikit.

Yippie!!! Abis Pantang!

today is our last day of confinement. yippie! lucky we have only 40 days of pantang, i can't add another 4 days in my diary... not anymore! (plus, Abiy's coming here next Sunday!).

i didn't undergo a strict pantang, plus, my parents both work at hospital and we're left alone for the whole day. but still, there's some do's & dont's i obeyed. yg penting, no oily, windy & itchy food. & xbole tambah nasi, nanti buncit. macam kerap xpe. hehe.

1st & 2nd Week:
1. bengkung with garam kunyit for 3 days & the rest with minyak halia
2. wear socks
3. mandi air teresat (daun2 kayu)
4. mkn ikan bakar
5. minum air sepear kederaer + manjakani
6. xbole keluar rumah (out for postnatal follow up @PSH)

3rd Week:
1. cannot wear bengkung anymore.. sudah longgar!
2. urut & tungku
3. mandi air teresat
4. xbole keluar rumah (out to cyber cafe to submit my MYPR - $#%#@$@$)

4th Week & the rest:
1. xbole keluar rumah (out for Hafiy's 1st month follow up)

39th Day
we had our 'pelepas' ceremony. tak tau non-Kelantan ckp ape. Mami explain ke Abiy pun cakap "kami ada upacara habis pantang" huhu. hm... but unfortunately i dont have any pic from the event, nobody to snap us laaa!

the ceremony started after Zuhur. TokSu Manaf, Man of Ceremony suruh Mami duduk berlunjur sambil pegang Hafiy. Hafiy pulak duk melalak, laparla tu dr pagi xmo minum. Mami kasikla Hafiy nenen sambil TokSu Manaf duk baca2 ayat2 utk upecare tu. ayat ape? ayat Quran lah :) dia baca sambil tiup2 bealkang Mami & usap2 kepala Hafiy. Mak Tok siap pesan suh TokSu Manaf baca2 sket so that Hafiy dah tak melalak malam2. TokSu Manaf terer bab2 ni. Pak Su dulu duk melalak2, lepas kna tiup dgn dia terus aman... Hafiy? heh, kita tgkla mlm kang.

oyek, arini jgk parcel from Russia sampai... say thanks to Aunty Sarah!

baju tuk Hafiy & coklat tuk Mami. hehe. cutekan baju Hafiy? Mak Tok kata kena pakai terus jgn simpan2, nt Hafiy cepat besar dah xpadan :p coklat tu Mami nak tunggu Abiy sampai Ahad ni br nak try sama2.

blk ke upacara tu... sambil2 duk tiup Mami & Hafiy tu, TokSu Manaf duk tiup gak sejag air putih & sepiring garam. dia suh Mami & Hafiy minum sikit air tu & lebihnya wat campur ngan air mandi. garam tu pulak, bawak balik ke Miri & campur ngan garam masak Mami. purpose dia? series Mami tak tahu. ikut je la orang tua suruh... lagipun Mami tak nampak sebarang unsur khurafat pun.

lepas upacara pelepas tu, pakcik2 tu buat solat hajat & makan2. hehe. tp Mami bole makan ayam goreng jer... alahai terliur tgk gulai keladi & sira labu.. wuhuhuhu~ 2 hari ni Mami kene telan air daun 'tapak sulaiman' (?-whatever its name la) & daun senduduk putih. campur kunyit hidup & blend. mujurlah Mami penggemar ubat2an herba ni, so the yuck rasa tu, no problemlah!

spas tu Mami susukan Hafiy nak suh Hafiy tido, tapi end up Mami yg tido. huhu. Hafiy duk tekelip2 sampai la Tok Chik datang angkat Hafiy bawak keluar.

besarnye.. idung ke serombong kapal tu?

skg kita dah nak abis pantang (kira dah abisla, arini je pon kan?), hopefully Hafiy dah tak melalak lg malam2, macam malam tadi.. Ya Rabbi... sampai Mami ilang punca cemana nak soothe kan Hafiy. dokong takmo, peluk takmo, hayun takmo, bagi nenen takmo, dodoi takmo... last2 Hafiy penat & senyap sendiri. ayyoyo... padahal dah kene tiup dah siang tadi!

skg ni.. Hafiy dah kurang la minum botol... tak tau la dah tak suka sgt ke, dah kenyang dah. sikit pulak Hafiy minum. minum ngan Mami pun jarang jugak. asik nak mengamuk je.. sambil2 minum tu melalak2 sampai Mami kene stop takut Hafiy tersedak plak. hai... ni nak Mami risau Hafiy underweight lagi ke... ayoyooo!

sedapnya minum susu Mami dalam botol..

alahai, ciputnya Hafiy minum... banyak ni besanya Mami tepaksa dump je la, sal another batch will come, dah obsolete yg ini. huhuhu.

cemanapun, Mami enjoi pantang bersama Hafiy. siang2 Hafiy xde wat perangai sangat. pagi2 Hafiy bangun, Mami mandikan pastu tidokan balik. tp.. Hafiy kadang2 loyar jugak. kalo Hafiy mcm rengek2 time Mami nak mandikan, Mami cakap "kita mandi dulu, pas mandi kang Mami upah susu ye"... lepas je mandi, xsempat lap xsempat apa, Hafiy dah claim susu! pastu kalo Mami cakap "..pas mandi, pakai baju kang Mami upah susu ye"... lepas je pakai baju, smpat pakai suar Hafiy dah claim susu. adeh. ape daaa... kecik2 dah pandai yek.

pas beranakkan Hafiy ni, ada la beberapa 'side effect' ke Mami ni. huhu.

lepas bersalin:
1. sembelits - oh my... tidak sanggup hadapinya lg. siap Mami cry dlm toilet tau!
2. ketidakstabilan emosi (postpartum depression/baby blues) - masa very first days tu almost everynight Mami nangis without reason.
3. bigger boops - u yeah.. macam Pamela Anderson you!
4. perut muncit & berlipats
5. cracked nipples
6. bontot jatuh
7. bigger thigh

current:
1. perut muncit lagi. isk isk isk... dahla Mami cannot pakai bengkung dah.. longgar sudah! keciknye Mami Hafiy nih.
2. sakit urat belakang - duk kendong Hafiy especially time nyusu. nyesal xbeli nursing pillow.
3. cracked aeroela (?)

however, semua tu dah tak menjadi hal skg. yang penting, Hafiy dah selamat lahir dengan comel sempurna & bertambah2 sihatnya dari sehari ke sehari. arapnye after pantang ni (org Kelantan cakap, lepas 40) Hafiy dah tak melalak tahpape malam2 ye.. igt Mami cakap.. malam time tuk tido tau!

oh iye, sebagai seorang yg mementingkan self satisfaction, akan Mami usahakan on perut muncit & strech marks ni :)

besaunye kaki sape ni...

1 Month Follow Up

dulu, orang bgtau Mami, baby boy sgt kuat menyusu.. setiap kali bangun, setiap kali tu la nak susu. bila Hafiy lahir, Hafiy tak kuat nyusu pun. kadang2 Mami yg offerkan susu tapi ada time2 Hafiy taknak. risau jgk Mami, ape tak normal ke anak Mami ni. tak cukup susu ke, etc. Mami bgtau Abiy, Mami heran naper Hafiy xmacam boy lain yg kuat nyusu. Abiy kata, mmg mcm tu la instint sorang Mak, salu risau yg bukan2. pastu, asal anak nangis je igt nak susu, asal anak bangun je, kasik susu, tu yg anak suka bergayut. baby mana reti nak reject. Mami fikir, betul juga...

sebenarnya dari 1st time Mami susukan Hafiy Mami dah disiplinkan Hafiy, kalo dah kenyang, stop, jangan gayut2. Mami tengok mata dah pejam.. hisap pun slow, Mami tarik mulut Hafiy pelan2. kalo Hafiy gigit kuat lagi, maknanya Hafiy tgh mamam. kalo Hafiy tak gigit kuat, tgh menyoyot la tu. Abiy kata, jangan suka sgt offer susu kalo Hafiy nangis, check dulu diaper Hafiy, tgk dulu position Hafiy kot Hafiy lenguh ke, try tepuk2 dulu, kalo semua tak jalan baru kasik susu. ada juga time2 yg Mami jadi risau Hafiy underweight sal xkuat nyusu ke tapi nenek2 yg datang semua cakap Hafiy semangat. lega sikit hati Mami.

sekarang pun Hafiy takde asik nak susu je. malam2 b4 tido Mami kenyangkan Hafiy baru tidokan. takdela Hafiy bgn malam2 nak susu ke apa. biasa kalo Hafiy jaga tgh malam Mami tepuk2 je Hafiy tido balik. kadang2 je Hafiy nak nyonyot..kasik can la... [time Abiy takde bole la, hehe]. tp Hafiy macam biasa la, kalo nyusu Mami, asik nak tido je. syok sangat kot. tu yg Mami kasik je EBM kat Hafiy walaupun kadang2 Hafiy macam tak suka. tapi anak Mami ni minum botol baru habis!

lalu, Mami buat kesimpulan, baby boy takdela teruk sangat menyusu sampai maknye tak bole buat apa, cuma derang suka bergayut. maknye kena pandai tengok baby tu sebenarnya tengah minum ke tengah nyonyot. mak2 baby boy kena disiplinkan baby, minum time lapar je. kalo tak lapa, jangan duk bergayut nanti maknye tak bole nak buat apa. kes Hafiy pula, kalo Hafiy bangun, Mami tak bole buat apa pasal Hafiy nak berteman je. kalo tinggal sorang2 mula la... melalak sampai merah2 muka. Mami tak jumpa lagi solutution yg satu ni. nak kena beli mainan gantung2 agaknye. oh ye, Mami rasa ada bukti baby boy sebenarnya suka bergayut je. cuba tengok Hafiy ni...

...tembam kan saya?

masa ni Mami bwk Hafiy pegi jumpa Doktor Mazidah, paed kat PSH utk follow up sebulan. Abiy takde, so Hafiy pegi ngan Mami, Tok Ayah, Mak Tok, Pak Su & Pak De Limi. Mami ingat nak letak Hafiy dalam carseat tp sebab xmuat, Hafiy duk riba Mak Tok je la.

Hafiy mula2 masuk kereta.


kereta gerak je, Hafiy pun belayar jugak.

kat sini ikut schedule baru, 2 bulan baru kena inject. bulan depan kene pegi inject la Hafiy :) time check sebulan, doktor chek tinggi, berat & fizikal Hafiy je.

weight: 5kg (birth 3.3kg) - berat macam guni beras yg Abiy salu beli.
height: 56cm (birth 54cm)

Hafiy kena check dgn Doktor Mazidah. Doktor cakap Hafiy good, sangat sihat!

lega rasa Mami. tak sangka betul, Hafiy yang tak setiap masa nak menyusu dapat gain weight yg sangat sihat. (ataukah susu Mami byk sgt nutrien? minum sikit je kenyang lama dan bole jadi gomok?)

balik dari hospital tu kita pegi KBMall, open house umah Dr. Nik (yg Hafiy nangis2 nak susu depan2 orang tu.. EBM dah habis, kena la Mami susukan Hafiy depan2 orang), DZ Smart & terus balik rumah! kat KBMall & DZ Smart Hafiy duk tido je. lenguh Mami dokong. dahle berat!

tp ada satu perkara yg Mami terkilankan. before Hafiy lahir, doktor Awang bgtau Mami & Abiy, ball Hafiy besar sebab ada air. dia cakap, nanti akan hilang sendiri. bila Hafiy lahir, mmg betul ball Hafiy sangat besar. orang2 tua yg datang tengok Hafiy suruh Mami tuam dengan macam2 la. beras la, pasir la, kelapa la...

bila Mami refer ke Doktor Mazidah, dia cakap "hey, jangan tuam! bahaya tu, nanti tak bole pregnant wife dia esok!" isk3x.. doktor Mazidah cakap, kalo tuam ball Hafiy tu, bole rosakkan kilang sperm Hafiy. bole jadi lelaki2 yg mand*l sekarang ni, akibat dari mak bapak derang duk tuam ball masa kecik2 dulu la. so jangan tuam ball baby! Mami terkejut sangat, rasa bersalah sangat2 kat Hafiy. tp Mami tak pernah tuamkan pun, nasib baik la doktor Mazidah bgtau. kalo tak, tak bercucu la Mami. huhu. sekarang kalo ada sesapa suruh Mami wat benda tu lagi, Mami cakap, "tak bole, doktor pakar kata nanti rosak kilang benih dia" :)

Hafiy ngan Pak Su & Mak Tok

"Abiy tau tak, masa bawak saya pegi spital tu Mami pakai jeans tau! Mami dah kurus! Mami seronok la tu, seminggu pas lahirkan saya dia dah turun 7kg, lebih 1kg je dari berat asal dia. sepanjang pregnantkan saya Mami naik 8kg. skg Mami nak kurus lagi. dia cakap kalo dokong saya nak suh nampak macam dokong adik. tak sedar diri kan Mami tu Abiy"