Mommy's Diary : Caring A Premature Baby - Day 1

Mommy reached NICU MYY GH at 9++ am. Macam biasa, the Paed gave us briefing about Fahry's condition. Mulanya memang Mommy down sebab dia kata Fahry ada high risk utk dpt jangkita thru tulang kaki yang terdedah tu. Diorang cuma buat dressing saja sementara tunggu Fahry cukup besar untuk di-operate. Doa kami semoga Fahry terlepas dari risiko yang boleh menggugatnya, ameen.

Mami diberi bilik share dengan sorang ibu dari Limbang. Rupanya anak dia juga ada masalah, jantung berlubang. Dan sebulan lebih berat badan tak naik2.

Lepas salin baju, Mami terus pam susu untuk Fahry. Fahry duk dalam inkubator, tak dapat direct feeding, kene pakai tiub terus ke dalam perut. Hari mula2 ni Fahry cuma minum 3ml susu.

Mula2 Mami akan sedut keluar lebihan susu & jus gastrik dlm perut Fahry via feeding tube tu dgn syringe. Hasil keluaran direkod, kemudian Mami guna syringe lain untuk alirkan susu ke perut Fahry. Mami cuak2 berani nak buat, mula2 kena panggil nurse teman sebab Mami tak konfiden.

Nurse suruh Mami bersihkan Fahry, tuka lampin.. tp Mami tak konfiden. Nurse jugak yg kena buat. Mami takut menyakitkan Fahry, tapi nurse buat selambabadak je. Fahry pulak nangis2 everytime nurse tukarkan lampin. Syahdu hati Mami.. Suara Fahry kuat sampai bole dengar dari pintu masuk. Nyaring je tak padan kecik.

Malam tu Mami cuba salinkan Fahry dgn support Abiy. Alhamdulillah Fahry tak nangis. Nak sentuhan tangan Mami ya?

Fahry selalu nangis2 tapi bila Mami belai, gosok2, cakap2.. baru diam. Kadang2 sampai tertidur. Sayang anak Mami ni.. Cepat besar ye sayang..

Nurse2 kata Fahry aktif sangat. Kadang2 sampai terjatuh dari alas tidur lah, teperosok di celah inkubator lah.. tiub2, wayar2 kat badan dah berapa kali Fahry cabut. Fahry.. Fahry.. baru 2 hari umur kamu ni.

Fahry kuat semangat ya.. Minum banyak2 susu Mami. sebab Fahry minum 3 jam sekali, Mami akan pam setiap 3 jam & terus beri pada Fahry. Setiap pukul 6, 9, 12, 3.. day or nite Mami kena bangun pam dan beri pada Fahry. Time ni Mami rasa nak cakap pada mak2 yang rasa dia takde susu lepas bersalin tu.. Cuba lahirkan anak premature.. Dia tak dapat direct feeding.. Kena exclusive expresing je, stimulation dari pam je. Dari hari pertama dah kena susukan, kalau tak ada susu, ape nak bagi dia makan? Kat hosp ni, nurse cakap "kalau u tak hantar susu, baby you tak makan ape2 lah". Macamana?

Alhamdulillah susu Mami makin OK. Dari peristiwa direject 2 kali tu, sekarang melebih2 dah. Fahry pun seronok menyusu walaupun tak merasa dgn lidah. Mulutnya gerak2 macam menyonyot masa susu flow masuk.

Hari pertama, hari yg penuh emosi..

A Story Behind This Special Boy

Fahry is very special, not because he is premature. it's not merely that. Fahry has something that not everybaby has. Even in this very ward, he's the only boy with such that gift.

Today his paed told us, that Fahry has high risk of infection, but they will do their best to avoid it. But it was enough to make Mommy cried for the whole day. Only after i received a call from Sis N, telling me to be strong since Fahry is 100% depend on Mommy. I had no objection then, cos it's really true. I carried him for 7 months, and our soul will stay intact forever.

Ya Allah please give us strength to go through this. May Fahry safe from any harm that could effect his little body.

However, this boy knows how to entertain Abiy & Mommy. He is a very active boy, I guess he just stop when he's sleeping. his tiny hands always look for something to be pulled! Berapa kali wayar kat tangan tercabut. And the nurses said "baby u aktif sangat, sampai terjatuh-jatuh dari tempat tidur dia". Mommy rasa satu inkubator tu dia dah explore.

Today he developed mild jaundice & the paed put him under phototheraphy. Mommy kena selalu perhati or else Fahry will tarik2 kapas yang tutup mata tu.

Actually Mommy sebak everytime tengok, sentuh, belai Fahry.. Bibirnya kering, kaki kiri macam melecet sikit.. But Mommy dunno what to do.. (could be this a post-partum? Masa Hafiy pun Mommy menangis2 juga).

This time I have to be strong. No pantang2 cos have to stay in the hospital and later ulang alik rumah-hospital. No mother to look after me. No nenek to find tukang urut, etc. Now everything is on Mommy & Abiy alone.

May Allah gives us strength... Di kejauhan ini.

It's A Boy! ...Our Miracle Boy...

alhamdulillah, Mommy has safely delivered a healthy premature baby boy at 28week pregnancy, weigh 1.2kg at Hospital Miri, Sarawak, 5th December 2008, @6.55pm.

Fahry, welcome to our world! my special miracle super child!

Fahry now in the incubator at Wad 12, Hospital Miri. stay healthy and active. Mommy, Abiy & Abang Hafiy so proud with you dear! Fahry is a very strong boy, self-breathing and has very strong voice despite his little body.

Mommy will accompany him in that ward starting tomorrow, to give him my full richness of breast milk.

**THE BIRTH**

the story started last 2 weeks Sunday 23rd November, when i felt pain on my abdomen. i was admitted for UTI and got sick leave for a week. and the following week, the pain was still there, to be exact, it was contraction. and it was getting worse day by day, so on Wednesday 3rd December i was admitted again due to light bleeding.

Dr Aida tried to stop the contraction. macam2 Mami kena.. cucuk, telan, drip, etc. sakit contraction, sakit kene cucuk... but definitely i'll do anything for my boy.

Dr Aida gave us hint about premature birth, and she gave me Dexa jabs to make the baby's lung became mature. after a day in the ward, i felt the contraction slowly gone and Dr Aida also was very positive to see Adik could stay longer.

but on 5th, the blood came out a lot and the pain also became intense. Dr Aida checked and i was 3cm dilated. immediately i was transferred from Colombia Asia to Miri Hospital, for CAMC has no facility for premie.

and it was very fast. even the doctor and nurses keep on telling that i am not going to give birth unless in the middle of the night! but only after 1 hour reaching the hospital, Adik decided to came out. and it was very smooth. he did it all by himself. Mommy just had to 'open the door' for him, hehe.

alhamdulillah. there's Fahry, our miracle baby...

**BREASTFEEDING FAHRY ON THE FIRST DAY**

Fahry is in the incubator so he can't be directly breastfed. on Saturday morning only i managed to collect about 3 cc colostrum for him (it's only for 1 feeding). i tried to collect more but the i failed with Sis Laila's Avent pump, so i tried using my hands but still couldn't collect more than 1 cc. my breastmilk was rejected, 2 TIMES! sungguh sedih. i begged so that they accepted but it was actually too little, only macam kesan-kesan di dinding bekas.

back home, i took rest and pray so that my milk will develop sooner, or else Fahry won't get any food :( (he'll only be supplemented with some kind of 'water'). i asked Hafiy to suck, in order to stimulate my milk for Fahry. Hafiy rejected at first, he shook his head! but Mommy said "Hafiy please.. tolong Adik ya... kesian Adik kalau Hafiy taknak nanti siapa nak stimulatekan susu Mommy untuk Adik..." alhamdulillah finally Hafiy agreed... and it caused Mommy mengerang2 sakit pengecutan rahim akibat tidak dibekali painkiller!

it's OK. for my boys, i rather bear any pain...

please pray for our Lil' Fahry... so that he could come home sooner and join the family!

he's a very special boy... a very special gift for us... thank you Allah.

[Mommy's gonna stay with Fahry in the hospital, until the paed decides when i should come home.. till then, Mommy might not able to update on Fahry's progress, but i'll write it somewhere and put everything here later]

Let's Pray

for Mommy... to have fast recovery..

for Adik... to hold on & be strong..

for Hafiy... to be more independent & good bro..

for Abiy... to be more patient & cool..

Ameen...

Sick Leave & Tag Compilation

this is my second week of sick leave. my gynae asked whether i wanted to stay in the hospital or at home. i choose home. huhuh. even if i have to endure the strong contraction every night and day. yes, it's contraction that everywoman will experience prior and during childbirth. i was 27 week then, examined to have UTI (urinary tract infection). i had it during Hafiy time, but after taking the medicine, it was OK but this time, seemed like nothing change, and it'd getting worse.

since weekend, everynight, EVERYNIGHT i'll have that i-am-going-to-give-birth like contraction! it just reminiscing laying down on the labour room bed to give birth to Hafiy, last year. but this time i am on my own bed, with Hafiy by my side, and both of us 'scream'. Hafiy is screaming for emem & lullaly and i am screaming to bear the pain. i told you it's not a mild contraction... it's enough to make me menggelupur.

since i am quite 'free' this morning, let's pay the tags debt :P

1. from Kak N

(1) What were you doing 5 years ago?
as a practical trainee at a gas plant in Kerteh.

(2) What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
1- sleep (i can't sleep at night due to the unbearable pain..).
2- fetch Abiy at his office and to have lunch together.
3- sweep the floor.
4- do the dishes and all the things i couldn't do last nite (due to the unbearable pain, i even couldn't sit for dinner).
5- 'try' to call or see my gynae.

(3) What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?
1- popiah simpul kecik.
2- mister potato.
3- any sandwich biscuit.
4- dried fruits.
5- waffle cake.

(4) What are 5 things that you do if you were a billionaire?
1- buy a bungalow at Damansara Country Heights. hahahaha.
2- buy Google Inc.
3- buy Dell Inc.
4- buy YTL Corp.
5- buy other generating income companies those can make me become super billionaire. kah kah kah.

(5) What are 5 jobs you've had? and still doing ?
1- pekebun sayur.
2- driver.
3- engineer.
4- documentation executive.
5- ?????

2. From Dee Hidayah

1 minit yang lalu, apa anda buat?
- minum air barli.

1 hari yang lalu, apa anda buat?
- tido.

1 hari lagi, apa anda akan buat?
- sambung tido lagi.

1 orang yang terakhir menelefon kamu?
- Kak Laily from office, asked about my subordinates' claims.

1 makanan yang baru dibeli?
- biskut.

1 barang yang baru hilang?
- my desktop. tak hilang physically tapi dia dah meninggalkan dunia ini dengan selamat.

1 cerita yang baru ditonton?
- i am not single (baik i buat cerita sendiri).

1 hal yang terakhir digosipkan?
- tentang rakan2 KGB dengan Cheq.

1 kata yang ingin diluahkan?
- "Adik sabarlaa jangan la kuar sekarang & kat sini. jom kita kuar kat Prince Court ek"

1 buku yang sudah dibaca?
- Cashflow Quadrant.

1 penyakit yang sering datang?
- argh!

1 keinginan?
- nak duk umah sendiri dengan family yang bahagia ini...

3. From Sal

Bekas kekasih saya...sekarang sedang menduda sejak beliau bercerai dengan Erra Fazira.

Saya sedang mendengar... bunyi message masuk di handphone.

Mungkin saya patut...tido saja sekarang.

Saya suka belajar... dengan Abiy. Abiy cikgu yang bagus walaupun anak muridnya tak berapa bagus.

Sahabat baik saya...buku. hahaha. tipu saja.

Saya tak faham.....term-term dalam matapelajaran Fizik. sekarang pon kene belek buku balik.

Saya kehilangan...arah.

Ramai yang berkata..."bestnya minyak dah turun!" tanpa mengetahui impak yang besar di sebaliknya terhadap negara.

Makna nama saya...ialah seseorang yang memberi hutang dan mengenakan interest yang tinggi serta bole membunuh kamu juga, iaitu ALONG :D

Cinta itu....hanya difahami oleh orang-orang yang bercinta je.

Di suatu tempat bernama...Kota Bharulah saya dilahirkan.

Saya akan cuba... bekerja dengan tekun dan bersungguh-sungguh demi negara!

Makna "selamanya".... forever.

Handphone saya...adalah hadiah dari Abiy.

Saya paling meluat....dengan orang tu.

Bila saya bangun dari tidur....Hafiy dah bangun.

Party adalah... sesuatu yang konfem ada makanan.

Haiwan yang paling cute adalah...monyet kecik sebesar ibu jari.

Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan adalah...belasan tahun sebab rasa dah besar tapi takde tanggungjawab hehehe.

Hari ini saya rasa sangat tension...sebab saya nak tidur.

Malam ini saya akan cuba... untuk tidak ememkan Hafiy sebelum tidur.

Saya betul2 inginkan... Adik lahir dengan sihat, cukup sifat & saya bole direct feeding dia immediately.

Bila tengok muka kat cermin pagi tadi...saya masih cantik seperti biasa.

Shopping kompleks...yang paling saya suka kat Miri ialah Bintang Mall.

Makanan segera biasanya...jadi makanan ruji kami kat Airport.

Ayat2 terakhir pada orang... OK bye, assalamualaikum!

ok! mari kita pegi bedrest, Dik.