Flour Freak

Hafiy likes to play with 'vitriolic' things like deodorant, hair gel, body lotion, face masker, etc. and the worse part is he will end up eating them! (i caught him several times 'eating' those chemical. i think i should get rid all those thing by replacing the liquid deodorant with stone-type one and use beras goreng for face masker).

i've been thinking of making edible playdoh for him, but since our stove is out of order, instead i gave him flour to play with. and it was fun!

Hafiy's flour play:

- pour 2 cup of flour into medium sized basin.
- let him play with the flour and Mommy explains the flour texture.
- give him 2 empty cups and see what he will do with the cups. Mommy guides on how to put flour into each cup.
- Mommy pour a cup of water (little by little) onto the flour and see what happens. Mommy explains how the flour powder dilutes in water and change its state into liquid.
- Hafiy eats the mixture.
- game over.

a baker to-be am i?

oh it was really a good preoccupying moment for him and allowed me to do kitchen cleaning without 'unnecessary help' :P. Hafiy now likes to do his own experiment rather than listening to my order.

i admit that i don't spend much time with Hafiy, and if i do, it's not necessarily a quality time. i always need to lay down and just let him play alone (that's the answer why he able to get all those things mentioned in the first paragraph).

but, thanks Allah for making everything easy for me (after i-am-not-a-good-mother syndrome). Hafiy doesn't disappoint me when i put some expectation on him (even if it has to be 'many times').

thank you Allah for the syndrome i endured for many weeks. and yes, the tarbiyah from Allah came from many angles. i feel ease now. alhamdulillah...

Hafiy 11 Month & Adik 16 Week

how fast time flies. Hafiy is 11 month old and Adik is 4 month in my womb. we still can’t notice any obvious movement from Adik (though he/she is moving :D). maybe because of puasa so Adik doesn’t kick vigorously lah. and maybe as well because of the fibroid pressing my womb making the space for Adik to kick is limited. but don’t worry Adik will get bigger and press the tumor back, kan Adik?

Hafiy is developing his skills, walking (4-5 steps forward), babbling [mama=Mami, bababa or bebebe=Abiy, mbik=Bibik, nak, byebye (but it sounds weird), mememe (tgh mengamuk],play with his form fitter and rings, putting his toys into its box, combs his hair, put things into laundry basket (not only the clothes but anything available), unwrap the food wrapper. etc. an interesting part is, he likes to water the plant. actually, he just supervises la.. the watering job done by Bibik. everymorning he'll scream, bending body, as a signal to go out and water the plants, so does in the evening (nak jadi petani kot).

since ever Hafiy is so clingy. Bibik has to cook while carrying him. so i asked her to put him aside. if she’s doing tumbuk2, give the lesung to him as well. now that if he goes to kitchen, he’ll ask for the lesung. when she’s on the stove, put Hafiy aside on the kitchen cabinet and give him something to play with, carrots or onion, etc.

now Hafiy knows how to protest and mengamuk guling-guling if anything he wants to 'say', nobody understand or when he doesn't get what he wants. i told Abiy that we should bring him out sometimes, to make him familiar with outside world, and to prevent him from being 'too free to mengamuk guling-guling' outside. Abiy said, maybe after Hafiy could walk independently by himself then we'll bring him out (again).

our activity during Ramadhan is not much. usually i reach home at 5 something, take 5 on my bed, bath, wash the pumping gears and breastfeed Hafiy. then i'll cook for berbuka and spend time with Hafiy while waiting for the azan. at night, i let him play in the bedroom (he has no time to sit back & relax) while watching him. he can do unexpected things without supervision i.e. climbing shelves/cupboard, get something from heigh, etc. when the things go out of control, the only cure is Tom Tom Bak. he'll stay put watching the show before we go to bed. [somebody told me that a good mother won't let her kids watch TV show especially something like Tom Tom Bak. i didn't object, but to me, whatever it is, it's up to the mother's parenting skill. a good person brings something good from shit, but a vice versa turns something good into shit :)].

we are still waiting for Adik to kick (he/she's kicking now neway, it's just i still can't feel him/her). and the dilemma is, how many weeks Adik is? because my period stopped 2 months before i got pregnant, the gynaes only can determine the EDD and the gestation week through ultrasound. last check up, there were 3 differents week, 15, 16 & 17. so i chose the average, 16 week, OK la kan? this maybe not a big deal for others, but for us, we have to plan ahead. i don't want Abiy to miss the birth again!

we might have a big turning moment in our life. i still can't predict what will happen, but Adik's time is definitely tough, unlike Hafiy's. during Hafiy's, everything went well and smooth. this time, so many things happens. hopefully Adik will be tough as well OK.

Macam-Macam Hafiy

lepas 3 minggu di KL, kita balik ke Miri, sebab Mami kena settle kan beberapa perkara di Miri pula. Mami decide untuk bawa Hafiy sama, because the stock is not enough to cater for a week. lagipun Mami risau tinggalkan Hafiy alone dengan Bibik. nanti jadi apa2 Bibik bukan tahu bawak kereta pegi klinik, & Tok Ma very busy uruskan Tok Pa. untuk kemaslahatan bersama, so Mami bawak sajalah Hafiy. kita tak bawa Bibik sebab tambangnya mahal~ separuh gaji Mami OK. mahal sungguh!

Mami bawa 2 beg, 1 tote bag FS & satu backpack. untuk isi pumping gear & keperluan Hafiy dalam flight je like diapers, rusk, etc. sehelai sepinggang je, sal Mami dah tinggalkan baju & stok susu kat rumah Pujut.

ni la lebih kurang beg Mami bawa sambil dokong Hafiy, tambah lagi satu backpack kat belakang.

mula2 Mami kena belikan tiket Hafiy. kita pegi MAS Office. oh Hafiy sungguh tak mau duk diam. dah pandai jerit2 kan, bila tak dapat apa yang dikehendaki. naik main pusing2 meja.. campak2 objek ke bawah meja, macam main kat rumah. masa kat kaunter pun nak main wallet Mami masa Mami kuarkan MyKid Hafiy. usik2 PC orang tu, nak pegang semua benda. Mami bagi toy, Hafiy campak je. last2 dok pegang IC Mami. Mami cuba ambil, Hafiy jerit kuat2. tapi sebab itukan IC sayang, tak bolehla buat main. Mami tukar dengan offshore passport. mujurla nak. dok pegang la benda tu sampai ke sudah.

time check in, mujur orang tak ramai. kalau tak mau haru beratur sambil dokong Hafiy. sebelum boarding, Mami alas perut dulu dengan ayam KFC. sebabkan takmo spend masa lama untuk makan, Mami amik chicky meal je. lepas makan cepat2 pegi masuk tempat departure.

flight jam 6.05pm, kita masuk jam 5.00pm lagi. awal la senang, bole duk dekat pintu & bole masuk awal. kalau lambat2 nanti orang dah kerumun, takde nye nak masuk awal2. tapi waiting room tak buka lagi, so kita tunggu la kat luar tu. Mami duduk sebelah sorang pakcik orang putih & sorang auntie orang Miri. Hafiy tertarik kat troli pakcik putih tu, oh tak boleh jadi ni. mujurla ada segerombolan troli dekat2 situ, so Mami ambil satu, & Hafiy dengan teruja sekali menolak troli kat situ. mujur Auntie Miri tu sukarela jaga beg kita.

tolak sana tolak sini, macam2 gaya. Mami suruh stop, or kalo Mami ambil dokong, Hafiy jerit kuat2. OK la.. tolak la... sampai termerangkak tu seronok sangat tolak. Mami biarkan je, kalo tak Hafiy jerit2, tendang2 Mami. tapi Mami pegang la atas troli tu, takut la degan Hafiy2 sekali meluncur ke depan.

lepas dah penat tolak troli (Mami yang penat, Hafiy dok enegetic lagi), Mami simpan troli & amik Hafiy. jerittttttt la ape lagi. Mami bawak pegi phone booth, main2 tepon, tak nak. pastu Mami bawak pegi main kat isle begerak tu (ape ke nama dia ntah). kelakar Hafiy duk kat isle tu tapi nak pegang dinding dia, sampai tersungkur (tapi Mami pegang la). bawak jalan ketuk2 dinding...

tapi tak puas hati jugak, nak troli jugak. kasik la can seround lagi...

bila waiting room dah buka, kita masuk & Hafiy tiba2 jerit. Mami la.. tak tau nak buat apa, jam jam tu jugak sumbat susu. nen la 5 minit, pastu taknak dah. duk rengek2, jerit2 tak tau kenapa. mujur ada wifi, Mami bukak Youtube Barney, "Barney is a dinasour.." barula diam. tapi time dia tunggu nak replay, jerit2 jugak. ape ni....

pastu Mami try tuka lagu "I love you, you love me.." Hafiy jerit taknak. pastu dah takde mood dah tengok Barney. jerit2 lagi. aduila... Mami bawakla jalan, pegi tempat orang wat announcement. ha, main terjun2. seronok pulak. Mami letak atas meja tinggi tu, Hafiy terjun. jap lepas tu orang airport tu datang. agaknya dia nampak Mami macam 'sengsara' je, dia pun buat announcement "kami menjemput keluarga bersama anak kecil masuk dulu ke dalam pesawat" sambil lambai2 kat kita. ape lagi Mami terus cau masuk dalam plane. baru laa lega sikit.

dalam plane, amazingly Hafiy tido sepanjang 2 jam setengah tu. alhamdulillah. bole la Mami makan dengan selesa & borak2 dengan makcik sebelah. tidurnya lena betul, sampai Mami kena kejut bila dah landing. tapi pelik pulak sekarang dah xdapat toy & baby food. tambang dahla naik! Mami tanya dia cakap tak ada...

sampai Miri, sempat lagi kita dinner Mc Donald's dengan Abiy. pastu terus balik.... wah rindunya kat rumah Pujut kan. tapi keadaannya agak sadis juga hehehe.

balik Miri, Hafiy tiba2 pandai membebel. "atatatatata", "abababababbaa" nampak sangat kelakar sebab Mami tak pernah tengok Hafiy macam tu. time Mami masak, Hafiy nangis2 sambil membebel, "uwaaaa... atatatattata....uwaaaa... abababababa".

bila Mami mengadu pada Abiy tentang travel bersama Hafiy yang mencabar minda, Abiy suggest "next time tak payahla bawak Hafiy. kesian Mami, pregnant lagi, kena dokong & layan Hafiy lagi. lagipun, kalau Hafiy takde kat sini, Mami bole rehat & tumpu pada Adik pulak".

tapi Mami berat sikit, sebab tak ada stok. sekarang macam pam sehari untuk minum separuh hari (tambah stok lama). macamana Mami nak tinggal Hafiy? nanti Hafiy nak minum apa? Mami pun tak tau apa alternatif terbaik. lagi satu concern sebab tambang Hafiy dah naik. urgh! Abiy suggest Mami balik sekejap je. sehari dua je. harap2 Mami tak penatlah.

memang mencabar minda sungguh sekarang ni. Hafiy pulak makin.. makin apa ya... makin aktif la gamaknya.
- dalam kereta jalan sendiri capai stereng, & dah tahu fungsi wiper. kalau tak bagi jerit2, liuk2 badan.
- suka sangat ngan Abiy. asik nak dokong Abiy je.
- suka dengan pen. kalo jumpa pen kat mana2 siaplah. kalau Mami nak amik sebab 'takut tercucuk' Hafiy akan jerit & cari kat mana Mami sorok pen tu.
- suka main 'masukkan dan kuarkan biskut dari bekas'. tapi tak makan pun.
- suka main ngan laptop Abiy. Abiy kalo Hafiy ada, memang tak buat kerja laa dia.
- pandai panjat high chair dan percubaan terjun.
- turun katil dengan cara superman. angkat tangan tinggi2 dan.... terjun!
- pandai turun kerusi dengan sopan tapi panjat tak bole lagi.
- suka rusk brand Heinz je. brand lain takmo. Mami rasa sama je rasanya.... appara...
- kalau nak suap nasi kene cakap "Thomas coming.. where's the tunnel?" baru nak bukak mulut.
- suka gigit nen dengan sengaja. kenapa haaa? sampai Mami terjerit2 je. sampai luka tau!
- gigi ada 4 batang, 2 besar kat atas. 2 kecit kat bawah.
- tahu je kalau orang nak keluar. terus datang ke kaki 'atatatata'.
- suka dekat Uncle Suryadi je, orang lain bolayan. apsal ha? hensem sangat ke Uncle Adi tu?
- nak makan sendiri tapi Mami tak ajar lagi. pandai pulak, cuma nak senduk nasi dalam mangkuk tak pass lagilah. hehe. ada ke pakai sudu tapi nak senduk dengan tangan?
- tiba2 pandai minum pakai straw. selama2 ni, walaupun Auntie Jua dah bagi tips tapi Mami tak penah buat pun. hahaha.
- suka cubit/ramas muka orang. baru ni pegi buat kat Nasa, sian Nasa, nangis2 dia.
- kat luar, macho. senyum pun kontrol2. kat rumaaaaahhh.... huh. asyik 'atatatatatta' jerit2. sengih2. Abiy tak buat lawak pun Hafiy bantai gelak.
- suka pompuan cantik. hahahahaha.

kat sini, Mami hantar Hafiy rumah 'makcik' kat Permyjaya, yang mengasuh Faiz, sebab Faiz kat KL minggu ni.
pagi2 semalam Mami hantar, Mami pesan kat Makcik, Hafiy ni minum susu sikit2, makan banyak, siang tidur kurang, kuat nangis.

bila balik, Makcik repot.
- minum susu sikit.. OK
- makan banyak.. OK
- tido lama.. APA?????
- tak nangis pun.. APA?????

bulan depan Hafiy dah 11 bulan, pastu raya seminggu Hafiy setahun dah. alhamdulillah... anak Mami sihat2. Mami ada berangan nak buat birthday bash Hafiy. Adik pulak, semakin 'menonjolkan' diri. hari2 makan luar sebab Mami 'tak selera' nak masak, sampai Abiy cakap "Mami balik pun sama je Abiy makan luar....".

Mami dah buat appointment untuk Adik, 2 September ni. yea yeah.

tapi ada benda yang mencabar juga, sebab Abiy kene pegi KL Rabu ni. aduh! tinggal berdua tiga dengan Hafiy (dan Adik)???

uhh Mami tak sabar2 tunggu petang... nak ambik Hafiy kat rumah Makcik! seronok sekarang kita duk sekeluarga je. cuma rumahlah bersepah sangat2. heheh.

Gelak Gelak Gelak

manusia ni suka gelakkan orang lain. Mami pun suka gelakkan orang jugak, especially kalo orang tu dengan sengaja atau tidak, terbuat lawak antara benua.

sebagai mak BF, perkara gelak dan digelakkan ni menjadi lumrahlah. mungkin menjadi hiburan sehari2, tak gitu Ibu Syifaak?

antara dialog2 digelakkan yg Mami pernah terima:

"pam susu? bagi je la dengan t*t*k, kan senang. *gelak2"
"tak penah bagi susu botol (FM)? tipulah... kau kerja bawak anak g ofis ke? *gelak2"
"belaja BF? helooo.... susu kan kuar kut situ je, nak belaja buat ape? *gelak2"
"lactation councellor? apebende tu? *gelak2"

tak ape.. gelak lah. lepas tu Mami akan tell the truth & giliran Mami pulak gelak kalo derang terpaku. tp most of them diselubungi ego yg tinggi jadi takdela terpaku, tapi memaku2 dengan hujah2 tersendiri dan gelak lagi. tak ape... hehe.

Mami anggap saja mereka itu sebagai 'tak tahu' dan kalau mereka 'nak tahu' (golongan yang terpaku itu), Mami share la apa yang Mami tahu. sebaliknya kalau mereka 'tak mahu tahu' dan 'taknak ambil tahu', ignore sajalah. bukan dapat apa pun.

biasalah manusia ni suka gelakkan orang dan perasan terer, walaupun benda tu satu hapah pun dia tak tahu.semalam Mami dah sound sorang kawan Mami yg cakap gaji kitorang paling koman RM5000. keh3x. Mami cakap "amiin. gaji bos aku tu. (kot2 lepas ni dapat jadi bos or naik gaji)". then dia cakap "alah, toksah tipula, kalau dah keje company *toot* tu semua orang tahu gaji besar". Mami jawab "kalau kau tak tahu, baik kau diam je. dah jadi fitnah, dosa besar tau".

bukan soal gaji yang Mami nak cakap, tapi sikap kita yang suka rasa kita tahu semua. & suka dengar khabar angin serta tokok tambah cerita. alah, Mami pun sama jugak. tapi bila dah tau kebenaran, tak adalah Mami bising2 dah. dulu, Mami dengar cikgu2 di pedalaman Borneo dapat elaun rm1000. so, Mami cakaplah kat kawan Mami yang ngajar kat pedalaman Bintulu. dia kata "yang dapat rm1k tu yang ngajar kat area yang takde elektrik, takde line telefon.. pakai generator. macam aku ni, walaupun pedalaman, 60km dari town, tapi ada letrik, ada line tepon, ada Astro, so tak adanya nak merasa". & Mami acceptla explaination dia as the primary source, bukan dengar dari mulut orang lain. & Mami konfemkan dengan Atok Har, bestfriend dia mengajar kat sebuah kampung di pedalaman Sarawak, tak ada letrik, kalau nak call kampung kene keluar town, dan dia memang dapat elaun rm1k tu.

itu memang sikap kita kan, suka tambah2 cerita dan berburuk sangka dengan orang, padahal kita tak tahu hal sebenar. dan kita suka cop-cop & judge orang. contohnya orang yg tutup aurat, tak spatutnya buat perkara tak senonoh. bila ada perempuan tutup aurat (senang kata, pakai tudunglah) buat perkara tak senonoh, biasanya kita cakap "dia ni tak padan pakai tudung tapi perangai macam *toot*. baik tak payah pakai". sebenarnya, dia baik sebab pakai tudung. at least dosa dia bab membuka aurat tak ada (secara kasarnya la). kalaulah dengan perangai buruk, tak jaga aurat lagi, kan ke lagi banyak dosa orang tu. kan lagi bagus cakap "nasib baik pakai tudung, kurang dah dosa kat situ. harap2 lepas ni terbuka hati nak tinggal benda tak senonoh tu".

Mami ingat pesan Ustaz kat UTP dulu, dia kata, setiap kita ni mendapat hidayah yang berlainan. ada orang dapat hidayah dari segi sikap, ada orang dapat hidayah pakaian, ada orang dapat hidayah pekerjaan, ada orang dapat hidayah macam2 lah. jadi jangan perkecilkan orang dan jangan bangga dengan diri kita. kalau kita rasa kita dah bagus, tutup aurat semua, jaga ibadat tapi masih berburuk sangka dengan orang, maknanya kita belum dapat hidayah untuk husnuzzhon (berbaik sangka). jadi berusahalah untuk dapatkan husnuzzhon. berdosa dengan orang lebih besar dari dosa dengan Allah. dosa dengan Allah, kita bole minta ampun directly dari Dia. dosa dengan orang, kena minta maaf dengan orang tu. dan kalau orang tu tak maafkan kita, Allah pun tak tentu ampunkan kita. sebab tu Allah letakkan dosa besar bagi mengeji, mencuri, mengumpat, memfitnah, dsb. sebab semua tu berkaitan dengan orang.

ada satu kisah di zaman Rasulullah, semasa satu perang (apa ye? tak ingat. mungkin ada yg igt kan?), seorang sahabat (pun lupa juga siapa) was about to tikam seorang musyrikin. lalu musyrikin tu mengucap, tapi beliau menikam juga hingga orang tu mati. diceritakan Rasulullah, lalu Rasulullah bertanya, "orang itu melafaz kalimah Allah, kenapa kamu bunuh dia?" sahabat itu menjawab "dia cuma melafaz di mulut saja". lalu Rasulullah membalas "kamu tahukah apa yang diucap di hatinya?". lalu sahabat itu berasa gementar dan insaf kerana telah membuat assumption buta sebegitu. Rasulullah pun menegur sahabat yang membuat persangkaan, inikan pula kita kan. jauh sangat nak dibandingkan dengan mereka yang sangat dekat dengan Rasulullah.

dan serendah2 level ukhwah tu husnuzzhon. kalau taknak & taknak belajar, janganlah gelak ye, nanti i gelakkan u balik. hehehe. oh ye, Mami minta kemaafan ye dari sesiapa yang pernah Mami perkatakan samada directly atau indirectly. kadang2 kita tak perasan, tapi bila perasaan geram tu muncul, memang tak boleh tahan.

& sesiapa yang ada no hp Mami, mintak sms no anda, sebab Mami tuka handphone (handphone lama dah rosak kene gigit dgn Hafiy). nombor2 semuanya dalam hp lama tu, so sekarang hp baru kosong je phone booknya. tolong ye :)~

Kita di KL

life in KL... oh after 2 weeks pun Mami still tak dapat catch up. too fast and exhausting. sangat berbeza dengan kehidupan kita di Miri.

di Miri...
.. masuk ofis jam 7.30am, jam 7.20am masih di rumah lagi.
.. kalau nak breakfast, keluarlah jam 7am.
.. jarak rumah-ofis 5 minit aje.
.. balik rumah tak penat, banyak masa nak main2 dgn Hafiy dsb.
.. malam2 kalo boring boleh keluar pegi jalan2.
.. malam2 sempat main, tengok TV, baca buku, bukak PC, buat itu buat ini.
.. dsb.

di KL...
.. masuk ofis pukul 8, jam 6.30am dah kena keluar. kalau tak sabar ajelah dengan jem.
.. jarak rumah-ofis setengah jam, ofis-rumah sejam lebeh! (kes jem blk kerja).
.. balik rumah penat sangat, sempat main2 kejap je dengan Hafiy, tu pun sambil baring sebab Mami tak larat.. sejam dua lepas tu, tido sebab dah penat.
.. malam2 jangan harapla nak keluar2.
.. malam2 sempat makan, tgk TV kejap & tidur. baca buku? tak pernah dapat sentuh. PC? lagilah.. pandang pun tak sempat.
.. dsb.

bagi orang yang dah biasa tinggal di bandar besar, memanglah biasa aje macam tu... tapi Mami tak biasalah. even if dulu Mami pernah tinggal setahun lebih di KL, tapi memang Mami penat. yela, pengalaman duk jauh dari ofis, rumah Aki di Kepong. pagi2 kena kejar komuter & LRT. balik pun sama. kalau jam 5 tak keluar ofis, alamatnya jadi sardinlah di komuter tu. sudahlah komuter masa tu (skg tak tahulah) suka buat hal. kata setengah jam sekali, tapi kadang2 sampai 2 jam tunggu tak sampai2. imaginelah orang macamana...

masa tu pun Mami penat sangat. kalau drive (masa tu tak mampu pakai highway, guna jalan biasa je) alamatnya 2 jam lebih baru sampai rumah. sampai2 dah azan Maghrib. mujurlah masa tu belum kahwin lagi, balik terus tidurpun tak ada siapa kisah.

sekarang Mami rasa bersalah sangat kat Hafiy. jam 9 lebih biasanya kita dah tidur. ada lebih kurang 3 jam je Hafiy bersama Mami. tu pun kena tolak masa Mami mandi, masak, makan, buat itu ini sebelum boleh lepak2 dengan Hafiy. agaknya sebab tu Hafiy suka bangun malam2 kot, nak spend time dengan Mami eh?

tidur Mami sekarang memang tak kualiti langsung. Hafiy makin kerap bangun malam, nangis2. kalau di Miri, 2-3 kali je bangun, kadang2 tak bangun langsung. ada la juga kadang2 Hafiy bangun main malam2, tapi bukan tiap2 malam. tapi kat sini, tiap2 malam ada la 20 kali Hafiy bangun. kadang2 Mami tepiki, 'Mami ni tidur ke tak ni? rasa asyik jaga je'. pulak tu, setiap kali Mami bangun, Hafiy pun bangun (bangun=bangkit, bukan jaga). Mami bangun pegi toilet Hafiy bangun, Mami bangun tgk jam Hafiy bangun, apetah lagi bangun pagi, mmg kena tunggu Bibik siap baru Mami bole mandi segala. kalau ada Abiy, boleh Abiy yg tengok2kan Hafiy sementara Mami siap2.

oh Mami tak bole imagine macamana kalau family kita pindah KL nanti. hmm... semua pun ada pro & consnya kan. di Miri aman damai tapi jauh dari keluarga..apa2, kena balik urgent, belanja mahal sangat! kat sini hectic tapi duk dekat ngan atok2 Hafiy. apa2 jadi memang kita dah ada kat sini.

harapnya Mami tak amik masa lama nak catch up dengan KL life ni. Mami dah rindu nak belek2 buku tapi sekarang memang tak larat sangat. baca Reader's Digest pun bercelaru mata dibuatnya.

apa2 pun kita look at the bright side lah.

Let Kids Be Kids

i cannot stand (kecik hatiku) with statement like these...

"kenapa anak kau ni 'buas' sangat? anak aku 5 orang semuanya OK je duduk diam2 time kita solat. baik je diorang sume macam faham je kita mengadap Tuhan, tak ada nak melalak2 ke apa"
"anak i pandai duduk diam masa i solat, xde pun nak nangis2 or kene dokong2, etc. macam anak u tu. pandai dia hormat orang solat"
"buasnye budak ni... tekejut tengok, anak2 aku semuanya pandai behave depan orang"

* i suggest that those who like to throw such that statement, please go to any parenting class, or get yourself some books about parenting and baby. or yg utama bacalah Quran banyak2 sekali dengan tafsir dia serta bacalah kisah hidup Rasulullah dan para sahabat. those statements (and any yg seumpama dengannya) to me convey the hidden message of 'anak aku ni dirahmati dan diberkati Allah. kecik2 dah pandai hormat orang/Tuhan/apa saja. anak kau tak diberkati, maybe sebab kau tak pandai didik anak or kau byk buat dosa or Allah sayang anak aku lebih, etc lah'.

why dont these guys understand that, kids are kids, they are not 'a little adult'. they are clean and clear, pure, white, innocent. they don't carry anybody's sin. and on top of anything, all kids are unique, they learn things in their own way!

dont have to read English's parenting books, or go to any classes. knowing about our Prophet Muhammad SAW's life is more than enough. why does he LOVE kids? and why does he will give syafaat to whoever loves kids? did he mention about good kids and bad kids?

if we read about a story about Hassan & Hussin, Rasululullah's grandson, how he adores them and play with them, sampaikan Hassan & Hussin panjat belakang Baginda main kuda-kuda pun Rasulullah never ever marah2, malah Baginda melamakan sujud until the boys left his back. smapaikan para sahabat berasa hairan & thought that it was a new command to lengthen the sujud. after the solat, they asked Rasulullah about the long sujud. Rasulullah jawab "cucuku memanjat belakangku, dan aku mahu memuaskan hatinya. maka aku hanya bangun dari sujud apabila dia telah puas hati".
(are Hassan & Hussin comparable to your kids?)

let them be kids. even Rasulullah carries his grandson during solat. who are our kids to those kids? what is the special with our kids until they should not have playtime?

we parent our kids, but remember that we are not the only parents, and not only us do the parenting job. please don't 'perkecil2kan' other parents just because your kids are well-mannered than the other kids. as long as they're still kids, let them be kids. they should learn new things in their own, fun ways, under our full guidance and unconditional love. what matter is, how we show and guide them. if the good manners come by chance, it should not be something to be proud of :)

and please be thankful if you have well-mannered kids, and a 'buas' child is not abnormal, as long as he is not diagnosed with hyperactivity or anything relates to it. & my boy is still a baby OK!

*seperti melepas geram pulak.

10 bulan & 11 minggu

alhamdulillah Hafiy dah 10 bulan, and still fully breastfeeding! bangga OK! :)

adik pun dah 11 minggu & Mami masih breastfeed abangnya. bangga jugak OK! :)

Hafiy tiba2 semalam berdiri sendiri and melangkah selangkah ke depan sebelum jatuh terduduk. oh sangat impress sebab he never did that before! kadang2 jeles jugak bila tengok our friends' children yang baya Hafiy dah boleh tatih, tolak itu ini, berdiri sendiri, etc. but this lil guy never forget to give us suprise!

datang2 rumah Tok Ma, he hunted for something to be pushed. biasanya bakul bajulah. tolak sampai ke dapur. ada walker tp tak gemar sangat tolak walker... maybe nak something different kot.

and yesterday also Hafiy climbed up the stairs sampai atas. sorang2. biasanya Mami kena teman. very independent kat umah Tok Ma ni...

as far as i can remember, Hafiy did all these at his 10 MO...

- suka unpack barang. barang2 pasar ke jgn risau nk unpack, dia akan tolong unpack kan. beg pakaian Mami pun Hafiy tolong unpack. tp un-pack ajela... bukan tolong kemas. huhuh.
- suka clearkan meja. habis semua benda kene campak bawah. kasi clear sikit meja kan, baru kemas kan?
- suka kuarkan baju dalam bakul laundry. kat mana2 yg accessible. nanti Mami nak suruh Hafiy kuarkan & masuk dalam mesin basuh la.
- suka buah. nampak aje sesiapa makan buah, orang itu akan jadi geng Hafiy.
- susah dah nk pakaikan diapers. kena pakai sambil berdiri/merangkak/berdokong. nak beli jenis pants tu mahal sgt laaaa.. tak mampu la Mami.
- asik makaaaaaaan je. tapi badan tak naik2. makin turun adelah. sekarang 8kg. aktif sangat gamaknya. tak boleh duduk diam.
- betul2 jadi Hassan Al-Banna. masa Abiy tidur, Hafiy belum tidur. bila Abiy bangun, Hafiy dah jaga.
- cemanapun Hafiy makin cute :)

Adik pulak... last scan dia tengak letak tangan kat dahi. Dr Aida cakap "anak you ni semua jenis berfikirlah. fikir harga minyak naik ke" :P

and if 1st September ni kita ada di KL, Mami & Adik akan pegi check up kat Prince Court Medical Centre :D teruja nak pegi sebab Dr. Aida bagitau it's a 7 stars hospital, & Dr. Seri Suniza was her senior. bila lagi nak merasa... time2 ada sponsor ni mari kita cuba saja!

Series of Good News

gimme 5, Mommy!

should i call these.. good news?

1. my 5-month attachment at KL started next Monday. yeay!
it's not about going to KL (with Hafiy, Adik & Bibik) and leaving Abiy alone here, but as a makan gaji (at least to me) it is important to have career progression. at least doing something i'm interested in, rather that goes to work just because I HAVE to. at least i can be happily working lah!

tp ini agak hectic juga sebab br dpt confirmation early this week. barang satu hapah pun tak kemas lagi. our flight will be on Saturday afternoon, and belah paginya kene pegi cucuk JE Hafiy 2nd dose & check up Adik sambil collect surat utk check up kat KL beserta kad merah.

2. Mami dapat idea utk stok2 susu itu!
pening jugak Mami pikirkan apa nak buat dengan stok2 susu yg banyak itu (sila jeles ye ibu2 :P). akhirnya sesiteri & bos2 telah menjamin bahawa the 5 months attachment wont be a solid 5 months, every 2-3 weeks akan balik Miri, so stok2 itu akan terus di sini, digunakan bila kita balik Miri kelak. yahuuu!

dan pembelian deep freezer utk stok baru di KL bakal diteruskan sebab peti ais kat umah Tok Pa, masya-Allah dah fully occupied!

3. pam baru Mami dah sampai!
disebabkan demand makin bertambah dan bakal bertambah, Mami telah mengorder sebuah double pam. dan sekarang dia dah sampai!!! tapi Mami tak poskan ke sini sbb takut tak sempat sampai. so skg beliau ada di KL. oh sungguh tidak sabar!

dan benda yg paling menghappykan Mami hari ni sampai tersengih2 hingga ke telinga:-

4. our GM approve for 'Mother's Room!'
oh Mami sungguh tak sangka beliau adalah seorang yg pro-BF. in fact, all his 5 kids were breastfed! and ada yang sampai3 tahun lebih! Mami ingat akan jadi isu juga bila Mami nak mintak bilik for Mother's Room. tapi ceritanya begini...

bertempat di bilik tamu, dalam office GM, jam 5.45pm

Mami : encik B, skg kan kat ofis kita ramai mothers... (sambil amik proposal dalam file)
encik B hensem* : oh, ni ke proposalnya? let me see. (i didnt ever tell him about it)
Mami : (handing the proposal to him).
encik B hensem* : good2. i really support BF. in fact i believe all mothers should BF. all my kids pun BF. my wife & i a bit orthodox. we believe in BF & dont rely on susu lembu ni (:D)
(dan seterusnya sehingga..)
encik B hensem* : do you mind using my pantry? i pun tak pakai. kat situ ada peti, sinki segala.
Mami : boleh boleh! but i oredy draft a plan for our pantry aje.
encik B hensem* : why dont you use *****nita's room?
Mami : takde fridge & sinki la encik B.
encik B hensem* : takpe... i bole belikan.
(finally...)
encik B hensem* : tell all your friends, GM dah approve!
*sekalisekala bodek boss :P

YAHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
alhamdulillah.
i never expect he's a pro-BF ones. i met my dept head before, he was a bit sceptical la pasal expressing milk at work. byk soal.. but the GM takde soalan cuma full support!!!
Mami kagum jugak sikit2 dengan dia. he's a GM yet very humble. his wife still is working, and pakai Honda City je. oh OK, maybe our GM's paycheck is not as huge as other company's GM :)
saya sangat sukaaa!!!!

Bad Mommy Day

lately Mami dah kurang bagi perhatian pada Hafiy. sedihnya.. (hehehe) even weekend pun Mami spend time tidooo sepanjang hari, especially hari2 Mami berpuasa memang tak larat sangat. sampai Abi komen Hafiy asyik dengan Bibik aje. mandi dengan Bibik, makan dengan Bibik, main dengan Bibik.... oh Mami sangat2 tidak larat. sorry yer sayang...

bila main dengan Bibik, Bibik kata Hafiy suka jerit2 marah kalo Bibik usik barang Hafiy, buat2 nak makan makanan Hafiy... oh Hafiy dah makan banyak sekarang. hari2 makan nasik dah. kadang2 Mami masak spageti untuk Hafiy. Hafiy sangat suka! Bibik la excited nak menggemukkan Hafiy. maklumlah berat tak naik-naik. tp Mami tak kisah je, asalkan sihat dan ceria sudah.

disebabkan Mami tak larat nak melayan dan hari2 terjelepok je, tak dapat lah nak bersama2 'menyambung sel otak' Hafiy. sambil BF pun Mami tido, tak larat sesangat. tp untuk terus menggalakkan Hafiy terus suka buku (Bibik kata Hafiy kalau main mainan, cepat je boring. kalau pegang buku baru lama sikit belek2), Mami lambakkan buku kat atas katil. pagi2 Hafiy bangun, boleh pegi belek buku. untuk mengelakkan buku itu dikoyak dan menjadi chewing gum, Mami bagi buku jenis yang wipe off tu. keras tapi tak macam board book. kira OKlah Hafiy tak boleh koyak2 dan chew. buku2 kertas lembut semua dah jadi mangsa koyakan dan kunyahan yang rakus.

sekarang ni Hafiy dalam 'mode memusnahkan barang'. semua barang2 yang Mami/Bibik susun, satu-satu Hafiy sepah dan selerakkan. objek paling digemari ialah kotak bekas supplement Mami. punyelah struggle panjat kerusi nak capai.kalau time Mami OK, Mami layan Hafiy, masukkan semula, macamana nak susun, letak balik kat tempat asal. kalau time Mami penat, Mami biar je Hafiy tarik, jatuhkan & keluarkan semua isi kotak. selerakkan & jadikan botol2 tu sebagai rattle. layan~

tapi penat2 pun kadang2 Mami kena jugak gagahkan, cari Hafiy kalau tiba2 hilang dari pandangan. kadang2 Hafiy pegi main kat stoller & hi chair, main2 roda. suka sangat dengan roda. OK la kalau Hafiy main kat situ sebab Mami bole nampak. tapi kekadang Hafiy merangkak pegi dapur main dengan hos mesin basuh, kuali2, botol2 minyak tu. aduuh, nak tak nak, pening2 pun kene jugak bangun pegi amik Hafiy. bahaya main kat dapur, kot lah ada apa2 yang Mami tak perasan. nanti Abiy kena install gate kat pintu dapur karang ni.

Adik pun agak terabai jugak sekarang. Mami kurang bercakap, dan membaca dengan Adik. oh Mami sangat tidak laraaaat. kat ofis pun kalau turun-naik (even pakai lif), termengah2 jugak Mami dibuatnya (macamana nak hidup kat KL nanti?). minggu ni kita pegi check up Adik & ambik kad merah dia. Mami tengah fikir lagi nak check up kat mana bila kat KL nanti... Damansara Damai Medical Centre atau Prince Court Medical Centre? DDMC macam best sebab dekat rumah Tok Pa, time weekend bole pegi. PMC pulak dekat ofis Mami nanti & hospital tu macam canggih je. hehe. oh yang mana satu...pilihan kalbu~

Mami harap sickness ni cepatlah berakhir. Mami nak layan Hafiy dan Adik. kita boleh main2, baca buku & bercerita. sekarang Mami nak cakap2 pun tak larat. nak senyum pun tak larat! hahaha. cemana pun alhamdulillah sebab Mami selera makan (masakan sendiri sahaja). & tiba2 Mami boleh makan mangga muda yang masam tu. biasanya tak mampu nak telan kalau tak celup gula banyak2.

About Adik

walaupun Adik belum lahir lagi, tapi Mami suka2 hati je meletakkan takhta Mother of 2 utk diri sendiri. hehe.

memang betul lain pengalaman dengan babies, even if anak sendiri. zaman Hafiy dulu Mami tak boleh bangun, tak makan nasik, tak masuk dapur... selama 4 bulan. Adik pulak, Mami suka masak (tak suka pon kena masak jugak sebab xbole makan masakan Bibik). even if balik kerja jam 6.30pm (Maghrib dahtu), berohop jugak masak. masak plak Mami tak suka goreng2 simple je. kalo Bibik yg masak, mmg tak penah habis. kalo Mami masak sendiri, walaupun tak sedap mana, sampai ke kuah Mami hirup.

Abiy suka la macam ni. lagi2 bila dia offer "nak makan pizza?" Mami cakap "taknaklah. boring". hehe. zaman Hafiy dulu hari2 Abiy kena bawa Mami ke pondok pizza sebab itu je benda yg Mami bole telan. Abiy cakap Adik jimat, tambah2 di zaman ekonomi agak meleset ni :)

alhamdulillah sebab skg Mami bole makan, takde muntah2, so still manage to BF Hafiy. syukur sgt2. cuma sekarang Hafiy suka bangun main/jerit/nangis malam2. disturbed sleep ni buat Mami lagi fatigue & dah berapa kali Mami amik MC sebab tak larat sangat nak pegi kerja everytime Hafiy buat macam tu. orang kata perangai budak nak dapat adik. tak kisahlah semua tu, yg penting anak Mami sihat2 & maybe Hafiy nak Mami berehat :)

sekarang ni Mami cuma penat2 & semput especially malam2. last week Dr Aida dah buat blood test. dia suspect Mami kurang iron. tp dia xcall pun, maknanya bukan sebab iron kurang lah Mami ni. so we dont know why, tp mmg severe jugak. sampai Mami kene bangkit nak amik nafas. actually dah lama Mami hadapi benda ni, since schooling, tp sejak 2-3 minggu ni bertambah kronik. 2 minggu lg jumpe Dr. Aida lagi, harap2 ada la jawapannya. lagi2 kalo baring BF Hafiy, kdg2 xbole bernafas, Mami tepaksa stop dulu jap & bia Hafiy jerit2. Abiy kadang2 sian tgk Mami termengah2, dia tolong urutkan belakang Mami dengan balm. tak tau la apa masalahnya, xde blocked nose, xde kahak, xde batuk2, xde asma. orang kata pembawaan preggy, apa2 ajelah :)

Mami rasa kami kadang2 hadapi sindrom anak kedua. Abiy cakap kesian Adik, Mami asik cakap pasal Hafiy je, asik ingat Hafiy je. erm, maybe masih terlalu awal lagi. Adik pun baru je nak masuk 8 minggu. Hafiy pun tak faham lagi (kot) pasal adik la abang la ape la. ape2 pon semua anak adalah unik dan istimewa. Mami gabra jugak, rasa mcm pregnant 1st time je. cuma sebab MS tak begitu significant, so Mami bebas jalan2 ke sana ke mari tanpa was2 :D

ada satu hari tu Mami mimpi, (ni kes pegi visit baby Danial Haziq kot sampai termimpi2 sal baby) Mami masuk hospital, Adik dah nak lahir. tibe2 Mami tak sedar... sedar2 Adik dah ada & perut Mami ada stitch c-section. huhuhu. adik boy. Mami cakap kat Abiy pasal mimpi Mami, Abiy cakap "Adik gurl la..." :) best jugak kan kalo adik gurl, dapat sepasang. so far tak ada lagi kawan2 kami yg ada sepasang. lelaki-lelaki, perempuan-perempuan, memang ramai.

semoga Allah pelihara family kita, especially Adik yang sedang mekar setiap hari ni :) tapikan tak ramai kawan Mami yg expect Mami pregnant lagi, even if bila jumpe pun. maybe sebab terlalu awal, ataupun Mami makin kurus. huhu. almost everyone bagi remark ni "Along makin kurus lar!"

doakan Adik selamat dalam rahim Mami, dan selamat lahir menjelang 27 Februari tahun depan. ameen.

rezeki Adik, Mami dapat satu offer yang sungguh seronok! alhamdulillah...

Mommy & Hypotension

having slightly low blood pressure (BP) is not new to me. since i was in primary school, i couldn't barely standing still for more than 5 minutes. i always faint during perbarisan, and sometimes even during nasyid competition. huh.

the worst experience was during my internship, i was bicycling in the gas plant with an engineer, suddenly i was blackout while still riding the bike. tergolek dog kat plant tu. i got swollen lips, bruises all over my body and scratched safety glass. i went to a clinic after having dinner and the doctor was 'shock' telling my BP was low (couldn't remember) and my blood sugar also low (about 3.0 i guess, normal is 5.0). he said "you tak makan ka?" i said "i just have my dinner" and he what kinda 'are you sure?' then he said "you glucose level is very low even if after dinner. please eat more". huhuh. and i was 45 kg that time.

my BP is not always at the low region, it is normal but slightly low and sometimes can be lower. severely low BP is when your BP is lower than 90/60. >normal BP is 120/80 or lower, pre-hyper 120-139/80-89, hypertension 140/90 or higher. the upper reading is systolic pressure : pressure generates by heart when pumping the blood. the lower reading is diastolic pressure : pressure of arteries when heart is resting between beats.

checked the symptom2 of low BP i experienced:

- giddy & light headed
- always fatigue
- faint
- lack of concentration, lost focus
- shallow breathing
- thristy
- blurred vision, especially when getting up suddenly

lately, to be precise, since the past 3 months, the symptom was very obvious. i even couldn't get up several night for severe headache and fatigue. i went to clinics several times and most of the time, doctors said "stress kerja" huh! but finally i went to Colombia Asia last month, the doctor suspected i have some problem with my period (since it was very2 heavy ever) and he asked me to refer to the gynae. but the panel doctor refused to refer me yet, until i have my period again and she could see my condition. oh it has been 2 month without period!

the Colombia Asia doctor suspected i'm having problem with my reproductive organ, bcos of the very heavy period. that's why he asked me to see the gynae.

i'm trying to find the cause of my low BP, at least recently.
- not enough rest : 6 hours sleep is not enough???
- stress : could be, but why only now? i even 'stresser' last year.
- pregnancy : i dont think so!!! very the impossible...
- medication : i dont take any.
- blood loss : if i'm having period, it could be but i missed it for 2 months oredy!
- blood stream infection : i am healthy.
- nutritional deficiency : if this happened 2 years ago, this might be the cause. but now i'm taking supplement...
- dehydration : has possibility... i dont watch my fluid intake lately... (but how come for 3 months???)
- overactive thyroid : oh i dunno. if this is the cause, i'm sure doctor will tell me when it is really2 severe.
- heart problem : this one osso i think i could know when 'i have another 6 months to live'.

for now since i'm not diagnosed with anything, so they don't provide me any medication or even any tips, i just do my self-care & treatment.
- more water : get back into my 4L a day-water intake.
- increase salt : my Mom asked me to take asam boi. salt will increase the blood pressure, dramatically but have to ensure not too much!
>- eat frequently : adding kudap2 time while working. hahah.

i hope my low BP symptom will go away. handling a little baby, plus BFing while the body is not fit enough is completely wearing me out. but i'm still happy at least the milk production is still OK la..

i hope my next visit to any doctor will tell me something new than "tak cukup tido...","stress keje"..

whatever... as long as there's enough supply for me.

Happy Birthday Mommy!

alhamdulillah. Mommy diberi kesempatan utk bernafas lagi hari ni. dah lebih suku abad dah. aduh dah tua! alhamdulillah Mommy diberi rezeki yang cukup, kesihatan yg baik, keluarga yg best, kawan2 yg best, nikmat yang tak terhingga...

dalam usia ni sebenarnya Mommy jauh ketinggalan dari teman2 sebaya... dari segi ilmu, kerjaya, harta, rohani dan sebagainya. ada kurang dari half lg usia Mommy skg utk capai tahap warga emas. owhh~~~ i should use this times to fill up apa2 yg kurang sgt tu! time to gear up!

harapan Mommy utk birthday yg kesekian kalinya ini:-
[mmm biarlah Mommy simpan dalam buku nota Mommy je]

lagi, semoga Hafiy (+adik2) & anak2 Malaysia lain membesar dengan positif & menjadi warga Malaysia yg positif, kreatif, inovatif lagi proaktif untuk masa depan Malaysia yang gemilang! semoga Malaysia jadi negara maju dengan sumber pendapatan yg sangat diversify dan jadi member OPEC (pegi cari minyak kat tempat orang tak gali lagi utk increase production) :D semoga negara2 lain nanti gerun dengan future PM of Malaysia...

oleh itu Mommy akan berusaha untuk memberi Hafiy khasiat susu ibu sekurang2nya 2 tahun walaupun sekarang mengalami production constraint (kes malas pam tak habis2). arghhh!!!

semoga Allah memberi petunjuk (hidayat), menambah (berkat) rezeki dan kenikmatan (nikmat) & menyayangi (rahmat) kita semua. amiin.

kalo Mommy nak Hafiy jadi spekulator macam George Soros, ok tak?

skg Hafiy dh bole berdiri dengan support objek2. mengamalkan prinsip biar lambat asal selamat.. (lambat roll-over) setiap pagi ada terapi jalan atas embun dengan Bibik. Mommy takut kena benda2 tajam ke apa tapi since Hafiy seronok je, silakanlah. nanti dah besar bole Hafiy bangun sendiri Subuh2 jalan atas embun :)

semoga Allah panjangkan usia Mommy dalam rahmat-Nya supaya boleh tgk Hafiy membesar dgn jayanya & menjalani hari2 tua bersama Abiy :D

World of Scarcity

i can't help myself writing about what is happening in our country recently. i think starting from the 'that guy' takeover Malaysian cabinet, everything went 'out of order', even someone without 'Bumi' status could claim for 'kesamarataan', which was never happened before. :D so nice.

last week, our PM announced the increasing in our fuel price, about 40%, and before that our makanan ruji (rice) increased 100%! what to say more? i heard this year all rice-producing country couldn't produce as what they should due to 'padi tidak menjadi'. is it true? i dunno because i never went to those Siam or Burma etc. but the food crisis is REALLY TRUE, and that's a good WHY for most peniaga to increase the price.

however, for the fuel price, actually i feel a bit 'lega' cos my sms & email inbox are almost free from messages saying 'the national oil company is this and that'. i think most Malaysian are aware now, what is the roles of our national oil company & the role of government.
however, i heard that there'll be a demo at KLCC in July, is that true? u know what? i sounds very funny to me.

why does the oil price strikes so dramatically?

1. growing demand
the most significant is the fast growing of China & India economies. and seasonal demand for oil due to winter, etc. in 4-seasons countries.

2. low stock
this is associated with the Iraqi War, ethnic tension in Venezuela, hurricane in Gulf Mexico, etc.

3. opec effect
Organization of Petroleum Exporting Countries (OPEC), a cartel that adjusting supply quotas and thereby setting prices. OPEC’s prowess was particularly notable during the 1970s, when minor reductions in the cartel’s supplies led to “oil shocks” and thus global increase in price.

4. speculators' actions
hedge funds and other speculators betting on the possibility of higher prices have themselves exacerbated price pressure in the market. the price of oil is affected by the behaviour of market investors, doesn’t matter if oil supplies are actually low or if threats to oil supplies actually exist. they don't care as long as they can increase their trading.

oh i'm not a pro-petronas etc. but i think i can share what i knew so that i won't hear anymore, 'stupid argument' about the national oil company (petronas) & fuel price :D

1. they compare with non-oil producer i.e. Thailand & UK.
let me list down world's oil producers, what i knew only la.

Africa Continential
* Algeria
* Angola
* Cameroon
* Chad
* Republic of the Congo
* Egypt
* Equatorial Guinea
* Gabon
* Libya
* Mauritania
* Nigeria
* Sudan
* Tunisia

Asia
* Azerbaijan
* Brunei
* China
* Georgia
* Kazakhstan
* Malaysia
* India
* Indonesia
* Pakistan
* Philippines
* Thailand
* Turkmenistan
* Uzbekistan
* Vietnam

Australasia
* Australia
* New Zealand
* Papua New Guinea
* East Timor

Europe
* Austria
* Bulgaria
* Croatia
* North Sea:
o United Kingdom
o Norway
o Denmark
* Germany
* Ireland
* Italy
* Lithuania
* Netherlands
* Poland
* Romania
* Russia
* Serbia
* Ukraine

Middle East
* Bahrain
* Iran
* Iraq
* Kuwait
* Oman
* Qatar
* Saudi Arabia
* Syria
* United Arab Emirates
* Yemen

America
* United States of America
* Canada
* Mexico
* Barbados
* Belize
* Cuba
* Guatemala
* Trinidad and Tobago
* Argentina
* Bolivia
* Brazil
* Chile
* Colombia
* Ecuador
* Guyana
* Peru
* Suriname
* Venezuela

now tell me which non-oil producer they're comparing with?

comparing ourselves with Saudi Arabia.. it's like comparing 'Sos Cili Makcik Jenab & Anak2' with 'Sos Cili Maggi'. it's not fair kan if we asked "why sos cili makcik Jenab xde iklan kat TV while Sos Cili Maggi always ada? well, they sell the same product-sos cili". is it fair?

Saudi Arabia produced 9Million barrels/day while Malaysia produced 0.5Million barrels/day... is it comparable? Malaysia is only about 0.05% from Saudi's oil production, and the profit margin is very low. just think about the above analogy.

2. oil price strikes high, petronas's untung goes high as well
when the oil price increase, it costs petronas a bomb! the service companies take this advantage by increasing the service charges.

3. they burned the monies by building KLCC
if you can buy yourself a new car, a house, nice clothes, don't question about what the main contributor to your gov's incomes built themselve a nice building.

4. petronas should sell cheaper2 to the country
refer to no. 2. if they sell cheaper2, who'll bear the cost???? furthermore, it oredy gives a portion of $ to the govt.

5. petronas - govt crony.
i afraid not. TQ govt for not getting involve in petronas's organization or i can guarantee the company will melingkup just like other govt's companies :D

6. petronas officers monthly wages easily exceed normal citizen yearly income.
very funny. how do u know? have u ever been a petronas officer? WRONG! even a new teacher in Miri paid higher than a Petronas engineer in Miri.

7. where all petronas profit goes?
63% - to the govt. which is 40% of gov's income. TAK KE BANYAK TU!
7% - to the shareholders, royalties & taxes
30% - to reinvest

8. petronas should control the oil price.
it's no. after all, the fuel price is govt's responsibility, not petronas.

etc. malas dh nk tulis.

we've been living in complacent for so long and we hit the edge of our comfort zone, it really made us mad and feel everybody was stupid especially petronas and the gov. haha. indeed they are because we are much smarter, that's why we keep on makan gaji and become the prey everytime the price get higher and higher.

why don't we ask our children to study hard and become one of petronas MC or minister one day so that they will:
- decrease the oil price.
- give more and more subsidy.
- give us free fuel, free cars, free houses!

who don't feel the burden of high price in EVERYTHING? even for us, a pack of 10kg beras costs almost RM50. and the chicken costs us RM9/kg. don't have to go to the poor to feel the 'agony' of the higher living cost recently. in this case, i really think those 'ministers' are not very wise. they shouldn't say "rakyat harus berjimat" while they are happily continue their living as usual in their big mansion etc. it is nicer if PM said "saya arahkan semua menteri buat car pooling & makan nasik sekali sehari utk berjimat cermat". hahaha.

i'm not a rich person, but i don't have any power to ask anyone to reduce the oil price. and i heard in August, the fuel will costs RM4/L. haha. very nice. and we are shifting ourselves from middle class to lower class. now it is really kick us out of out comfort zone. i hope we can find blessing in disguise, beyond all this @#$#@#.

but, if we revert back to why Allah created & sent us here, to be the khalifa, now, do we really be the caliph? who rules the world now? is he a Muslim? think again, it is our fault to let the 'whatever' rules the world while we are the one who sent by Allah to take the role. He ever said that when the world goes under those 'whatever's authority, there'll be lots and lots of kemusnahan. and it's really is. (sorry i forgot the source & full text but i think it is a Hadis Qudsi, i'll come back later).

but i believe that Islam will strikes back. if we see the cycle of Islamic civilization, during Adam's, they're already had some technologies (remember Qabil & Habil bred sheeps & farming), but during the ice age, stone age, etc. ppl still go hunting, pakai cawat etc. and before the Jahiliyyah, Jazirah Arab was flashed by Islamic seruan during Ibrahim, Musa, Isa, etc. and now it is goes to the lowest point of ppl civilization again. it's not a matter of time, but it's our action, cos now we're the Muslims who left to continue the journey of Islamic civilization. and i really believe in what is said in our Kitab.

to me, and in our family, instead of blaming here and there, we look back in ourselves, do we really perform our duty as Muslims and the caliphs? could this be a 'bala' or test for us, to make us aware that, how high we fly & how far we go, there are things we can't control? and if we want to fit ourselves into 'a Muslim profile', where are we?

anyway, we can choose to face this with positive attitude and be happy paying the high price of fuel & all the basic needs, or keep on pointing and blaming this and that, get stressed but still have to pay the high price :D we opt for the #1!

as i said, i'm not a pro-petronas nor pro-gov, but the reality is, we can't do anything. even if the other party takes over, will they able to reduce the fuel price? oh maybe they will, cos i heard, Selangor citizen are waiting for their 'free water' =) i want it too!

DISCLAIMER
*don't read if you can't differentiate between the govt & the national oil company.
*don't read if you're angry with the govt because this writings is not defending the govt., or anyone, just sharing the true facts about the national oil company.
*before you get angrier, please understand that the subsidy is not from petronas, but the govt.
*i have nothing to do with the company mentioned.

What I Want You to Be?

Hafiy: ni map nakgi cari harta karun tau.
Adam: ala takyah kelentong kita tau ni alas meja.


"awak kita nk cakap samting kita terpoo-poo dalam suar"
"hehehek geli jela awak ni"


"hey tepilah!"
"lu apehal bro?"

when i was in primary 1, my teacher asked me about my ambition. i still remember the answer was "saya nak jadi askar cikgu!". and the teacher replied with "perempuan mana bole jadi askar" hehe.

at age 10, i asked my dad about what did he wants me to be. he said, he wants me to be an architect. at that age, i didnt know what architect is, but i wrote it in my books, and told everyone that i wanted to be an architect. i put my target in studies, to study hard in order to achieve my ambition, which i believed it was a little bit harder than to become a housewife. hehe.

however, i wasn't exposed to what i should go through i.e. courses at university, which campus, etc.
i just went with the flow, until i had to make my own decision on what i should take after my secondary. i applied all unis, other than UPU, i sent forms to all unis in the papers. but i terlepas pandang on overseas application :( i got almost all offers, from UIA, Uniten, MMU, UTP... but i chose UTP because it came first :D it was soo no direction, and it was no more architecture.

and now i am not an architect, but somebody with no value to the nation oh d****!!!

during my internship, i still remember my conversation with a manager in that construction site. he told me something like,

Malays' parents usually don't know their role in helping their kids pursuing the future. unlike other races, they already have in mind what should their kids be in future plus the resources, and they use it to encourage their kids, so that their kids will have clear direction and avoid them to be unemployed.

my mom told me to study hard so that i can get good job, but i myself didn't know what good job was, until i finished my degree and hunt for job like a crazy. luckily i took engineering.

very significant isn't it?

i went through that, and i dont want my kids to walk through it again. we don't map or plan on what our kids should be in future, but we encourage and help them to have a better picture on what they should consider when thinking about their futures. i have a dream that my kids able to say something like this:

i want to get *As in my UPSR because i want to study medicine after SPM at a medical college in Ireland and i to be an oncology to do research for cancer's treatment before i reach 30YO.

amiin.

i don't need my kids to be a super genius like can solve Calculus at age of 6 or can create any Physics formula at age 9, enough for they can use their potential to help themselves, our family and most importantly our nation.

for us (Abiy & i), a true genius is not a super-intelligent, but someone who can help himself & others.

Buat Apa?

i dunno why i'm logging in & upd8ing this blog. since i dunno when i can login again, why dont i just put some updates sajala before i forgot. :P

1. our MYY-KUL flight
Hafiy demam pulak sian sungguh. dalam flight xsenang duduk Mami kene jalan2 sambil dokong dia. ramai orang usha2 & say "hi baby" to Hafiy. haha. terasa bangga, terasa comel :P

2. Tok Pa
Tok Pa nampak sihat. tp still in dilemma whether wanna continue the HIGHEST dosage chemotherapy or not. Tok Pa kata.. the previous LOW dosage chemo pun sgt bahaya sbb all the imune system was down, how about the HIGHEST dosage? ada sesapa pernah lalui chemotherapy?

2. Adam datang
seronok sgt Adam & clan datang visit kita. hehehe. tp Hafiy sgt comot sbb tgh selsema... kami bergambar2 ngan kamera Daddy Adam yg besau itu. huhu. gambanye ada kt blog Daddy Adam & Mommy Adam. Hafiy gatal telah menunjukkan ketereran angkat2 bontot (cube2 merangkak) di depan Adam & family. pastu bila derang balik, dah xbuat dah... bertuah sungguh.

kelakar sungguh bile ingat gelagat budak2 tersebut. hehe. Adam cool, Hafiy asik test vocal jer. bila nk jumpa lagi ni.

3. Mommy plak demam
ini jangkit ngan Hafiy la ni. Mommy selesema teruk tp xbole MC sbb ada meeting penting :(

4. menjawab soalan:-
a) mumster on binky/pepet/pacifier
i gave my baby that paci ms dia dalam hari sbb bosan asik melalaks saja. but then pastu i dah xbagi sbb xmo dia terbegantung dgn paci je nanti jongang hehe. paci pon i xbeli pon... free gift ms beli Avent Strelizer.
b) mummyhanis on pumping
sesungguhnya tiada halangan utk mengepam. cume kene cari time sesuai & pastikan sehari beberapa sesi yg bole tampung keperluan selama sebulan itu. kalo tanye i, +ve aje hehe. START je, nanti MESTI BOLE! go go mummy!

5. menjawab tag Mommy Sarah
Rules:
1. Link to the person that tagged you and posts the rules on your blog.
2. Share seven random and/or weird things about yourself.
3. Tag seven people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1. saya (saya di sini adalah Mami ye, jgn kamu nk perasan pulak) tak pandai Maths. entah kenapa sejak sekolah rendah sampai sekarang mmg lemah sungguh Maths. mujurlah zaman sekarang ada calculator. hehe.

2. saya ada satu handbag je, hadiah kawen. hahaha. mujurla namanya Bonia jd g mana2 orang bukak jugak mata "wow Bonia tu.." tp sesungguhnya hanya itulah satu2nya handbag yg saya ada. oh ada la lg satu handbag yg saya beli rm10 kui3x.

3. saya dah dekat setahun tak beli baju baru. last baju beli adalah baju pregnant hahaha. ntahla.. xde pesen yg berkenan di hati. kalo kuar pakai t shirt yg dah berusia dkt 8 tahun tu (t shirt U) huhu.

4. saya ada satu flat sandal & satu platform yg pakai gilir2 p ofis. bukan ofis ke, shoping, pasar, jalan, kenduri, etc. itu je sandal yg saya ada. ada la heel 3 pasang tp xreti la i nak pakai heel2 ni. sakit kaki. konsepnya senang je, beli sepasang yg bole masuk ngan sumer pakaian. maklumlah, bukan kaya pon. huhuh. jimat cermat itukan amalan mulia (wooo!)

5. saya suka tgk kartun. kartun adalah lebih menyenangkan & tidak perlu mengutuk pengarah atau produsernya sbb buat cerita yg tidak membina minda. hahaha.

6. sebelum memiliki wallet berjemana Milk Teddy ini saya telah menggunakan wallet bermuka Snoopy yg zap tu sampaikan semua orang ckp "oi dah keje tuka2 la wallet tu...". lalu saya kata "nanti kawen aku tuka la. kalo xtuka2 tu maknanya tak kawen2 la" hehe. sbnrnya malas nk tuka. sayangla.. pakai dr form 1 lg :P

7. saya bercita2 mahu menjahit sesuatu utk anak & suami saya. hehe. pelik sungguh impian ini...

maka dgn ini saya dgn rasminya memanjangkan tag ini kepada sesiapa yg rasa dirinya bekerja di opis yg sama dgn saya. sekian terima kasih.

6. kisah Aunty E
tak tau la nak cerita cemana. tp summarynya camni lah:

Aunty E: aku mmg xnk menyusu anak aku, ada sebab2 tertentu.
Mommy: OK lah.
Aunty E: & aku takkan BF hanya sbb nak 'please'kan orang2 macam kau (BF mommies la tu)
Mommy: OK lah.
Aunty E: & aku harap kau teruskanlah usaha 'mendakwahi' ibu2 menyusu semoga satu hari nanti orang2 mcm aku akan tabah utk menyusu anak.
Mommy: baiklah.
Aunty E: aku pecaya semorang termasuk aku bole menyusu sbb ko ckp mak angkat pon bole menyusukan.
Mommy: ye lah.
Aunty E: ko doakanlan ibu2 seperti aku terbuka hati utk berusaha menyusukan.
Mommy: amiin
[dialog Mommy terpaksa dipotong atas sbb2 tertentu]

7. A fake Mommy
PLEASE DON'T PM ME ANYMORE. TQ :)

8. luahan jer...
ada sorang makcik yang sgt bangga dgn KEGEMUKAN anaknye suka2 hati je kutuk anak orang kurus cam xckp makan. heh. bukan GEMUK sgt pon anak dia yg umur 1bln+ tu... level average jer. in fact Hafiy lg berat ms umur 1bln. rekod: Hafiy 1bln 5kg, anak dia yg GEMUK tu 4.2kg. lahir sama berat. wah GEMUKnya!!! sungguh GEMUK sekali anak dia. hehe.

*kepada Aunty Tij sorila x infom datang KLCC. i tot u were at PG. adooh. sooo sooorrryy!!!
**nak shopping! nak shopping! (window je..)
***Abg Acif, Hafiy xtau la bila bole p SA tu. alaaa.. nak jalan2.. huhu

when the lights go out

last nite during blackout, all of us gathered in the living room, with Bibik (there was only one torch light available & Bibik was afraid of darkness :D). this is the very first time all of us had leisure chat with her. we sat & chat, and also discussed about her salary.

she told us what hafiy does everyday while we're away to work.

• mintak naik bilik atas. the on with 'HAFIY'sticked on the door. suka betul lepak situ panas2.
• tgk cermin sambil goyang2 & pusing muka ala2 model. Bibik said "cover boy".
• gerak2 tgn bila tgk burung.
• when Bibik says "diam" terus diam, "tidur" terus pejam mata "minum" terus isap susu.
• jam 5.30ptg dh start tengok luar rumah, tgk pintu, tgh gate, xsenang duduk :D
• suka duduk atas riba Bibik. Bibik said "manja".
• suka borak2 ngan Bibik.
• pandai tunjuk2 nak apa.
• bole duk dalam buai provided kene ayun2 setiap masa.

when with Mommy

24/7 nak bekepit & meraung kalo letak even baru 0.01 saat duk kat bawah.

while Bibik was telling us the story, Hafiy was babbling non-stop like telling "Bibik please don't tell everything to Mommy & Abiy! Bibik, please stop it!Bibik no!". sweet kan? he never be like that. dgn Mami tahu nk bekepit & melalak saja.

i remembered story about Aunt Fid's Akif. i told Abiy about these babies who don't like to reveal their potential to their parents. Abiy said:

there are 2 types of babies. independent and dependent. dependent babies like things such as "wah pandainya anak Mama","bijaknya anak Mama","wah anak Mama dah pandai ****". but independent babies are different. those statement would make them 'ah, malas la nk buat, igt orang teringin sgt ke nk buat' like that la.

wow wow wow. so my baby is an independent type :D

Abiy said, it is more challenging to layan independent babies. silap layan they'll get bored & xnk buat apa2. last2 jadi malas.... ya Allah please give us strength...

about the blackout, what worried me most was .. MY STOCK! oh it is not easy to collect such amount of bottles. furthermore, i'm facing production drop at the lowest limit level these days :( igt senang ke nk collect susu~ wooo~~~~

i kept on praying for the electricity to come back. oh my susuuu ;(( huwaaaa!!!

alhamdulillah, fortunately after 4 hours of darkness, the light was back! and my susu safe :D

for the contingency plan, i'll prepare lots and lots of ice and ice pack in my freezer. oh the stock is something that have to be seriously preserved.

actually i dont like blackout. but there's so much stories revealed and things to discussed.

tonite will be another strong storm forecasted. hopefully everything will be OK. last nite our neighbour's roof was blown by the storm, trees along Pujut 7 road were fallen, and a row of cars at offshore's stophouse were wreck :(

Aksi Terlampau Seorang Hafiy

gimme that pie!


ahhh lega~

a baby is a good observer and absorber. gosh it's really true! Hafiy, doesn't like to eat his baby food, or any food for babies, including the baby biscuit. bubur nasik toksah cakaplah. at first, i tot it was a 'food phobia' coz during his illness he vomited just after having some spoons of bubur beras bario. but today i knew it wasn't that, but he wants to have what we have.

we went to a dinner, sponsored by psro, (isnt it?) at a hotel. i didn't bring any of his food coz at home, he said no-no to anything. but during the dinner he was like 'wow, food!' to everything. i gave him some fruits, and he mashed it with his gum until i felt scare of him might be choking. Abiy put a japanese beancurd (please dont tell me whether it's suitable or not suitable for baby, in 'darurat' you will do anything) on a fork and he was like "gimme that!" and he grabbed the beancurd with his hand. omg i tried to put him off the dining hall but it didn't work. so i took a piece of potato and mashed it in a bowl (suggested by TJ) but he refused and still hunting for the 'beancurd with fork'.

and last nite we went to Bintang Mall's Mc D. i didnt know where did he learn to drink using straw. until Abiy had to do some mitigation plan by pressing the straw (like in the picture) to hinder the coke from flowing into his mouth.

i knew it's not unique. everybaby goes through this stage. but we have to do something to make him loves food that suitable for him.

some might say "bagi je la apa dia nak.." but for us, we are parents and our child(ren) is only a baby. he makes decision based on impulse, not values. and we, as parents should teach him the values. a little child has no life experience, and no knowledge, so we can't expect them to do correct things at the first time. we should guide them to do things correctly.

another example, if a child likes to koyak2 buku. we shouldn't stop providing him books so that the wont koyak2 anymore, instead, provide him with suitable books for koyak2 like old magazine or supermarket catalogue, and keep on telling him that 'this book is for us to read, not to koyak2' or from the perca2, we can work on it together to make a craft or whatever. so the child knows the value and avoid them to label 'koyaking buku is prohibited, fullstop', instead 'buku is to be read not to be koyaked'.

remember that we are the parents, and the decisions lay on us. even Rasulullah once said, a baby born as a white clothe, and parents paint him to be a Muslim, a Jew or a Christian.

to have kids is easy, but to be parents, is a little bit tougher. er.. i mean, good parents.

My Baby, Your Baby

mula2 kita bukak buku...


...pastu kita belek buku...


...dan masukkan dalam mulut supaya kita cepat pandai.

i don't know why but i'm a bit sensitive when people, especially other mothers talk about my child, like this:

"lambatnye anak kau, takpe nanti dia ***** la tuh. anak aku dah ***** ms x bln lg"
"tak ***** lagi ye? takpe jgn risau.. anak aku..."
"takleh ***** lagi? sabar... nanti sampai la masanya. anak aku.."
"belum **** lagi? dah berapa bulan? saba ek. anak aku..."
etc.
and samting like .. "anak aku ni umur baru 6 bulan dah 7kg, berat betul, sihat & tembam sgt dia xmacam baby2 lain" (hello, so many babies yg weighted 7kg at 3-4month, not even 6 month pon..)
[fill in **** with anything a baby should do]

should i tell everyone that I DON'T REALLY CARE about my child's PHYSICAL development as COMPARED to other babies? as i never said "risaulah.. Hafiy belum ****, dia dah x bulan dah, tak macam anak orang tu". as far as i can remember, i just said "Hafiy x bulan tp belum *** lagi". i dont know but i don't really like the word "sabar ye.." (even if they just berbasa-basi, not saying it seriously), it seems like i can't accept the uniqueness of my own baby.

even, if you read in ANY child's development's books or webbies, there are clauses (some has no) mentioning that 'this is only a general guide, everybaby has his own time to reach each milestone'. what in the books or webbies, are the guides for us (parents) to expect what is happening to our babies in order to get to know them better, and as benchmarks to encourage them to acquire suitable skills for their ages. so that we won't train a 5-month-old baby to walk. infant development is an art, and no science.

i don't care if any mom brags about her baby's advance development, but it just becomes a bit 'sour' when she starts to compare and compete with others & mine. so what? if your child can talk at age of 7 month, will he be the next prime minister, and mine, not? if your child can roll at age of 1.5 month, will he be a CEO of something, and mine, not? will something like 'walk at age of 9 month' be in his resume? ok, just boast about it, but please don't see other babies who are a bit 'later' like 'has no future'.

yes, parents should help and encourage their babies to reach certain milestones, but still up to the baby's own pace of developmental. we should proud with our childrens' milestone no matter how long it takes them to reach there, and that this is not a competition. i just let my child (beside encouragement) cos i knew that he will walk, talk, and whatever at the right time of his. so what, if he can crawl at age of 6 month, he still can't help me doing house chore etc, but give me extra time to monitor his movement, to ensure everything is safe. i am very happy with what he is now, he doesn't creep nor crawl, so i don't have to kejar2 him :D but the most important thing, he's healthy and happy, and i take care of everything about him.

some beneficial webbies:
milestone @babycentre
development @medline plus

check for development delay & signs of slow development:
@kidsgrowth.com
@unicef.org
@umich.edu
@babycentre

personally, i like this kind of conversation:

A: anak u dh bole ape?
B: dah belajar jalan.
A: wah yeke? anak i baru merangkak.
B: mesti suka kutip barang kan. anak i dh pandai pegang2 bunga i.
A: tula dia suka masuk mulut semua benda.
B: dia nkwat eksperimen kot. anak i bole panggil Mama.
A: pandainya! anak i dah pandai makan sendiri.
A&B : hehehe.
[it's just like a FYI je kan? both are updating about their own babies je]

and i don't enjoy this one:

C: anak u dah bole ape?
D: duk bergolek2.
C: br bergolek? bukan dia tua dr anak i ke? anak i dah merangkak.
D: yeke.
C: u sabarlah ye. mungkin anak u cepat kat tempat lain. tak lama lagi merangkak la dia tu... [adakah ibu D berkata dia tidak sabar?]
D: takpe... tp dia dah boleh panggil Mama.
C: ha? dah boleh panggil Mama? cepatnye! anak i duk aaaa-aaa je lagi. nape ek? alamak, kenapa anak i takleh panggil Mama lg? risaunya... ada poblem ke anak i ni? [adakah awak fikir budak2 ini adalah robot yg sudah diset dengan program yg sama?]

*cerita2 di atas cuma rekaan, tiada kaitan dgn yg hidup & yg telah tiada, atau yg hidup segan mati tak mahu.

to me, as long as my little baby child(ren) is happy, healthy, and response time is good, i don't have any reason to worry about his weight or why doesn't he crawl at 7 month young :D and never ever think or say that our babies are 'loser', 'slow', 'later', etc. those words are for us, their mommies. if you think your baby is having problem in developmental, go to see the doctor, don't compare him with others, & never say that in front of him. never say "anak i ni slow la" while he's listening (even if we think he doesn't understand but baby absorbs). would we like to see our kids be 'slow' for the rest of their life?

i guess as a mommy i should:

• pray for them
• encourage not push
• don't compare (even though between siblings)
• never compete
• provide the best platform for my babies to develop their senses
• give them time
• let them grow naturally
• encourage their EQ & IQ
• nurture them
• help them to find their utmost potential first, then my expectation
• ... and the list goes to infinity]

& remember that Albert Einstein didn't talk until he was 4.

Selamat Hari Pekerja

sempena hari pekerja (terasa diriku dihargai) & menjawab tag Mama Ryan yuk kita jenguk workstation Mami...

segan sebenarnya Mami nak tayang workstation Mami ni. sebab keadaannya tak ubah seperti sebuah kapal yang baru mengalami perpecahan. hehe.

sebelum tu meh tengok apebendenye ni...

ini adalah mata gerudi yg digunakan untuk menggali minyak nun jauh di dalam tanah. Mami pun tak pernah tengok cemana derang buat kat offshore, setakat belajar teori & tengok pakcik Bruce and geng buat dalam Armageddon je :P

manakala ini adalah crude oil atau minyak mentah. hitam legam je kalernya sebelum disaring di refinery menjadi minyak petrol dan minyak2 yg seangkatan dengannya. dalam each bottle tu diambik dari field yg berbeza2. ntah, Mami pun tak tau sgt sebab bukan kerja Mami.

[Mami pon xtau bole ke tak amik gambar benda2 ni. sambil2 tunggu Abiy Mami snap je. tp xde pon tulis 'dilarang mengambik gamba'. kire halal la..]

alah seganla nk tunjuk tempat Mami duduk hari2... tak menarik langsung. hehe.


ini ler pandangan Mami hari2. kat softboard tu ada Mami tempek reminder & to-do list, di samping name tag masa pegi OGA kat KL dulu (kenangan terindah dalam kerjaya haha) & gamba Mami amik cenderahati dari GM. hehe. gamba Hafiy xde satupon Mami tampal. Mami simpan kat henpon je. saja je nak nampak macam tak tawen lagi... hihihihihihi.


meja Mami dari jarak jauh. sangat open dan feng shui tidak berapa sesuai untuk membuat kerja2 haram yang tidak disuruh oleh company :P nampak beg susu kat belakang tu... yesterday masa checking kat gate pak gad tanye "apa dalam beg tu" Mami jawab "susu" tekejut dia, "ha? susu???" dengan selamba Mami menjawab lagi "a ah... susu baby :D"


ni dari jarak dekat jika Mami palingkan muka dari PC. dr zaman sekolah, sampai uni, sampaila sekarang macam ni la meja Mami. macam ni senang Mami nak cari barang. kalo susun2 elok2 mesti payah nak jumpe. hehe. itu pulak pembaris faveret Mami sebab dia besar & ada calculator sekali. & itu pen faveret Mami sebab dia free. hehe.

itu saja. xpayahla tahu lebih2 pasal tempat kerja Mami. cuti2 ni mari kita rehatkan minda daripada memikirkan tentang objeck legap itu.

main dengan Hafiy lagi best.

tapi cemanapun, Mami kene bekerja dengan dedikasi dan ikhlas. nanti ape plak jadi pada gaji Mami yg dipakai untuk menyara family... huhu. walaupun perasaan Mami adalah *@#$@#@* tapi Mami try to serve the nation ;) walaupun Mami cuma kuli sekuman, tidak berjawatan tinggi & peranan Mami kecik je, tapi kalo Mami takde, engineers sumer x boleh nak buat projek2 gali minyak sekaligus tak boleh nak menyumbang kepada pendapatan negara :D betapa pentingnya Mami-mu ini! --kata2 memujuk hati.

bak kata janitor di NASA "i'm not a janitor but i involve in sending people to the moon" [betul ke dia ckp camtu ek, belasah saje lah].

oh ye... hari ni juge adelah ulangtahun ke-3 'perkenalan' Mami-Abiy & ulangtahun ke-2 'pertunangan' Mami-Abiy. :D

jika anda rasa saya kacak, maka laksanakanlah tag ini :D