Series of Good News

gimme 5, Mommy!

should i call these.. good news?

1. my 5-month attachment at KL started next Monday. yeay!
it's not about going to KL (with Hafiy, Adik & Bibik) and leaving Abiy alone here, but as a makan gaji (at least to me) it is important to have career progression. at least doing something i'm interested in, rather that goes to work just because I HAVE to. at least i can be happily working lah!

tp ini agak hectic juga sebab br dpt confirmation early this week. barang satu hapah pun tak kemas lagi. our flight will be on Saturday afternoon, and belah paginya kene pegi cucuk JE Hafiy 2nd dose & check up Adik sambil collect surat utk check up kat KL beserta kad merah.

2. Mami dapat idea utk stok2 susu itu!
pening jugak Mami pikirkan apa nak buat dengan stok2 susu yg banyak itu (sila jeles ye ibu2 :P). akhirnya sesiteri & bos2 telah menjamin bahawa the 5 months attachment wont be a solid 5 months, every 2-3 weeks akan balik Miri, so stok2 itu akan terus di sini, digunakan bila kita balik Miri kelak. yahuuu!

dan pembelian deep freezer utk stok baru di KL bakal diteruskan sebab peti ais kat umah Tok Pa, masya-Allah dah fully occupied!

3. pam baru Mami dah sampai!
disebabkan demand makin bertambah dan bakal bertambah, Mami telah mengorder sebuah double pam. dan sekarang dia dah sampai!!! tapi Mami tak poskan ke sini sbb takut tak sempat sampai. so skg beliau ada di KL. oh sungguh tidak sabar!

dan benda yg paling menghappykan Mami hari ni sampai tersengih2 hingga ke telinga:-

4. our GM approve for 'Mother's Room!'
oh Mami sungguh tak sangka beliau adalah seorang yg pro-BF. in fact, all his 5 kids were breastfed! and ada yang sampai3 tahun lebih! Mami ingat akan jadi isu juga bila Mami nak mintak bilik for Mother's Room. tapi ceritanya begini...

bertempat di bilik tamu, dalam office GM, jam 5.45pm

Mami : encik B, skg kan kat ofis kita ramai mothers... (sambil amik proposal dalam file)
encik B hensem* : oh, ni ke proposalnya? let me see. (i didnt ever tell him about it)
Mami : (handing the proposal to him).
encik B hensem* : good2. i really support BF. in fact i believe all mothers should BF. all my kids pun BF. my wife & i a bit orthodox. we believe in BF & dont rely on susu lembu ni (:D)
(dan seterusnya sehingga..)
encik B hensem* : do you mind using my pantry? i pun tak pakai. kat situ ada peti, sinki segala.
Mami : boleh boleh! but i oredy draft a plan for our pantry aje.
encik B hensem* : why dont you use *****nita's room?
Mami : takde fridge & sinki la encik B.
encik B hensem* : takpe... i bole belikan.
(finally...)
encik B hensem* : tell all your friends, GM dah approve!
*sekalisekala bodek boss :P

YAHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
alhamdulillah.
i never expect he's a pro-BF ones. i met my dept head before, he was a bit sceptical la pasal expressing milk at work. byk soal.. but the GM takde soalan cuma full support!!!
Mami kagum jugak sikit2 dengan dia. he's a GM yet very humble. his wife still is working, and pakai Honda City je. oh OK, maybe our GM's paycheck is not as huge as other company's GM :)
saya sangat sukaaa!!!!

Selamat Hari Pekerja

sempena hari pekerja (terasa diriku dihargai) & menjawab tag Mama Ryan yuk kita jenguk workstation Mami...

segan sebenarnya Mami nak tayang workstation Mami ni. sebab keadaannya tak ubah seperti sebuah kapal yang baru mengalami perpecahan. hehe.

sebelum tu meh tengok apebendenye ni...

ini adalah mata gerudi yg digunakan untuk menggali minyak nun jauh di dalam tanah. Mami pun tak pernah tengok cemana derang buat kat offshore, setakat belajar teori & tengok pakcik Bruce and geng buat dalam Armageddon je :P

manakala ini adalah crude oil atau minyak mentah. hitam legam je kalernya sebelum disaring di refinery menjadi minyak petrol dan minyak2 yg seangkatan dengannya. dalam each bottle tu diambik dari field yg berbeza2. ntah, Mami pun tak tau sgt sebab bukan kerja Mami.

[Mami pon xtau bole ke tak amik gambar benda2 ni. sambil2 tunggu Abiy Mami snap je. tp xde pon tulis 'dilarang mengambik gamba'. kire halal la..]

alah seganla nk tunjuk tempat Mami duduk hari2... tak menarik langsung. hehe.


ini ler pandangan Mami hari2. kat softboard tu ada Mami tempek reminder & to-do list, di samping name tag masa pegi OGA kat KL dulu (kenangan terindah dalam kerjaya haha) & gamba Mami amik cenderahati dari GM. hehe. gamba Hafiy xde satupon Mami tampal. Mami simpan kat henpon je. saja je nak nampak macam tak tawen lagi... hihihihihihi.


meja Mami dari jarak jauh. sangat open dan feng shui tidak berapa sesuai untuk membuat kerja2 haram yang tidak disuruh oleh company :P nampak beg susu kat belakang tu... yesterday masa checking kat gate pak gad tanye "apa dalam beg tu" Mami jawab "susu" tekejut dia, "ha? susu???" dengan selamba Mami menjawab lagi "a ah... susu baby :D"


ni dari jarak dekat jika Mami palingkan muka dari PC. dr zaman sekolah, sampai uni, sampaila sekarang macam ni la meja Mami. macam ni senang Mami nak cari barang. kalo susun2 elok2 mesti payah nak jumpe. hehe. itu pulak pembaris faveret Mami sebab dia besar & ada calculator sekali. & itu pen faveret Mami sebab dia free. hehe.

itu saja. xpayahla tahu lebih2 pasal tempat kerja Mami. cuti2 ni mari kita rehatkan minda daripada memikirkan tentang objeck legap itu.

main dengan Hafiy lagi best.

tapi cemanapun, Mami kene bekerja dengan dedikasi dan ikhlas. nanti ape plak jadi pada gaji Mami yg dipakai untuk menyara family... huhu. walaupun perasaan Mami adalah *@#$@#@* tapi Mami try to serve the nation ;) walaupun Mami cuma kuli sekuman, tidak berjawatan tinggi & peranan Mami kecik je, tapi kalo Mami takde, engineers sumer x boleh nak buat projek2 gali minyak sekaligus tak boleh nak menyumbang kepada pendapatan negara :D betapa pentingnya Mami-mu ini! --kata2 memujuk hati.

bak kata janitor di NASA "i'm not a janitor but i involve in sending people to the moon" [betul ke dia ckp camtu ek, belasah saje lah].

oh ye... hari ni juge adelah ulangtahun ke-3 'perkenalan' Mami-Abiy & ulangtahun ke-2 'pertunangan' Mami-Abiy. :D

jika anda rasa saya kacak, maka laksanakanlah tag ini :D

it's all about work

in office
we're entering our new financial year. gosh this must be a tight year for me [after a year of honeymoon last year :P].

it's so stressful. but still happy cos i still manage to pump 4 times during the not-so-happy hour and collect 16oz per day :D [not that much for 4 sessions, but alhamdulillah~]

i think i need a break. oh please... it might looks very simple to some people, but to me, it is sooo... stressful!

& i'm collaborating with Ummi Iman 'Iffah, preparing a proposal to have a Mother's Room in our office. still in draft. hopefully we'll get one.

out of office
we're planning to form our playgroup. it could be a simple activity, mom-to-mom and parent-to-parent sharing. we're still working on it.

O Allah please give me enough time to prepare everything and work my plans [i mean, enough courage to re-arrange my time].

Pumping with my Lord

things needed:
a set of telekung
a praying mat
a book of al-Quran or translation
a set of pumping gear

favorable place:
in a surau or any quite, private space

time:
morning pumping session

step by step:
1. take wudhu'
2. wear telekung
3. prepare the praying mat, to the Qiblat
4. perform dhuha
5. prepare pumping gear
6. get the Quran or translation
7. start pumping
8. read the Quran or translation throughout the pumping

benefit:
1. while i'm away & he is not on breastfeeding, he still gets the barkah from my milk, insya-Allah.
2. i get all the benefits, for my body and soul.
3. i have ample time for dhuha & reading the Quran.
4. i pump with my Lord!
and many more...

Mommy's First Day At Work

nite before:
Abiy took us out for a treat at Pizza Hut [actualy i was the one who asked him to, haha]. konon2 to celebrate my very last day of being a SAHM.

on the way to Bintang, you were already ek ek ek.. but Mommy told Abiy "alah xpe.. nanti dia OK la" because i reeeaaaallllyyy wanted to eat pizza! [plus, so laaaaazy to cook :P].

at Pizza.

after we made order and everything, you started jebik2.. and HUWAAAA! Mommy tried to calm you, check your diaper, dokong2 around the mall, offer BM, peluk2, gosok2, tepuk2, etc. etc. but nothing worked. until the whole Bintang gamat dengan suara ini budaks. sidaknya di sia duk nanga kitak teriak2. and finally, i asked Abiy to bungkus & balit saja.

you cried non-stop all the way home, and at home also non-stop for 2 and half hour. ADA SIK URANG BOLE MADAH KENAK BUDAK TOK MELALAK SIK MOK BERENTI2!!! wah, kamek nang sik pandai kelaka Sarawak!

Mami masa tu memang dah tak tau ape nak buat dah. macam2 dah buat. abis baca sumer ayat2 dah. tak stop2 jugak. and finally guess what made you stop crying...?

ITOK!!!

mengamuk nk bace buku ropenya nya tok...

after dapat itu baru la diam. wah sungguh ajaib. sejuk rasa perut Mami. hehe. then terus diam & bole la lepak2.

maka bole la Mami prepare for the next day...

• blend segala bawang2, put in closed tupperware & store in fridge
• sweep the floor, tidy up the house
• iron the clothes
• pump the milk as usual

the stok tongganglanggang in my freezer.

• preparing the pumping gear & get the fridge2go frozen enough

bottles, pump and the plug.

• update my schedule

but Hafiy waited for me to go to bed. only at 12.30am both of us went to sleep.

the next morning:
i woke you up at 6.30am. bathed you, and dress you up. but failed to BF you cos you already started your puasa. Mommy went out with my pumping gear, a 'handbag' and a company diary. and my new clothes, kurung kedah so that it's easier to me to breastfeed you in the noon.

departed to Permyjaya at 7.05am. it was a bit late, so we couldn't singgah lama2. our office hour started at 7.30am.

in the office, the first thing i reported my duty to HR department. make sure that they're gonna key-in my salary for this month. suda keringgggg.... then got back to my workstation. nothing changed [beselerak mcm biasa], but my PC changed. got a new ones!

i didn't have 'meroyan' on the first day, instead, 'semangat' mau kerja... cos my project now become a sampah-like, nyawa2 ikan & i have to bring it back to live before this financial year ends [sabar.. sabar..]. OK, it'll be like a phoenix, rebirthing from sampahashes.

okay this time, despite the i- really- don't- like- this- j*b, despite the i- really- don't- like- this- and- that, now Mommy don't care anymore. smile! i just came with a new spirit of 'SERVING THE NATION'. hey this industry contributes 40% of the government's $$$ what.

Mommy went to Permyjaya to breastfeed you, but you didn't drink much. sikit2 jugak. so Mami think the next day i don't have to go anymore la. jauh OK. after the breastfeeding i still have to pump, at 11.30am before went to lunch. and again at 3.00pm. just got 10oz total, maybe cos i didn't drink much water and a bit dehydration. oh tomorrow should bring my water tumbler!

overall, today is a 'flatten' day since i took my loooong leave. me at work were OK, no 'homesick' [and even if i had, i can go home/to Permyjaya anytime!], very high spirit to re-start my job & look for opportunity to change position [oh see how macho i am!]. tired, but still i rewarded myself, by baking apple shortbread [tak jadi ponnn! tp OK la, abis jgk kutelan] and nasi ayam. so penat yg amat & Mommy so tak larat to layan you tonite. alhamdulillah you're so understanding & not merengek2. thanks honey...

everybody in the house in a good position...

Back 2 Work Rehearsal

Mommy's gonna back to work in a week! gosh i bet this is the most miserable moment after being a mother - leaving my boy with someone else... and HAVE TO work! hmm.. i like working, but need ample time to switch back my biological into working lifestyle.

Mommy started bottle-training again (stopped since last week cos Mommy so lazy to wash the bottles - have to change to suitable bottles every time, one session only but 3-4 bottles needed!)
. alhamdulillah it was better than ever - only 2 bottles. huh! but the result was still unchanged la. minum main2. takes more than an hour to finish 2 oz milk. you 'play' with botol susu like playing with your teether. gigit2 jer...

alah, konon sibuk nk pegang sendiri... bukan nk minum betul2 pun.

and this morning Mommy sent you to Makcik Ana. we afraid if you refused to be left with stranger. but after been advised by Auntie Anne (teringat pretzel Auntie Anne's :P), we decided to send you only half day for today and another 2 full days. Thursday & Friday stay at home with Mommy, yeay!!!

siap2 pagi2 lagi kuar pegi Permyjaya.


eh apsal muka tensen ni?


close up muka tak puas hati.

on the way to Makcik Ana's house, Mommy told you to not to be notty, don't cry-cry, drink from bottle and don't make Makcik Ana's life horrible. hahak. Mommy left you with:

- a bag of diapers with wet tissue and nappies.
- 2 pair of clothes with towel in case you need for change.
- toileteris.
- 4 containers with 16oz frozen milk.
- your rattle and teether.
- & Mommy's love.

you were such a good boy. you didn't cry any tears, even better, you laugh when playing with Makcik Ana's kids. so it made Mommy's heart become release. so Mommy don't have to worry much about leaving you there, just for your bottle-feeding. Mommy's still waiting a call from Makcik Ana. hehe. Mommy hope you're OK drinking from bottle :)

can't wait for this afternoon, i want to pick you home!

*oh yes, yesterday Uncle Dayat came to visit you. but Mommy didn't take any picture cos my hp went out of battery. maybe we can check at his blog? he took several pictures... ;)

Happy 2 Month & Mommy's Dream

then


now

happy 2 month old sayang Mami!

Mommy just wanna jot a quick update about your 2 month's celebration:
- you slept at 2am.
- you cried when i asked you to sleep but you laugh everytime Mak Tok said "ni ape kuweh-kuweh mlm2 ni? nak jual kuih ke?" tak fahamla Mami. if only i could snap a picture...
- you didn't wake up throughout the nite. unless a big scream at 3.25am. but went back to sleep after i pat your butt. mengigau?

kepala sapa paling besar?

however, at 2 month you:
- recognize people around you. you start to mengada2 everytime Mak Tok & Tok Ayah are home. wanna talk to Tok Ayah & want Mak Tok to dodoi2. you cry if you don't get. ape dah...
- able to 'creep' [should i say menggelungsur] from Mommy's body everytime i put you on my chest and lay your body beside me. without assistance!
- able to seek for Mommy's tits. now Mommy don't have to put the nip into your mouth during latching on. you know how and where to find.
- confidently know what you want especially feeding. you'll scream if Mommy offer you food, you rather ask it by yourself. tgh2 lapa pn xaccept offer, nk mintak sdr jugak.
- sleep soundly in AC. everytime i switch the AC off, you'll scream. aduila... umah Miri manader ekonla sayang....
- can stay alone. you don't cry if i leave you alone. erk, sometimes...
- like to play with Mommy's nip. lick, suck and leave. lick, suck and leave...
- need new clothes..
- still the cutest! oh this is undeniable.

kurus tak Mami? kurus kan? ehehe..

Mommy's dream:
if only i serve the government, i might take the 5-years-unpaid leave for that purpose. but it's unfortunate, i am not a government servant, and i can't take the leave longer than what i'd apply, cos i am the one who is responsible to run a big project in our region, and i have to go back ASAP to continue it (now it's handed over to my Section Head).

i guess everymom (or should i say, every working mom?) when given option, whether to work or stay at home, may choose the second one. so do i. but i have two biggest reasons why i can't. first, i have another 8 years to complete my 10-years scholarship bonding with the company. second, i have to help Abiy in complementing our family's income. as an office-based staff, he doesn't get extra allowance. we can live, but without any saving if i don't work. our company doesn't give us any big salary as what people usually think. even our GM gets the lowest amongst other companies' GM (right, ibu emir? :P).

i feel jealous sometimes, to any mommy who ables to stop working and stay at home. and i feel hard to struggly working, because i NEED to work, not i WANT to work. now, even if i don't like my position or whatnot, i still have to do my job, to be unconditionally happy and put the highest target in my career. and i have to struggly maintain my reputation even if i'm not happy with that. and i can't lose the job, because of reasons i mentioned above.

but, on top of that, i put a target to retreat from this struggle office work at my 35, which is 10 years from now. doesn't mean that i wanna quit job but i don't wanna struggle just because of my 'rice pot' is there. i wanna be happily working, without stress and risk of being fired (fire by laser) by 'discontented' bosses. to get there, needs lots of hard work and sacrifice. dare to take the challenge?

by the way, we'll soon have a maid. the drastic decision came when our most precious auntie refused to follow us and we failed to find any babysitter who lives near to our office or at least on our way from home to the office. i want you to stay as close to me as possible coz i wanna breastfeed you during lunch hour, everyweekday. then i come out with so-called breastfeeding schedule once i go back to work (other than your own demand):-

first feeding - 4.am - when we wake up for Subuh.
(in between if you request).
7.am - before go to work.
12.pm - lunch hour.
4.30pm - after come back from office.
(in between depend on your demand).
last feeding - 12.am - before go to bed.

i hope:-
-our maid is a good one.
-my boss ain't fussy and understand needs of a bf mom.
-you love ebm as you love direct feeding.
-i have time to prepare and achieve my target when we're home and i start working.
-i can go back to structural engineering line.
-everything works as planned.

and....

KK Trip and Abi's Leaving

early this week mommy got an invitation (invitation? should be an assignment) to attend a meeting at Kota Kinabalu. it'a a meeting to gather my counterparts from Kerteh & Kota Kinabalu and i in order to discuss further about our regional projects.

with this heavily pregnant tummy, everybody was worried when i said that i'm going to KK before the weekend. "you can fly ah?", "you shouldn't fly in this condition", "how many months are you?" etc were the common questions and opinion. hehe.

to make everybody happy (especially the airline company) i rushed to the clinic a day before the trip, taking a letter from Dr. Aida, ensuring that i still can fly. anyway we were there to check my continuous painful-braxton hicks (it was very painful especially at night and made me feel so uneasy of having early delivery), the doctor was a bit worry and she said if the pain is still and intense, please rush to the hospital. however, after the meeting (actually only a telecon, the doctor had already go out for lunch), i could feel no more pain. hmm.. maybe you just miss dr aida or just mengada2..

that night, abi cook for us. a very special nasi goreng. actually i love abi's cooking, especially his nasi goreng. very cukup-rasa, its salty, spicy, creamy, :D he made it with love.

yummy2~~

flight from Miri to KK is limited, only 2 trip per day, early morning and at night. i took night flight cos had something to do in the office. the meeting started that night but unfortunately i couldn't make it earlier.

for the first time i need a letter to fly, beside my passport and ticket.

i was accompanied by kak syikin (not sure whether she is a 'Kak' or just my age, but i like to call her kak syikin :P) we reached at KK Airport at 9.55pm, the rushed to sutera harbour. we were late for that session's meeting. then we just lepak2 in our room, sooo very the penat!

L-R: somebody is sleeping soundly inside. our room at Pacific Sutera.

i dunno what time we were able to close our eyes. and you were not very active, maybe because of the journey. and the tiredness gave me a very bad dream. then woke up late for the next's morning meeting :P

because of the limited flight, we have to cut short our discussion. a-day-long to 3-hour-long. how efficient. actually, it was a great pleasure, giving us time to go shopping!

L-R: dry food at the pasar beside Filipino Market (the gantung2 one are gamat kering. Uncle Tuk holding a gamat.

wished to have a walk throughout the resort, but i had to surrender to my exhaustiveness. after having lunch, i slept like a log in the surau. only woke up 2 hours before our flight to Miri. this time i was with Auntie Ola. refreshed ourselves, then we rushed to the airport, prayed for no flight delay.

bad weather on the way, making the plane in turbulence. that was my first time experiencing such that jumping-jumping thing while flying. everybody screamed and i was thinking about 'we are we now? on land or offshore?'.

finally we reached Miri Airport on time. abi fetched us. this could be the last time i carry you to KK.

actually, there's another story. abi's going to KL for a week. he'll fly this Sunday and comes back next Sunday.

i tried to apply for a-week course at KL, so that we can follow Abi. last Tuesday, i already got a confirmation email from the organizer, telling that my participation has been confirmed. great news! suddenly we had many plans in our head, about spending time at KL. but it wasn't long, half an hour later, i got a call from HR saying that there's misunderstanding between them. and followed by another email 'Replaced by Another Person'. this is what orang kampung say 'buang karan'. they just surprised me with good news and shocked me by bad news not more than an hour.

that's mean, we have to stay ALONE for a week. some friends of mine suggested me to follow Abi to KL. it's something impossible for us. if the tambang is RM100 return for sure i'll follow but ours one, RM1000 return! with the money we can buy the best cot form overseas for you.

son, don't be naughty OK. when abi's not around, nobody's looking after us. we have to look after each other, tau!

everything would be fine, insya-Allah. even my painful braxton hicks now disappear. Abi said, you're not going to come out very soon (even if we are approaching the 8th month), you are very smart to wait for 13th october to leave mommy's womb. so, Abi's son have to listen to Abi, tau!