Sick Leave & Tag Compilation

this is my second week of sick leave. my gynae asked whether i wanted to stay in the hospital or at home. i choose home. huhuh. even if i have to endure the strong contraction every night and day. yes, it's contraction that everywoman will experience prior and during childbirth. i was 27 week then, examined to have UTI (urinary tract infection). i had it during Hafiy time, but after taking the medicine, it was OK but this time, seemed like nothing change, and it'd getting worse.

since weekend, everynight, EVERYNIGHT i'll have that i-am-going-to-give-birth like contraction! it just reminiscing laying down on the labour room bed to give birth to Hafiy, last year. but this time i am on my own bed, with Hafiy by my side, and both of us 'scream'. Hafiy is screaming for emem & lullaly and i am screaming to bear the pain. i told you it's not a mild contraction... it's enough to make me menggelupur.

since i am quite 'free' this morning, let's pay the tags debt :P

1. from Kak N

(1) What were you doing 5 years ago?
as a practical trainee at a gas plant in Kerteh.

(2) What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
1- sleep (i can't sleep at night due to the unbearable pain..).
2- fetch Abiy at his office and to have lunch together.
3- sweep the floor.
4- do the dishes and all the things i couldn't do last nite (due to the unbearable pain, i even couldn't sit for dinner).
5- 'try' to call or see my gynae.

(3) What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?
1- popiah simpul kecik.
2- mister potato.
3- any sandwich biscuit.
4- dried fruits.
5- waffle cake.

(4) What are 5 things that you do if you were a billionaire?
1- buy a bungalow at Damansara Country Heights. hahahaha.
2- buy Google Inc.
3- buy Dell Inc.
4- buy YTL Corp.
5- buy other generating income companies those can make me become super billionaire. kah kah kah.

(5) What are 5 jobs you've had? and still doing ?
1- pekebun sayur.
2- driver.
3- engineer.
4- documentation executive.
5- ?????

2. From Dee Hidayah

1 minit yang lalu, apa anda buat?
- minum air barli.

1 hari yang lalu, apa anda buat?
- tido.

1 hari lagi, apa anda akan buat?
- sambung tido lagi.

1 orang yang terakhir menelefon kamu?
- Kak Laily from office, asked about my subordinates' claims.

1 makanan yang baru dibeli?
- biskut.

1 barang yang baru hilang?
- my desktop. tak hilang physically tapi dia dah meninggalkan dunia ini dengan selamat.

1 cerita yang baru ditonton?
- i am not single (baik i buat cerita sendiri).

1 hal yang terakhir digosipkan?
- tentang rakan2 KGB dengan Cheq.

1 kata yang ingin diluahkan?
- "Adik sabarlaa jangan la kuar sekarang & kat sini. jom kita kuar kat Prince Court ek"

1 buku yang sudah dibaca?
- Cashflow Quadrant.

1 penyakit yang sering datang?
- argh!

1 keinginan?
- nak duk umah sendiri dengan family yang bahagia ini...

3. From Sal

Bekas kekasih saya...sekarang sedang menduda sejak beliau bercerai dengan Erra Fazira.

Saya sedang mendengar... bunyi message masuk di handphone.

Mungkin saya patut...tido saja sekarang.

Saya suka belajar... dengan Abiy. Abiy cikgu yang bagus walaupun anak muridnya tak berapa bagus.

Sahabat baik saya...buku. hahaha. tipu saja.

Saya tak faham.....term-term dalam matapelajaran Fizik. sekarang pon kene belek buku balik.

Saya kehilangan...arah.

Ramai yang berkata..."bestnya minyak dah turun!" tanpa mengetahui impak yang besar di sebaliknya terhadap negara.

Makna nama saya...ialah seseorang yang memberi hutang dan mengenakan interest yang tinggi serta bole membunuh kamu juga, iaitu ALONG :D

Cinta itu....hanya difahami oleh orang-orang yang bercinta je.

Di suatu tempat bernama...Kota Bharulah saya dilahirkan.

Saya akan cuba... bekerja dengan tekun dan bersungguh-sungguh demi negara!

Makna "selamanya".... forever.

Handphone saya...adalah hadiah dari Abiy.

Saya paling meluat....dengan orang tu.

Bila saya bangun dari tidur....Hafiy dah bangun.

Party adalah... sesuatu yang konfem ada makanan.

Haiwan yang paling cute adalah...monyet kecik sebesar ibu jari.

Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan adalah...belasan tahun sebab rasa dah besar tapi takde tanggungjawab hehehe.

Hari ini saya rasa sangat tension...sebab saya nak tidur.

Malam ini saya akan cuba... untuk tidak ememkan Hafiy sebelum tidur.

Saya betul2 inginkan... Adik lahir dengan sihat, cukup sifat & saya bole direct feeding dia immediately.

Bila tengok muka kat cermin pagi tadi...saya masih cantik seperti biasa.

Shopping kompleks...yang paling saya suka kat Miri ialah Bintang Mall.

Makanan segera biasanya...jadi makanan ruji kami kat Airport.

Ayat2 terakhir pada orang... OK bye, assalamualaikum!

ok! mari kita pegi bedrest, Dik.

13 Month Hafiy & 26 Week Adik

sejak Mami tinggal Hafiy waktu balik Miri last 2 week, i took a week untuk sesuaikan diri balik dengan Hafiy. OK, i dunno about other kids, tapi Hafiy memang sangat jauh berbeza. sampai hati Mami berkata-kata "betul ke Hafiy anak Mami ni? apsal lain?"

antara kelainan yang Mami dapat rasa (masa mula2 balik):-
- muka makin bulat.
- dah tak bercakap! before Mami tinggal if nak ape2, adalah words yang Mami bole faham, like "em", "mam", "em-mi", "Ma-mi", "nak"... tapi sejak kene tinggal, nak apa2 semua main jerit ke. kena la try & error satu-satu sampai jumpa Hafiy nak apa sebenarnya.
- Hafiy dah taknak bf bila Mami balik kerja. biasanya Mami balik2, terus claim em-Mi, tapi sekarang if Mami offer pun taknak. kalau nak pun, sekadar jaga hati je. 'lick' sikit2 pastu pegi main kat dapur.
- hantu TV ok!

yang lain Mami tak kisah pun, cuma part yang paling last tu, agak down jugaklah bila duk kusyuk join Bibik & Tok Ma tengok drama Malay or Indon. bukan ape, faham-faham la kalo dah tengok drama zaman sekarang ni... and at this age, Hafiy sedang giat mengcopy benda-benda yang ditengok. kalau join Abiy tengok TV takpe, Abiy tengok channel news je :D

malam first Mami sampai, Hafiy nangis-nangis masa nak tido, even if mata dah tak bole buka. macam2 Mami buat, tiup2 segala, bagi emem, semua taknak. last-last... bawak turun... Tok Ma bukak TV. OK.. barula tido! rupa-rupanya masa Mami takde, Hafiy tido kat depan TV.

Mami agak pantang kalau tido kat tempat lain selain bilik, kalau ada bilik. if balik kampung tak boleh buat ape la kan. itu Mami selalu kejut Abiy kalau beliau tertidur depan TV. bukan Abiy je, Tok Pa, Tok Ma & sape2 ajelah yang tertidur depan TV, Mami kejut suh tidur bilik. selain dari keselesaan di atas tilam, kat dalam bilik lebih secure dari ruang tamu. kalau kat ruang tamu tu, orang masuk ke (naudzubillah), terus jumpa kita dulu.

so, start dari malam berikutnya, lepas dinner je, Mami terus 'melarikan' Hafiy ke atas. syukurlah, sekarang if Mami lepak2 sekejap kat bawah, Hafiy dah merengek nak naik atas. kat atas lagi best main kan? Hafiy kan suka main buka-tutup bekas-bekas & main-main barang Mami especially perfume & sikat rambut.

now Hafiy dah big boy, 13 bulan dah. macam-macam perangai lah budak nak membesar.

(1) malam-malam tidur awal tapi midnight bangun, ada la apa-apa yang dikehendaki. malam tadi Hafiy nak main deodoran Mami. mula-mula macam biasa... cap and uncap. lepas tu calit2 kat badan Mami. and finally... nak jilat! oh itu sudah tiada dalam kurikulum penggunaan deodoran. bila Mami simpan balik, Hafiy nangis sekuat hati. offer benda2 lain semua Hafiy geleng. oh Mami tak larat nak layan. biar aje merengek-rengek sampai tidur sendiri.

(2) nak makan sendiri. nak lauk yang orang lain makan. tapi orang-orang tua suka tengok Hafiy makan. derang kata Hafiy pandai makan, tak main sumbat semua. makan suap sikit-sikit, ada lauk, sayur... tapi still la lantai makan lagi banyak. pastu suka suap orang. Mami & ABiy la yang selalu kena suap :D pandai Hafiy ni, nanti boleh suapkan Adik ye...

"mam Abiy, mam..!"

(3) tahu duk dalam toilet. kalau toilet cangkung, Hafiy cangkung. toilet duduk, Hafiy duduk. tapi kita tak ada pelapik toilet untuk toddler. pegi shopping complex je la dapat merasa sesekali...

(4) Hafiy suka selongkar drawer senduk Tok Ma dan peti ais tempat simpan sayur. benda paling disukai, main senduk, bawang dan belacan or asam jawa. kalau orang sibuk kat dapur, Hafiy pun sibuk sama nak tumbuk, nak masak sekali. so kene selalu ada senduk dan pinggan plastik kat tangan.

(5) dan macam-macam lagila perangai budak masuk tahun ke-2 kehidupan.

Mami & Abiy pulak kena ready dengan kerenah-kerenah yang bakal kami hadapi, especially benda2 berkenaan tantrum (why the young toddlers always associate with tantrum?). sekarang pun Hafiy dah menunjukkan ciri-ciri tersebut bila:-

(1) nak dokong tapi Mami suruh jalan. guling-guling kat lantai la jawabnya.
(2) bila nak buat something tapi tak dapat, i.e. tak dapat nak cap-kan botol, nasiblah botol tu kena campak (tapi Hafiy kutip balik dan cuba lagi. good).
(3) bila pegi bookstore, Hafiy suka grab color2 yang ada kat situ, especially water color dalam silinder kecik2 tu. kalau Mami cakap "..letak balik", Hafiy geleng. kalau Mami ambil dari tangan Hafiy, siaplah satu store tu Hafiy jerit.

dah la tu story sal Hafiy.

semalam Mami pegi check up Adik. he is 26 week now (*he, OK). alhamdulillah, Mami have no problem except bleeding gum dan perasaan 'kembang' di pintu gate Adik nak kuar nanti. Dr. Seri recommends Mami jumpa dentist, since Mami tak ada bleeding kat tempat lain i.e. nose, luka2, etc. so takde masalah dengan blood, cuma perkara biasa, during pregnancy gusi akan bengkak sikit. tapi kali ni teruk jugaklah bleeding gum tu, everytime gosok gigi berdarah yang sangat banyak & kadang2 if kumur without gosok gigi pun boleh berdarah. and about the perasaan 'kembang' could be because urat kembang. nanti lepas bersalin baru boleh treat (jika betul).

Dr Seri cakap, Adik agak besar lah. and maybe akan lahir besar. ops... saspen pulak. berat Mami pun naik mencanak2. dari 45kg before pregnant, sampailah 4 bulan 44kg je, 5 bulan jadi 50kg, sekarang dah dekat 54kg! masa Hafiy, full term Mami 55kg... isk isk isk. Mami gemuk! pipi pun kembang semangkuk dah ni.

image dicilok dari BabyCentre. tapi Adik tak duk cam gambar tu lah. kepala Adik kat bawah.

overall, Adik OK. gerak pun OK. plasenta pun kat atas. fibroid pun dah takde. cuma malu sikitlah Adik ni. semalam dua2 tangan tutup muka. Dr Seri suluh2 pun taknak bukak juga. print pun gamba tangan je. hehe. takpelah, nanti lain kali kita suluh lagi.

Mami pun ada tanya Dr Seri pasal GBS (Group B Streptococcus). dia kata, dia cuma akan buat test tu kalau ada simptom saja, like discharge yang luar biasa & dapat detect dari urine test. routinly, dia tak buat lah. Dr Seri cakap Mami, jangan risau ye, you sihat :) alhamdulillah.

tapi Mami lupa mintak surat naik flight. lagi 2 minggu dah 28week, kene ada surat dah nak fly.

sekarang malam-malam before tido Mami cakap-cakap ngan Hafiy sambil pegang perut. "ni Adik.. sayang Adik... Hafiy jaga Adik tau...bla bla bla" reaksi Hafiy? kadang2 kiss perut Mami. kadang2 buat derk je. kadang2 nangis. entah faham ke tidak :P

"Adik? ape tu?

alhamdulillah, kita bakal dapat boy lagi. Abiy dah saspen, takut rumah runtuh pulak. ye lah, dah dua2 boy kan. tapi biasalah budak2, kalau duk diaaaaam je, pelik pulak kan. Mami akan belajar, especially dari Tok Pi. kagum dengan dia. anak dia 3 lelaki berturut2, beza umur 1 & 2 tahun je. walaupun sangat2 playful, tapi sangat2 boleh diharap. usia tadika dah boleh jemur-angkat kain, kemas rumah, bancuh teh, siap bole buat kuih raya lagi. bukan setakat tolong Mak, tapi buat sendiri! biasa yang Mami tengok, budak lelaki usia tadika & tahap 1 sekolah rendah, keje nak main je...

Mami rasa.. mencabar juga lah sebenarnya. especially for Abiy. kawan2 sebaya Abiy baru nak memulakan hidup, baru nak kahwin, dan ramai lagi yang belum kahwin. Abiy dah nak masuk anak ke-2. kalau Mami, ramai dah kawan Mami anak 3-4 orang, so takde la rasa janggal. semoga Allah memelihara keluarga kita. yang penting, Allah bagi kekuatan pada Mami untuk mendidik anak-anak supaya tak menyusahkan orang lain.

bila tengok anak-anak orang (lain) pegi rumah/tempat orang, buat kecoh, buat sepah, etc. sikit sebanyak buat hostnya tak selesa, Mami pun saspen je.... anak-anak Mami behave tau? ameen. insya-Allah. :)

My Miracles

it has been a week since i left Hafiy with Tok Ma in KL. rindu??? mana boleh tak!!! everynite Mami kene tengok gamba2 Hafiy. pastu call Hafiy (ni Hafiy request, if tak, Hafiy tak senang duduk).

since then, Adik started to move very actively (before this like lazy2 je). Mommy noticed that when we're with Abang Hafiy, Adik didn't move like this la. the movement became so obvious (until i could see the waves on my tummy) since we went to Sibu. could be Adik was very happy to see Abiy, and alone with Mommy and Abiy? :P

when looking at Hafiy's pics, i feel like years. how i miss to cuddle him to sleep everynight while breastfeeding him. and having him pulling my hair and ears to wake up everymorning.

Hafiy beraya. no songkok, no samping.

*please excuse the messy room.

macamana nak buka botol ni?


..scribble..scribble...


wow! what a huge wheely! so big my car's tyres never can beat.


what did Mommy put on her face?

rasa macam magic je. time flies too fast until Mommy failed to catch up lots of things. career, personality, my visions&missions, family, children... and lots more... i'm still running to run through and be in line with all the things. ooh my...

sometimes i ask myself, when can i be a good Mommy? selalu tak dapat spend quality time with my own children. i dont want to blame my job, cos other moms also FTWM, yet they manage to do everything with their kids (i'm not that busy pun). even i don't jahit menjahit like Mommy Adam pun... but nape takde time?

nevertheless, i wanna make sure Hafiy can master some early practical life skills (which a 12-MO toddler could have lah, (according to my doc-to-be sister) i never expect too high), what i have in my list (he already has the basic, but yet not systematic):
- washing hands
- washing face
- brushing teeth
- use napkin to dab his mouth
- feeding self
- screwing and unscrewing lid
- walking up and down stairs (some asked us to put safety gate, but i prefer him to learn the skill)
- scribbling
- neatening his belongings

i hope we're (Abiy & i) gonna have more time to show him the right ways to do all those things (even if he WILL say NO to any attempt to assist, is my boy a self-learner?). *this is a silent message to my bosses, that all of us have to stay together as a family.

and introducing....

Abiy said Adik (my tummy) looks tooo big for 5 months.

Hafiy 11 Month & Adik 16 Week

how fast time flies. Hafiy is 11 month old and Adik is 4 month in my womb. we still can’t notice any obvious movement from Adik (though he/she is moving :D). maybe because of puasa so Adik doesn’t kick vigorously lah. and maybe as well because of the fibroid pressing my womb making the space for Adik to kick is limited. but don’t worry Adik will get bigger and press the tumor back, kan Adik?

Hafiy is developing his skills, walking (4-5 steps forward), babbling [mama=Mami, bababa or bebebe=Abiy, mbik=Bibik, nak, byebye (but it sounds weird), mememe (tgh mengamuk],play with his form fitter and rings, putting his toys into its box, combs his hair, put things into laundry basket (not only the clothes but anything available), unwrap the food wrapper. etc. an interesting part is, he likes to water the plant. actually, he just supervises la.. the watering job done by Bibik. everymorning he'll scream, bending body, as a signal to go out and water the plants, so does in the evening (nak jadi petani kot).

since ever Hafiy is so clingy. Bibik has to cook while carrying him. so i asked her to put him aside. if she’s doing tumbuk2, give the lesung to him as well. now that if he goes to kitchen, he’ll ask for the lesung. when she’s on the stove, put Hafiy aside on the kitchen cabinet and give him something to play with, carrots or onion, etc.

now Hafiy knows how to protest and mengamuk guling-guling if anything he wants to 'say', nobody understand or when he doesn't get what he wants. i told Abiy that we should bring him out sometimes, to make him familiar with outside world, and to prevent him from being 'too free to mengamuk guling-guling' outside. Abiy said, maybe after Hafiy could walk independently by himself then we'll bring him out (again).

our activity during Ramadhan is not much. usually i reach home at 5 something, take 5 on my bed, bath, wash the pumping gears and breastfeed Hafiy. then i'll cook for berbuka and spend time with Hafiy while waiting for the azan. at night, i let him play in the bedroom (he has no time to sit back & relax) while watching him. he can do unexpected things without supervision i.e. climbing shelves/cupboard, get something from heigh, etc. when the things go out of control, the only cure is Tom Tom Bak. he'll stay put watching the show before we go to bed. [somebody told me that a good mother won't let her kids watch TV show especially something like Tom Tom Bak. i didn't object, but to me, whatever it is, it's up to the mother's parenting skill. a good person brings something good from shit, but a vice versa turns something good into shit :)].

we are still waiting for Adik to kick (he/she's kicking now neway, it's just i still can't feel him/her). and the dilemma is, how many weeks Adik is? because my period stopped 2 months before i got pregnant, the gynaes only can determine the EDD and the gestation week through ultrasound. last check up, there were 3 differents week, 15, 16 & 17. so i chose the average, 16 week, OK la kan? this maybe not a big deal for others, but for us, we have to plan ahead. i don't want Abiy to miss the birth again!

we might have a big turning moment in our life. i still can't predict what will happen, but Adik's time is definitely tough, unlike Hafiy's. during Hafiy's, everything went well and smooth. this time, so many things happens. hopefully Adik will be tough as well OK.

Carrying Two?

no, i'm not carrying twin.

yesterday Adik & i went to PCMC for our very first regular check up with Dr Seri. she's as friendly as Dr Aida, and a very nice lady. after learning our data, she invited us to the couch for ultrasound.

everything was OK on Adik. but we still couldn't see whether Adik is a she or he. sitting on old man position, Adik was reserving energy by hibernating. Dr Seri said "baby you duk mengerekot ni".

she tried to peep what was between Adik's legs. however, she discovered something else..

"you ada fibroid ke dear?"
"takdepun"
"yes you are. ni ha dia duk tekan rahim you. patutlah space kecik je utk baby. sian Adik tersepit"
"ha??? (shocked)"
"obvious sangat nampak ni kat tepi ovari you"
"then, what should i do now? (blur)"
"nothing to worry.. ia tak effect baby"

went back home, i googled 'fibroid and pregnancy' and sms-ed some friends about fibroid and its effects on my:
- pregnancy
- future conception
- milk!
alhamdulillah all answers i got were positive :) - tp saspen jugak nih -

Cerita Adik

kesian pulak kat Adik, lama tak stori pasal Adik kan. hehe. itula.. Adik diam je, Mami tak ada benda nak cerita. sedar tak sedar dah masuk 2nd trimester.

tapikan... ha... tapikan... Adik ni memanglah... sejak2 masuk 2nd trimester baru la menunjukkan belang.

- Mami dah tak selera makan nasik.
- Mami makin moody dan ada perangai sendiri, suka duk sorang2 & malas layan Abang Hafiy. Adik jeles ke?
- Mami makin malaaaaaassss (hahaha, ini dah memang dari zaman Jopun dulu lagi).
- Mami muntah.
- Mami start craving for fastfood. masa Abang Hafiy dulu nak pizza, pizza, pizza. Adik ni nak KFC, KFC, KFC. tapi jauhla pulak KFC tu.. seminggu sekali je la bole.. Mami jalan kaki pegi KLCC cari KFC.
- maka, Abiy pun start pening kepala sebab dah start musim nak makan fastfood je ni keh3x.

perut Mami dah nampakla sikit (memang dah tersedia boncet pun). tapi orang2 ofis tak perasan lagi Mami pregnant, kecuali Auntie Sya2. tu pon lepas Mami cakap. kat ofis, alhamdulillah, memang rezeki Mami, tiap kali pregnant dapat kerja yang sikiiit je. lepak betul la kat ofis.

Mami tak sabar sebenarnya nak tengok Adik ni, since tak rasa lagi Adik gerak2. cuma rasa krem2 aje. bila Adik nak tendang Mami kuat2 ni. Abang Hafiy dulu 15 minggu dia dah menunjukkan kejantanan. hehe.

minggu ni Mami nak setelkan appoinment kita awal bulan depan. Mami nak tengok ape Adik buat kat dalam ni. ada macam Abang Hafiy dulu tak :) neway Mami & Abiy dah prepare beberapa nama. semua nama girls. haha. yang boy kita amik dari senarai dulu je, tak payah pening2.

cepatla bulan depan... Mami nak tengok Adik!

10 bulan & 11 minggu

alhamdulillah Hafiy dah 10 bulan, and still fully breastfeeding! bangga OK! :)

adik pun dah 11 minggu & Mami masih breastfeed abangnya. bangga jugak OK! :)

Hafiy tiba2 semalam berdiri sendiri and melangkah selangkah ke depan sebelum jatuh terduduk. oh sangat impress sebab he never did that before! kadang2 jeles jugak bila tengok our friends' children yang baya Hafiy dah boleh tatih, tolak itu ini, berdiri sendiri, etc. but this lil guy never forget to give us suprise!

datang2 rumah Tok Ma, he hunted for something to be pushed. biasanya bakul bajulah. tolak sampai ke dapur. ada walker tp tak gemar sangat tolak walker... maybe nak something different kot.

and yesterday also Hafiy climbed up the stairs sampai atas. sorang2. biasanya Mami kena teman. very independent kat umah Tok Ma ni...

as far as i can remember, Hafiy did all these at his 10 MO...

- suka unpack barang. barang2 pasar ke jgn risau nk unpack, dia akan tolong unpack kan. beg pakaian Mami pun Hafiy tolong unpack. tp un-pack ajela... bukan tolong kemas. huhuh.
- suka clearkan meja. habis semua benda kene campak bawah. kasi clear sikit meja kan, baru kemas kan?
- suka kuarkan baju dalam bakul laundry. kat mana2 yg accessible. nanti Mami nak suruh Hafiy kuarkan & masuk dalam mesin basuh la.
- suka buah. nampak aje sesiapa makan buah, orang itu akan jadi geng Hafiy.
- susah dah nk pakaikan diapers. kena pakai sambil berdiri/merangkak/berdokong. nak beli jenis pants tu mahal sgt laaaa.. tak mampu la Mami.
- asik makaaaaaaan je. tapi badan tak naik2. makin turun adelah. sekarang 8kg. aktif sangat gamaknya. tak boleh duduk diam.
- betul2 jadi Hassan Al-Banna. masa Abiy tidur, Hafiy belum tidur. bila Abiy bangun, Hafiy dah jaga.
- cemanapun Hafiy makin cute :)

Adik pulak... last scan dia tengak letak tangan kat dahi. Dr Aida cakap "anak you ni semua jenis berfikirlah. fikir harga minyak naik ke" :P

and if 1st September ni kita ada di KL, Mami & Adik akan pegi check up kat Prince Court Medical Centre :D teruja nak pegi sebab Dr. Aida bagitau it's a 7 stars hospital, & Dr. Seri Suniza was her senior. bila lagi nak merasa... time2 ada sponsor ni mari kita cuba saja!

Bad Mommy Day

lately Mami dah kurang bagi perhatian pada Hafiy. sedihnya.. (hehehe) even weekend pun Mami spend time tidooo sepanjang hari, especially hari2 Mami berpuasa memang tak larat sangat. sampai Abi komen Hafiy asyik dengan Bibik aje. mandi dengan Bibik, makan dengan Bibik, main dengan Bibik.... oh Mami sangat2 tidak larat. sorry yer sayang...

bila main dengan Bibik, Bibik kata Hafiy suka jerit2 marah kalo Bibik usik barang Hafiy, buat2 nak makan makanan Hafiy... oh Hafiy dah makan banyak sekarang. hari2 makan nasik dah. kadang2 Mami masak spageti untuk Hafiy. Hafiy sangat suka! Bibik la excited nak menggemukkan Hafiy. maklumlah berat tak naik-naik. tp Mami tak kisah je, asalkan sihat dan ceria sudah.

disebabkan Mami tak larat nak melayan dan hari2 terjelepok je, tak dapat lah nak bersama2 'menyambung sel otak' Hafiy. sambil BF pun Mami tido, tak larat sesangat. tp untuk terus menggalakkan Hafiy terus suka buku (Bibik kata Hafiy kalau main mainan, cepat je boring. kalau pegang buku baru lama sikit belek2), Mami lambakkan buku kat atas katil. pagi2 Hafiy bangun, boleh pegi belek buku. untuk mengelakkan buku itu dikoyak dan menjadi chewing gum, Mami bagi buku jenis yang wipe off tu. keras tapi tak macam board book. kira OKlah Hafiy tak boleh koyak2 dan chew. buku2 kertas lembut semua dah jadi mangsa koyakan dan kunyahan yang rakus.

sekarang ni Hafiy dalam 'mode memusnahkan barang'. semua barang2 yang Mami/Bibik susun, satu-satu Hafiy sepah dan selerakkan. objek paling digemari ialah kotak bekas supplement Mami. punyelah struggle panjat kerusi nak capai.kalau time Mami OK, Mami layan Hafiy, masukkan semula, macamana nak susun, letak balik kat tempat asal. kalau time Mami penat, Mami biar je Hafiy tarik, jatuhkan & keluarkan semua isi kotak. selerakkan & jadikan botol2 tu sebagai rattle. layan~

tapi penat2 pun kadang2 Mami kena jugak gagahkan, cari Hafiy kalau tiba2 hilang dari pandangan. kadang2 Hafiy pegi main kat stoller & hi chair, main2 roda. suka sangat dengan roda. OK la kalau Hafiy main kat situ sebab Mami bole nampak. tapi kekadang Hafiy merangkak pegi dapur main dengan hos mesin basuh, kuali2, botol2 minyak tu. aduuh, nak tak nak, pening2 pun kene jugak bangun pegi amik Hafiy. bahaya main kat dapur, kot lah ada apa2 yang Mami tak perasan. nanti Abiy kena install gate kat pintu dapur karang ni.

Adik pun agak terabai jugak sekarang. Mami kurang bercakap, dan membaca dengan Adik. oh Mami sangat tidak laraaaat. kat ofis pun kalau turun-naik (even pakai lif), termengah2 jugak Mami dibuatnya (macamana nak hidup kat KL nanti?). minggu ni kita pegi check up Adik & ambik kad merah dia. Mami tengah fikir lagi nak check up kat mana bila kat KL nanti... Damansara Damai Medical Centre atau Prince Court Medical Centre? DDMC macam best sebab dekat rumah Tok Pa, time weekend bole pegi. PMC pulak dekat ofis Mami nanti & hospital tu macam canggih je. hehe. oh yang mana satu...pilihan kalbu~

Mami harap sickness ni cepatlah berakhir. Mami nak layan Hafiy dan Adik. kita boleh main2, baca buku & bercerita. sekarang Mami nak cakap2 pun tak larat. nak senyum pun tak larat! hahaha. cemana pun alhamdulillah sebab Mami selera makan (masakan sendiri sahaja). & tiba2 Mami boleh makan mangga muda yang masam tu. biasanya tak mampu nak telan kalau tak celup gula banyak2.

On Daily Trip - Being Preggy is Not A Limit

it has been a week with no new entry from Mommy.

it was a long, busy week. meddlesome office jobs, and dealing with early pregnancy fatigue, i need more sleep!

when i decided to make a daytrip to KL on 4th July, it was somehow brought up debates, among my friends and even Abiy. Abiy suggested to sleep over, but i said, it makes no difference if i sleep over, or come back and sleep at home. if it is at the middle of the week, yes i might sleep over, but since it is Friday, then i have long hours to rest, on my own bed.

it has been a popular taboo since ever, about normal activities a preggy lady shouldn't do. one of it was flying during pregnancy. i've been to many discussion forums, and the most popular question was "can i fly while pregnant?". the answer is, definitely YES.

actually there were some studies done to justify whether a preggy lady is safe travelling via air or not. and the result was, during 1st trimester, most of the subjects went to miscarriage, due to:-
- on air travel
- radiation

however, it wasn't caused by the air travel alone, but the subjects (the flight attendances) are those who works for many hours, and taking long hours flight.

by right, travelling by air during pregnancy is perfectly safe. however, 2nd trimester is the best time, since it is a honeymoon period for most moms-to-be, and there's no risk for miscarriage or preterm labour. somehow, other than dealing with risks to miscarriage and preterm labor, it's also about comfortability. during 1st trimester, usually associate with morning sickness, so it's not advisable for a MTB to travel. and on discomfort during late pregnancy, a MTB should stay on the ground.

my flight was at 0620hrs to KL and 2040hrs back to Miri.

since it was a daytrip, i just brought my backpack and my f2go. the 2.5hours flight was a tiring. oh, even 30mins flight is tiring due to the ungrounded ion our body receives. how to reduce this? i touch the plane's body as i get our of it, before go into the terminal.

i pump 3 times, 2 times at KLCC (thanks to Aunty Zu) and another one at KLIA nursing room. oh sungguh tak selesa sebab mamat2 Bangla keluar masuk the room. i dunno what's on earth they were doing in the room. but since they didn't disturb me, so i just ignore je la.

the do's to travel during pregnancy:
1. consult with the gynae - to ensure you fly with no risk
2. ask for front seat - easy to get in and out
3. get enough rest - before, during & after
4. bring your own food for morning sickness

the dont's:
1. fly on long hours - you might extremely tired
2. high altitude, non pressurised flight - the pressure may cause the oxygen supply to your body, and your baby

additional infos:
1. airport security x-ray scanner is safe
2. EBM (liquid or frozen) is a CAN for domestic flight

tips for a daytrip MTB:
1. manage the time wisely so you won't be in hurry
2. choose good transportation to take you to the airport so that you can rest
3. make sure you'll have time to rest after the flight
4. bring 'mini 1st aid' like balm, minyak panas along
5. keep a pack of cracker & a bottle of water in your bag
6. free yourself from worry

you should not worry too much about your body and baby during pregnancy. a study from a baby charity shows that 90% of preggy moms who let themselves worry too much cause their pregnancy to be affected. being pregnant doesn't require you to stay at home and stop all activities (unless you're dealing with pregnancy discomfort, risk, or advised by your gynae).

don't take pregnancy as a limit. it's a joyful moment!

Hafiy dan Susunya

i went to Dr. Aida to check Adik, and she confirmed that i was about 5 week saja.. ahahaha.. sungguh down sangat masa tu. bercampur baur perasaan, sebab Mami expect i was 2 months++ hehe. dahla Abiy tak ada.. mujurlah ada Aunty Aida, Auntry Eryn & sebagainya, hahaha. morning sickness, go away! syoooo~

Dr Aida wants to see us next 2 weeks to determine the EDD. disebabkan besar Adik (nampak sac 1.6cm je baru..) tak match dengan LMP, so dia tak bole decide EDD from last period date lah. tp probably Adik bakal lahir end of February tahun depan, insya-Allah. ahah. Dr Aida kata Adik baru je 'jadi'. :D so next check up harap2 Abiy ada sama lah. tak best la pegi sorang2. balik xde orang nak share storrriiii.

malam tu Abiy call, Mami bgtau update tu. Abiy suh Mami cari nama. hehe. Mami cakap nak nama ni kalo boy lagi & kalo girl... hehehe... excited macam nak timang anak sulung OK! neway semua anak special belaka... cuma yang second ni maybe ada '2nd child syndrome' sikitlah. bila inform atok2, semuanya selamba je, tak macam time Hafiy dulu :D diorang pun terkejut agaknya...

sesungguhnya keadaan sekarang menguatkan lagi keazaman Mami utk terus BF Hafiy. alhamdulillah skarang Mami rasa cukup kuat membina self-motivation to tandem breastfeed. ramai yang suruh Mami start FM kat Hafiy. RAMAI OK. tapi itu semua cuma jadi bunga2 di telinga saja :D lainlah kalo mereka itu yang mahu membeli, membancuh, membasuh dan sebagainya, mungkin Mami bole consider, provided Mami nak FM yang PALING MAHAL, botol yang PALING MAHAL, air bancuh dari PENAPIS yang PALING MAHAL.

maafla, bukan Mami menyombong tentang FM tapi selagi bole (selagi diizinkan Allah), Mami akan terus BF Hafiy. kalo kita bole bagi anak kita kelas A, kenapa nak bagi kelas B pulak kan? (sori i'm not saying that FM is class B but to me it's not a choice).

tp ape yang buat Mami bangga dengan pencapaian Mami ialah Mami dah tak 'berkecil' hati dengan mereka2 itu :) sungguh, sudah tidak berasa apa2. cuma Mami suka la sharing2 dgn beberapa orang kawan.. tp bukan mengadu sebab Mami tak kisah pon... kecuali kalo orang2 itu datang bawa FM paling MAHAL, botol paling MAHAL, air bancuh PALING pure, & offer macam2 perkhidmatan utk meng-FM-kan Hafiy tu agak tergugat jugak gamaknya. hehe.

susu Mami sekarang mengalami peruduman yang jelas lagi nyata. tp Mami tak bersetuju dgn idea 'bila pregnant susu kurang'. it's just kind of psychology to me. bila selalu piki macam tu, memang susu akan kurang. & Mami tak fikir peruduman itu adalah sebab pregnancy since Mami dah mengalaminya since 3 months ago. tp Mami mengakui mmg ada ibu2 yg menghadapi situasi demikian, 'rasa'nya bertukar, supply drop, efect kandungan, etc. but it is not necessarily SHOULD be faced by everybody. & if benda tu berlaku, we have to redha la kan. tp cemanapon, berpantang maut sebelum ajal :)

semalam Mami cakap ngan Abiy "Biy, kalo Mami tak larat BF Hafiy, kita hantar Shah Alam nak? (rumah Acif) :P" tahu Abiy jawab apa? "ha... biarlah dia duk sana sebulan dua" huhuhu. sungguh Mami lagi sanggup cari ibu susu utk Hafiy daripada kasik FM. bukan sebab anti-FM ok, tp ada banyak sebab seperti:
1) KEDEKUT nak kuarkan duit beli FM - memang Mami kedekut. drp beli FM, Mami nk beli pam lagi satu.
2) MALAS nak bancuh2 susu - nak bancuh minum sendiri pon malas, inikan pulak nk bancuh minum orang... mujur kat ofis ada orang tolong bancuhkan. haha. TQ kakak tealady!
3) paip kat umah TAKDE FILTER - kitorang pon minum air mineral hari2. nape tak beli filter? sbb kami KEDEKUT.
rasanya 3 alasan tu dah cukup kot. :D unless ada orang nak sponsor laa sumer2 tuhhhh. bolehh laaa dipikirkannnn :)

oh Mami nak share satu conversation ni. tak berniat mengaibkan sesapa, cuma utk panduan kita2...

"dah bagi FM ke Hafiy?"
"insya-Allah tak nak. teruskan BF lah"
"kenapa taknak? tak eloklah pregnant BF"
"tak apa..."
"janganla nak memandai-mandai"
"saya tak memandai2, saya baca, belajar, tanye orang, tgk praktis orang..."

Mami bukan BF bodoh2 je... since before Mami pregnant Hafiy, Mami dah belajar sikit2. masa pregnant Hafiy lagi lahhhh Mami belajar..sampailah sekarang, Mami terus belajar. mmg ada silap, kurang sana sini, tapi itukan namanya belajar... tapi Mami belajar. ada banyak source of info, bak kata BD* (ada benda menarik tentang ini), "semua google saja". free infos. & buku2 pun banyak.... & zaman skarang semua di hujung jari, bole consult sapa2 online saja, xpayah call2 atau jumpa2.

masa jumpa Dr Aida (she's pregnant too!), dia pesan kat Mami supaya BF Hafiy. dia sendiri pun tandem nurse, tapi dah stop 3 minggu lepas sebab anak 2nd dia dah 2 tahun. cuma dia pesan supaya makan banyak sikit sebab perlukan banyak kalori utk BF & pregnancy.

BF ni orang kata nasib2. tak kisahlah nasib ke apa, yang penting, buat lah selagi terdaya. kalo dah tak daya jangan dipaksa, nanti lain pulak jadinya. huhu.
(abg Acif nak Hafiy tak? :P)

*rupanya2 ada somebody di ofis (sgt somebody!) reads this blog! segan i~ tp seronok sebab dia puji "good la u tulis blog utk anak u, nanti ur little girl (little girl????) besar dia akan ingat mak dia tulis dia punye journey" ahak-ahak. rasa nak buat special entry pulak utk BD :P ampun... ampun...!

video masa Hafiy baru masuk 8 bulan.. tgh belajar2 sebut Mama. skg dah jadi "Maaaaaak"
tadi Bibik kate, susu dlm botol ada sikit lagi, Bibik suruh Hafiy habiskan, Hafiy jerit "daaaaah!"
biar betul Bibik ni....

My Big Boy

it happened in a day! last week, he was still under my armpit. still nangis2 mintak Mami dokong. still majuk2 taknak makan kalo Mami taknak suap mamam. still malas nak crawl. still taknak buat itu ini kalo Mami tak join sama...

but today... he's so different! Hafiy tiba2 'lari' dari Mami. Hafiy crawl panjat 'tangga' setingkat tu. pegi main2 kat weight scale Mami, pegi dapur, panjat tangga naik atas (sampai Bibik jerit2 takut jatuh), pegi kat playmat, main2 buai (nak berlatih buai adik?), korek kotak mainan cari toys, main toy sorang2, belek book Mami sorang2, bukak tutup almari... before this.. NEVER!!! sampai Mami cakap kat Hafiy "Hafiy pegila main2 sana.. explore situ..masuk sini.." but the best place is under ketiak Mami jugak.

lagi, tiba2 Hafiy suka mamam sendiri (marah kalo Bibik nak suapkan, siap buang dulu pastu amik sendiri). tp since Hafiy sembelit terus last week (oh thanks to the fresh grapes!), Mami dah disallow Hafiy makan bubur lagi. balik kepada buah semula. Bibik complaining about not giving Hafiy bubur. "nanti perut tak bole belajar digest" la, "nanti Hafiy tak pandai makan la.." ape2 ajelah Bibik oi.

Mami told Abiy on the phone about the sudden changes, Abiy macam tak caya. biar betul... it's too sudden! oh adakah ini perangai biasa budak2 yg nak dapat adik...

but one thing, Hafiy's still a berat mulut ones. it's hard to hear any word from him unless "arrgghhhhh!", "eeekkkkk"..., "mama" pun dah jarang keluar. ah, no big deal la. baru 8 bulan je, bukan 8 tahun dah pun.

about the pregnancy, and the tandem nursing, so far so good... but i really hope that i am MORE THAN 2 months! cos i dont want to face morning sickness (now still no significant MS)... :D oh i still remember during Hafiy time, i couldn't eat for 4 months... lembik je... hopefully adik Hafiy (hmm we have to list down some names) ia easier than last time, and allow me to tandem nurse. insya-Allah.

during Hafiy time, we already called him 'Hafiy' since we knew it was a boy. and we wish to call adik Hafiy by 'it's' name lah.

oh talking about name, i like to share some tips for choosing baby name:

1. religion
as Muslims, it shouldn't necessarily naming our child in Arabic, but it MUST be a good name, with good meaning. however, for most of us (Malaysian Muslim), Arabic name is somewhat a choice, easier and it is 'recognized' as a name. (between Bunga and Zahrah, i bet 90% will go for Zahrah - at least before Bunga Cinta Lestary becomes popular)

2. gender
sometimes i like the blurry line between the name of specific gender. like Firdaus, it can be girl or boy. but the 'obvious' girl name, shouldn't be named to a boy right? or is there any boy named 'Siti'?

3. memories
even if the name sounds good, it shouldn't be same with ex-BF or GF or ex-fiance... oh my..

4. the meaning
this is the thing that is really important. shouldn't look at how sweet the name is, but the meaning is bad. give them a good name with good meaning, and it will be a doa for the rest of their lives.

5. honor
this is not common in our region, i guess. we don't have Mohd Ali Muda, Mohd Ali Muda 2, etc. for us it is more related to somebody who's really a somebody like Muhammad (Rasulullah), Abu Bakar, Umar, Humaira', Hawa' etc.

6. nickname
for single-word or 2 sukukata might be easy to nickname, like Hafiy, Adam, Ali, Ain, Sarah.. parents might have their own nickname for longer name's children, but what their friend's gonna call them is something good to consider.

7. easy to live with
remember that our kids have to live with their name forever, even after their death. give them good names, and i guess should be not too long cos they have to write/type it on everypiece of exam paper... huhuhu

8. unique
name is given to identify and distinguish each individuals. if everyone has the same name, then what is the function of naming?

“Sesungguhnya kamu dipanggil pada Hari Kiamat dengan nama-nama kamu dan nama-nama bapa kamu, dari itu elokkanlah nama-nama kamu.”
(HR Abu Daud & Ahmad)

Hafiy Al-Fateh is named before Muhammad Al-Fateh, the Constantinople conquerer. Hafiy means Kind & Affectionate (one of nama gelar Nabi Muhammad SAW) and Al-Fateh means The Opener.

special video for Aunty Babe. gelap sikitlah. jimat letrik. mahal skg ni.

saya sedang cuba buka almari TV. saya tension sebab xbole bukak luas2, saya nak main dengan decoder Astro yg ada lampu tu. apsal pintu almari ni asik tertutup je kalo saya lepas???

Tandem Nursing : A Choice

thank you for all the CONGRATS wishes!

i need more than a day to accept the truth that i'm expecting, again :) oh i planned to be in pregnant mode at least after Hafiy is 2 YO. but we just planned.. :) but i'm very happy cos i got my target weight of 45kg!

the nite that i went to the panel doctor to check my BP, i said to Abiy "i dunno what makes my BP so low lately. i eat so much, plus the supplement. could it be, because i'm pregnant?" Abiy replied "it is impossible"(with kambing grin). but we went to Guardian at Bintang, just hoping it was negative so that we can proceed to any treatment or medication to bring my BP back to normal.

the test kit was safely preserved in my bag for 2 days. but on Friday morning, i just 'did' the test bcos Abiy's going to Lumut on Saturday, and maybe for a week. so anything, i wan't gonna face it alone.

and there it goes...

we went again to the clinic that nite, to confirm. yeah i am pregnant! but how many months, how many weeks, i can't tell the exact. i felt the symptoms since 3 months ago, i missed my period for 2 months, and the panel doctor wrote 5/52 in my referral letter, meaning i am only 5 week. so, wait until i see the gynae, when Abiy's back from Malaya.

the first thing Abiy asked me after i showed him the 2 lines kit was "nanti Hafiy kene bagi formula ke? kan sian Mami sakit2 & tak larat".
i told him that i WILL continue breastfeeding Hafiy despite the pregnancy, as long as ia tidak memudaratkan Mommy & adik.

and yes, it's the decision i HAVE TO make because not everybody agrees (nor educated) about tandem nursing.

i got some responses about breastfeeding during pregnancy:
my fren A : "so Hafiy nanti nak kasik formula la?"
my fren B : "wean la Hafiy kan?"
Bibik : "sudah ada isi, tak payahlah menyusu lagi"

but my answer was like what i told Abiy, except Bibik i said "doktor kata tak apa.." (satu cara tutup mulut utk makcik2 begitu ialah ckp 'doktor kata..'). but i'm not lying to her cos my gynae's wife, Dr Awang, did tandem nursing and just stop the BF during the birth.

i think tandem nursing is unusual in our region, since many moms i knew will stop BFing the elder child when having a new ones. actually, this is very personal and nursing two at a time is definitely challenging. there's some myths about tandem nursing:-
- pregnant ladies shouldn't breastfeed.
- the nutrient is imbalance since it has to adjust for 2 different ages babies.
- the newborn deserve the milk.
- mom will malnutrition for 'sharing' with the other two.
- BF won't benefit the elder child.
- etc.

as long as tidak memudaratkan, either me or the little one here, insya-Allah i will continue breastfeeding.

There is no evidence to suggest that nursing while pregnant endangers the fetus during a normal pregnancy. If a mother has previously delivered a premature baby, develops signs of pre-term labor, or is carrying multiples, there is concern that a hormone released during lactation (oxytocin) may stimulate contractions and trigger a premature labor. In these special situations, mothers are often advised to wean their older child. Research suggests that the uterus is not receptive to hormonal stimulation from oxytocin until around 24 weeks gestation, so it is generally safe to consider nursing until about 20 weeks, even in these special situations. There is almost never a need to wean abruptly during pregnancy.

Nursing during pregnancy will not deprive the fetus of essential nutrients, and will not create a harmful "drain" on the mother's body. During pregnancy, it is always important to eat nutritiously, gain weight appropriately, and get adequate rest. A well-nourished mother should have no problem providing enough nutrients for both her unborn baby and her nursing child. Breastfeeding provides several opportunities each day for the expectant mother to take breaks and rest while her toddler nurses or naps.

this is really tough. right now even i have to strengthen my determination to tandem nurse, since the B become so tender lately and often sooooo painful. and i start to feel so-called morning sickness. oh i hope it will over very soon! Abiy's role is very important now to encourage me to continue nursing Hafiy until he is at least 2 YO, or until he's willingly wean himself off.

yeah this is a very personal decision to made. hopefully, adik Hafiy is as strong as his/her brother, and willing to share... :P maybe this is why He chose me to get pregnant even before my first child is 2YO, He wants me to tandem nurse!

The Answer

now we got the answer for all these...
- low BP
- sorenipples
- blur vision
- etc.

should we....
- stay with MY SUPER CHILD, or
- move to MY SUPER CHILDREN, or
- create another MY SUPER CHILD 2???

what???