Your Ultrasound Image

we (Mommy & Abi) dont have scanner, so i just take the pic of you using my handphone. it's not very clear but still can see you head, hands and torso right? you leg were folded (since you didn't want to reveal you sex!).

this pic was taken monday last week but i just can upload it now (just found the bluetooth adapter). guess what you were doing during the ultrasound! you slept soundly... didnt you know that mommy keep on waiting for appointment session to see you kicking and jumping, as what you did during our 13th week visit. maybe you were tired since mommy couldnt eat anything that day, plus a great headache.

sometimes you moved your legs, and Dr Aida struggled to peep at your toot. then she said "this might be a boy". oh dear.. please be a boy OK? a very good boy.

You're Not Underweight, I am

when i told people that i do not gained much weight, most of them are shocked. they thought that you are very small. but i told them that i feel normal, since all my food are restricted by you (you always gimme sign to stop eating before i can finish a plate). and sometimes i throw away everything i swallow before.

one of my pal said that she gained 4kg during her 4th month, and another pal said she gained 3kg + but she thought that she's underweight since a magazine told that a mommy should gain 8kg extra in 18th week! well, i am not an expert but my common sense says it is ridiculous. normal weight for 18 weeks babies are only 200gm. where does the other 7.8kg comes? placenta? amnion fluid? fat? even the full-term weight gain is maximum 16kg. hmm...her info made me more uncomfortable with magazine.

i dont buy magazine for reference, just to additional reading. i dont know, maybe i had several mismatch understanding with most magazines. to me, some magazines are meant to attract readers without caring much on what their contents. i read a magazine, where a mom-to-be asked the panel, why does her teeth become frail during pregnancy? guess what was the answer? it was "there's no specific reason". in fact, it's because of the hormonal changes that makes mom's gum loosen. hmm.. they just sell the magazine, NOT THE RIGHT INFO.

i am more comfortable with books and proven studies by the experts (eventho i dunno them). i read some books & go to some websites to compare and majority say the recommended weight gain for a-healthy-BMI-mom-to-be is:
and this is what i am. hm.. pretty cool. i like this. i dont want to gain extra weight unless what i should. your normal weight plus placenta plus amniotic fluid plus uterus plus blood plus breast and a little fat in my butt and thigh to support my uterus and you.

however, please don't let me go under the minimum curve! i dont want you to born underweight! but people say that my tummy is soo big and i am soo thin. whatever, as long as your weight development is excellent.

actually you have prove this in our last scan, your development is normal, and your weight too. that's why i'm not worry at all even if my wight gain is not very significant. i dont wanna be a FAT MOMMY!!!

Kickin' & Movin'

last saturday was a very overwhelming day for me. you moved, kicked, punched, jumped, etc. until i felt geli2 in my tummy. i didn't do anything all day long, just enjoy your play and feel my tummy harden and soften from outside. i don't know how to describe it when you make the moves. like something flying in my tummy, moving here & there like i wanna passing gas but it is you, i know.

abi tries several times to feel you from outside my tummy but i told him that you were too small to be touched and felt from outside. maybe in the next 4 weeks, only he'll be able to catch you! after all, you're still under 200gram. how heavy ar? i think just about my mouse's weight.

on sunday, i couldn't feel you often. i guess you were tired for all-day football-playing the previous day. i just noted that you moved occasionally. you were menggeliat, maybe. i dunno what made you so active on saturday and got all-day-long sleep on sunday. maybe you were preparing for your future as our kid, full of activities on saturday and rest on sunday.

hahaha. smart boy~

My Pregnancy Journey up to 4th Month

i dont face any weird experience during my early pregnancy, except the fatiguingly morning everytime sickness (still have it now). i dont have weird dream (as i notice many moms-to-be have this), i dont have 'allergy' to anything or any smell (except nasi... weeekkk!!!), i dont look 'big' to Abi (except my tummy part), my mood is stable and doesnt swing sparingly (i dont have one-time-weep-then-happy syndrome), and many other pregnancy myths..

to me alhamdulillah.. i feel more independent. since Abi is not God-he-is-so-caring person, i feel so relief. if i became sensitive suddenly, Abi would not be happy since he's not that kind of person. Abi is a very particular person. and not a kinda repetitive one. if he says "i want A", then suddenly B happens, he would definitely can't accept. and he wont say it everyday like "i want A" today, "i want A" tomorrow. it's only today "i want A" and i must be A everyday.

i dont feel anything special unless i don have to cook and tidy up the house. our kitchen has not been smoked since last 3 months and our clothes is not folded for weeks. however, Abi doesnt treat me like a queen or princess. i am just a wife to a guy called Abi to us.

however, that's how he loves us and that's why i love him so much. you must love Abi, as you love me OK!

17th week fetous

look at you! you are 19cm now! my weight is not significantly increase.. last monday i weighted myself at Columbia Asia, i am 47kg! my normal weight used to be varies from 45-47kg (can i take the average as 46?). some of my friends gain 4kg-10kg during their 4th month.

but i dont think i am abnormal. first, you restrict me from eating more.. if i can finish up a plate of nasik, it'a the biggest blessing to Abi (for dont have to eat it for me instead of let it being wasted). second, your weight is only 0.2kg plus the placenta, the cord and amniotic fluid, i think it roughly about 0.5kg. if only i gain more than 1kg, it's not because of you, it's me! huhu.

last scan, you were sleeping. hmm.. i tot i wanna see you kicking like the last time one. so horrible when you kicked like doing shadow dancing, huhu. but last time you slept.. how could you let you Mommy frustrating like that.. hehe. and you are so meant.. didnt want to show us your sex. or, maybe you feel embarrassed when Dr Aida kept on pointing the probe on your *****. if that is the case, it's OK. you are my smart boy.